Beyond = Peace and Love

Wonder Girls!!!! Nobody

2009-05-20T14:25:00.002+08:00

Catchy.
NOT MTV but the dancesteps tutorial. SOLID man....
So freaking ringing in my brain now...

Picks a punch when jogging.

Along with the Lyrics in more readable English.....

You Know I still Love You Baby.
And it will never change.

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
nan dareun sarameun sirheo niga animyeon sirheo
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

nan sirheunde wae nal mireonaeryeogo hani jakku naemareun deutji anko
wae ireoke dareun namjaege nal bonaeryeo hani eotteoke ireoni

nal wihae geureotan geu mal
neon bujokhadaneun geu mal
ijen geumanhae neon nareul aljanha wae wonhajido annneungeol gangyohae

I want nobody nobody But You I want nobody nobody But You
nan dareun sarameun sirheo niga animyeon sirheo
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody nobody But You I want nobody nobody But You
nan dareun sarameun sirheo niga animyeon sirheo
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

nan joheunde nan haengbokhande neoman isseumyeon dwae deo baralge eomneunde
nugul mannaseo haengbokharan geoya nan neol tteonaseo haengbokhal su eobseo

nal wihae geureotan geu mal
neon bujokhadaneun geu mal
mari an doeneun mariran geol wae molla niga eobsi eotteoke haengbokhae

I want nobody nobody But You I want nobody nobody But You
nan dareun sarameun sirheo niga animyeon sirheo
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody nobody But You I want nobody nobody But You
nan dareun sarameun sirheo niga animyeon sirheo
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I don't want nobody body body.I don't want nobody body
naneun jeongmal niga animyeon niga animyeon sirtan mallya a~

I want nobody nobody But You I want nobody nobody But You
nan dareun sarameun sirheo niga animyeon sirheo
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody nobody But You I want nobody nobody But You
nan dareun sarameun sirheo niga animyeon sirheo
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

RAP)
Back to the days when we were so young and wild and free
modeunge neomuna kkumman gatatdeon geuttaero doragago sipeunde
wae jakku nareul mireonaeryeo hae
Why do you push me away.
I don't want nobody nobody
Nobody nobody but you.

New job, new ride

2008-09-25T15:07:00.003+08:00

From This

To This

Hmmmm Change new job, change new bike, new phase in life.. Dilemma over the wrong decision made for taking Degree in Business Computing... Life is so HAPPENING man....
Yet Sillyporean like to use SIAN to describe everything.

Is it getting mundane? Hmmmm its how we make everyday a happening and lively one.
3 months into new job. Its still hard to get the product into my brain. So many diff classes. AND ALSO NEED TO LEARN BOUT OUR COMPETITORS -_- ....This outta kill some braincells.
Though further than IBP and less interesting (for now), the collegues are nice. Seems like people in this office keep on striking 4D for some reason. I wonder when will I have my chance. If that really happens, I can clear my debts to mummy...and i'll feel so much lighter... not to mention can save more everymonth.....

So many things I want to do the the bike ( have been restraining myself since selling off super4) But as I remove more stuff.. i see more dents and scratches..... esp the engine guard & Side box rack.. I really getting SIANz.....
Well i hope to do it up slowly. I also pray that this engine will last me FOR A WHILE!.... Good FC, good pick up... Wat more to ask for? What CLASS 2 bike can do 20 Litres for 400 ++++ KM? Can someone point out 1 to me?
Plans to carry out for the bike
1) Throttle body sync + cleaning of injector pin
2) BMW grip + motovation balance
3) Original DL650 handguard
4) LED mirror ( original one sucks, cant see much traffic, left side also slightly broken)
5) Change larger Top box
6) dono if can straighten the engine guard + side box frame
7) More lights for any other reasons..... HAHAHAHA

My prayers will be health for my whole family, my successful change of course and whatever endeavors that comes along. PLEASE LET THINGS FLOW SMOOTHLY!

Thoughts after Road show

2008-08-05T14:12:00.003+08:00

Being together with my ex-collegues are definitely fun. Though it was helping out. I know there are many things that they still need my help. 1 thing. Besides leonard, ethan and Jason didnt had any experience in Roadshows or exhibition. More interesting instance is I even refer Jason to old catalogue to fetch the dimension for the Micro FF to install in Eugene's bike. Hahahah

I feel farny cos I left 2 month+ already. Everything still very much in my brain. The new job. I feel only 10% is being absorbed. WHY? Thats the dilemma. WHY? Transition Period? Passion? $$? Being tempted to re-join da group again but there are factors putting me back the idea.
Chinese there is an old saying: " 好马不吃回头草“。 Aka Good horse do not return to old pasture for grass. Did some losers came up with this phrase or is it true? I am having some irritating moments with my thoughts....

Found this online ..... Combination of Back to the Future meets Rick Astley. Well done!!!!!

Well this is Rick.. @ Singfest 2008!!! He still rocks... or rather Roll'D.. Rick Roll'd

Together Forever !!!!!

Singapore Bike Fest 2008

2008-08-05T11:40:00.012+08:00

Manage to find some pictures to post. ITs been quite boring recently, New job (talk more later) I guess the most happening recently is only this bike fest.

Last wed. Ex-collegue sms me
J => last min we got the booth @ Bike Fest. U wanna come help?
me => Price?
J => help out no talk $$ la
Me=> Eh... i was profession ok. This was wat i do. Right now cost even more
J => Ur pay how much per hour now. I ask Boss
Me=> Eh.... its more that wat i got back there. Ur boss know. I told her b4.. haha
J => Ok.. talked to her liao. But only can give this much.
Me=> Ok la. Since you say help liao.. at least a decent price. Swee on
J=> I know its a bit last min but can you help me find a BMW GS1200?
Me=> Ok. No Prob. But if don have, any other big bikes u have in mind?
J => Err..... best is its BMW la. U know what we do .. .so best if BMW lor...
Me=> Ok no prob.

So i guess this part time was better than the fulltime job now. HAHAHAH
Well passion + work => NO WORK.. hahahah

Lets post some pictures now. Not in any particular orders. Some from Web some from my Forum.

On Sun b4 starting out ( I'm already @ kallang working lor)

@ Kallang. I marshalled the group to the parking lots

Alan and the guys had poses with da show gals

In Front of the Stage!!

On da way Kallang

Pocket Bikers @ da show

Stuns on scrams

LC food court. Setting out point for Moto-V convoy on Sun.
( Seriously last year was a better one )

Babes shot again ( alan u taken a lot hor)

And another one

Aerial View of the booths.

SPG on da Pink ZX636. Custom paint by SGairbrush ( shane) Cost 4k with 2 months of work! Nap ah

Some pp say she chio. I see real person. Ok la ops...

Our model of the event. Eugene's BMW GS1200.

Last min done up with Help of Liu ( until 11+ on Fri nite)
I should say the lights are Solid man

Jason my ex-collegue having a "HIGH" time on the GS.
Flanking is Leonard and Ethan

Da Hella Showguys.......

SPG on the BMW GS1200

Stunt Shows again WHEELLIE

Custom!

Check out those ARSES!!!

SPGs again on ducati

SPGs on ATVs ( da kid quite happy sia)

Closeup ( taken from Clubsnap forum)

SPGs again.

SPGs again

Continue............

DAmn high wheeliess man!!!!

Can u believe they are locals..... .Not bad ....

Come on.. STAND UP!

REV those engines!!!

SBF 2008

Event Stage

Grown up on Pocket Bike

Kids on Pocket bike

A Mini Gudang @ kallang

Flying man?

Walk ya bike, ditch the doggies

Scrams for All sizes

Free wheelie rides!!!! Only gal pillions need to apply

Burnout....... Smells like crap man

Stunts again

SPGs

SPGs

and more SPGs

RETRO man..... damn old bike......

Retro bike

Close up. Can see the engine and pistons

Well maintained

Another shot

A Goldwing 1000..... Was launched back in 1978!!! OMG....

Pocket Bikers getting ready

The fest is jus ok this year. The convoy feelsl like malay weddding. Nothing like last year with Grand entrance to suntec. I even got a parking ticket 1st day when i park @ CARLOT. The organiser ask me to park there. After a couple of hours I came out to meet the guys at KKFC. I saw the ticket.. -_- .. wtf.

There are definitely a lot of things need to improve. Rather this year is a major drop in standard.

Living with the Decision

2008-07-17T15:10:00.003+08:00

Its been 1 month since I started new work place.
1) Far
2) Far
3) Far

Filled with LKKs. I really wonder if they really need me here.
Jobscope is not really well defined. Email to rest of the world. NO response. WTF
I really miss IBP. There might be fark type things going around but still can see things move. If this carry on for the next 2 months. I seriously gonna consider jumping again. Wasting of time staying in a "MNC" but local culture. Work long long, not moving, afraid of changes, blah blah blah blah........

(Will try to blog about past happening stuff.. I promise....)

Oh yesterday ORganised a Botak Jones outing for my Bike club @ Serangoon Branch. Official opening ... hmmmm bit of kok up. Nonetheless till had quite a decent gathering and food. Well. Next time I'll stick to a small group instead of opening to the whole forum. This few place is only small and not suitable to large group.

Well thinking of organising ... another SMALL ONE... this time..... go visit DoDo for Jap buffet again... Damn.. recently been eating so much.. How to slim down? How to save MARNEE??? OMG.. .such a glutton.... damn it

Godsend

2008-05-30T03:13:00.003+08:00

Although its so late but i feel i hAve to write this down. THIS INSTANCE!!!

Been in much dilemma over whether I should stay or move on just weeks before.
I should say that I am guilty of waking up late for work. Or rather serve my notice for the current job. I played games til wee hours in the morning. Its my way of escaping my worries and doubts over did I make the right choice of leaving.

I wanted so much to stay as there is so much more that I can contribute. My interest is there. My collegues are good. Near to my school. Many days of paid leaves. I needed all those in order to let me have a smoother path to graduate my Degree.

The choice came when I have waiting long enough for my boss to "entertained" my promotion and adjustment of pay. If only i come from a better-to-do family, I would have stayed. I felt so bad that the big plans they had for the coming year was more or less affected by me. (Maybe just a wishful thinking that I am really that important in that role) Nonetheless the trigger point was the meeting in Feb that concluded my choice and the quest of a greener pasture ensured.

New Job, New Pay. Its so much a better offer, amidst the further distance, lesser leave days, shorter lunch time. New position created and from what I know they had been searching for 4 months without luck. Something that I had thoughts of end of last year. Marketing. The interested part is that the industry that they are dealing with I have all the relevent encounter in my 8 years of worklife. I though it be a cool choice as I not really like sales. IN many company. There are no dedicated team of Product Management. I should say I am really blessed to have been accepted and given the chance to brave the 2 years here. Other companies only have product marketing or product sales .... all dealing with pre or post sales activities.

Dilemma.......why.....loosing focus on HIM? Loosing the Faith in HIM? It was HIM who answered my prayers 2 years ago for letting me leave the old place; picking myself up from the trash i was and dump i was in. I prayed again when the offer came. 2 of them. Choice was my ultimate challenge. It is always said, HE will offer the path to you. Its the choice that we ourself have to make. Nothing is smooth.

Now that the choice has been made, I have to be mentally prepared for whatever that comes along. One thing I know that HE will not give me anything that I cannot handle. Nothing is Greater nor Above than HIM. Amen to that!!!!!

I even missed the chance to go Korea to accompany my GF when she's going over for stocktaking + extending her stay for a holiday. End up she went alone. I am quite worried initially. Then I prayed for Angels surround her when she's moving around herself. I instantly felt the rock being lifted. Just like that! => Sorry Meow I cant go.

Just almost an hour ago. My biker friend/poly senior send me this link. Team Hoyt - Dick and Rick Hoyt. I read about it sometime ago but never really had a chance to see the clips. Why suddenly this moment this clip came to me? Inspiration? A sign of faith? A vote of Confident?

CAN! ... simple 3 words ..... how many of us CAN actually say CAN instead of CANNOT or CAN'T?

Tears brimmed my eyes....... Thank you GOD.. God bless TEAM Hoyt.

The song that follows after the interview.

I can only Imagine - Mercy Me

I can only imagine
What it will be like
When I walk
By Your side
I can only imagine
What my eyes will see
When Your face
Is before me
I can only imagine

{Chorus}:
Surrounded by Your glory, what will my heart feel
Will I dance for You Jesus or in awe of You be still
Will I stand in Your presence or to my knees will I fall
Will I sing hallelujah, will I be able to speak at all
I can only imagine

I can only imagine
When that day comes
And I find myself
Standing in the Son
I can only imagine
When all I will do
Is forever
Forever worship You
I can only imagine

Hell................................ah

2008-05-23T01:32:00.003+08:00

Pardon me for the LONG LAPSE in blogging..... so busy....

Trying to find job, trying to decide which one to choose, trying to decide whether to stay for the counter-offer blah blah blah blah... Ok this is only jobwise

On the personal note, I finally started my degree course which i LONG put off ( damn for 5 yrs) even I didnt realise it was that long ago.

Its been 2 years.... since i joined this company. I really enjoyed working here with my interest in automotive. Doing lighting related stuff was more of passion rather than work. Finding out information, contacts, motorshows, whatever and whenever I am there to support. I didnt even mind working on weekends with no time off whatsoever.
Having said that doesnt mean I want to work for FREE. Of course anyone will want the boss to see and will know how to be "AUTOMATIC" when it comes to appraisal time. Don you agree?

Well i think this entry will be all about my time in this MNC.... (rather didnt feel like it is except that sometimes have German collegues coming over)
OH well ... and so the story goes di da di.... di da di......Oh damn.. its old skool.
Should be .. underneath my umbrella... ella... hella... heh heh heh ... .blah blah blah...

Long time ago there was this kingdom. Ruled by an dominant Ruler 大牛 aka (Cow) with great Aspiration. He had whole team of people helping him run the country. In any ancient chinese show you will know that there are always C & C officials. In this case its not Command and Conquer... Its Corrupted & Clean.

Little that they know the commoners were oppressed by the Prime Minister Mr Dragon. He was the brain for the emperor. More tax... More tax and more tax. With no contribution to the countries, they only made their national bank "rather private one" richer by the day. The prime minister has somewhat controlled the national treasury where he has "profit sharing" on top of his wages. Under his rank there is a clean old official that witness the change of 3 dynasties. As he knew too much about the Premier's plot, he was being banished to the far edges of the country where soil are infertile and having constant risk of invasion from the barbarians.

Under Cow, there were 2 scholars. One was known as Zero, the other Five. Zero took the long way to attain his rank in the court. Five being fortunate, went up in post very fast. Zero had all the aspiration and just. In some ways, he rubbed the wrong way with a lot of the Senior ministers in the court for his direct and idealistic ways. Most of the time, he had the commoners in his mind in whatever he does. Five, on the other hand, had been smooth sailing ever since his attaining of scholar from the royal exam. Without much exposure to the real world, he tries to survive using whatever method he can apply from his studies. Both Zero and Five was appointed similar post but one was more pugilistic, the other avid scholar.

Zero being more straight forward offended the emperor several time. Five, on the other hand, was obedient and craven. He was much like the pet of the Emperor. Finally came one occasion that Zero openly outraged the emperor. He was being order to be executed. Zero died a martyr. Five was tempted by the emperor to merge the office of the late Zero. Seeing the favorable circumstances, he took the apple and seek half of the Martyr's wages. As he was so obedient, his wish was granted. Little did he know that the Hat he is asking for is Bigger than his HEAD. Needless to say, problem arose.

Lets skip to the interesting part shall we.

The throne was usurped. The emperor was upthrown, the premier was forced to "retire" to his old town. "Wine" become the new emperor. Five became the key person in the regime. Though he was able to put up good show in front of the Emperor, the air of unjust is building up in the other royal subjects under him. In any chinese ancient soap opera, the ending should be quite similar. Lets see what is the ending which is yet to come to past.

Ok enugh of the Royal BULLSHITTING. Cutting to the interesting part now!

1 of Five's abled men "Double Wood" was making a lot of people noticing his presence with his talent and wit. In some occasion, he outsmarted Five. With much worry of being replaced and the emperor to find out his incompetence, he put Double Wood to death. The reason announced to the whole world was insubordination. After that incident. Air of mutiny amassed. The rest should come to past.... its too cruel to carry on writing the story....I QUIT!!!

Today I just recieved and email from my ex-collegue. Upon reading it I was like not sure if I should cry or laugh

I think should click and see the bigger picture. This happened to me... so APTed
since last Sept. Waiting and waiting till the cow come home.

I guess this anyone will not want it to happen. Especially the Character Five in the story.

Eh.. What happening now is exactly opposite!!! Well some pp do get that crap though....

This is a SPOT ON!!!!

I guess this happens everywhere. I am such good example...... hahahahahha
Lucky I am not living in the ancient times. So I have the choice to QUIT!!!!!

MAMBO

2008-02-22T06:28:00.006+08:00

MAMBO

Woohooo.. Long time no write. How's da crowd out there????
Am i getting crazy... .

Well its been Eon since I step into Mambo again. Well the atmosphere is still electrifying. The stage is set, the crowd is there the only difference... Its been morphed into a Practical session for school of deaf and mute. Practicall Every word of a song is being maimed.... What happened? ? Ok I have been saying this for quite some time ( ie few years) but I think during chorus or certain nice part having synchro steps are fun. Just like being in a boy band or something. BUT THIS IS TOO MUCH. destroying the very essence of Mambo since then.

Volka REDBULL..... damn... the firewater!

It was nice to hear a good mix of retro nonetheless. Hope to have chance to visit again. I miss my SummerRain.. Zouk Style.... muhahahaha....

(ok Feel kinda old going there.... ops...)

Finally a pic of my ugly self!!!! hahaha

Random thoughts .....
THe atmosphere in the office is kinda tense these few weeks. 2 collegues including me all felt that our limit for our boss AKA Mr 5 has reach its brim. Stephenus Prime has almost turned to the dark side when Zero San told him Boss new decision on our new job hierarchy arrangement. Well me too. Previously was being agreed I'll be the head. Now Zero San will be. I have no doubt that Zero San has better management skills, I am only concern about the remuneration and change of appointment which seems bleek at the moment.

Why must a boss like him be over my head? SOmeone who is scared of answering, only knows how to follow up emails which is of small fry. Big decisions he "play dumb" and when it comes to answering, some one got fired for "not following orders or failed to followup" which he was being copied in every email asking him for directions. He jus plain ignore. Just 1 yr my snr, his pay i pay is 3 times mine. On hearing that he "opened big lion mouth" when my ex boss left the company, I was really shocked that the former MD agreed.
===> I want half of his pay if I take up the responsibility of Head of this department. HR reshuffle and changed all the appointment. My team with a regional tag all reduce to executives only. THe department heads all "promoted" to Department Directors. SOUNDED as if we are so freaking BIG.

Yesterday HR send out meeting invitation. DUration 15mins today 9.15am. Big Boss got aanouncement. All of us present is not expecting anything good. Judging from the change of head last year, our sales figure were all red. I dont even dare dream about bonus. HR director even changed the bonus structure in a bit to save the outflow of talents from company. Who will change a 13mth bonus to a advance bonus where if u leave b4 the next May, have to repay in full? AND THE BEST THING IS ... its only 0.75 of ur pay. WTF. I have really over stayed my bond. OH ya the joke about the bond in this company is. ITS FREAKING BLUFF and waste of time. Imagine if u break bond, 9+++K need to repay. You are not send for any means of training with this POWERFUL BOND U KNOW? WTF is this.

Been holding back my angst for 2 yrs already. What promised to be a adjustment after confirmation of $200 came as a scam. After 2 yrs. Increment is only $150 in a bit to "grow more for the junior executive"..... Appraisal points decreased by 10 in the whole team right after SL left company. Whole team morale nvr raised after that. Maybe only BOtak has cos he has been aroound the globe training and sightseeing. Rest of us beg to differ.

If only Mr 5 sees this. WAKE UP YOUR IDEA> Ur team will be dissolved after May (latest). Being good in studies doesnt mean u are good worker. This is somethign that I really agree after in the society for almost 10 yrs. So what if you were from Raffles ? So what if u from NTU? WTF... all talk no do. No offence to the others who are more streetsmart. This is a typical case of IQ UP EQ 0....... His way of communication irks me. Smiles and laughter with other department or "imports" from HQ, our own team was treated with horse face (long and stinky). Imagine your boss treat u like. HOW U EXPECT TO WORK. Its been atangonising 2 yrs. So much I have learnt So much more I can give. With such push factor. I think its time to conserve my energy for the next hurdle. Aint worth it when everything will be non-creditable to your own account.

Chants " underneath my umbrella (H)ella (H)ella Eh, Eh ,underneath my umbrella (H)ella (H)ella Eh, Eh
To Hell la with this! Crap...

22 Dec 2007 Melaka Trip

2007-12-24T00:59:00.000+08:00

I have been with this moto group... also one of my best group found in years. Besides my personal frens who have grown up with me, kindergarden frens, Pri sch, Sec Sch, Poly, outsite... .This is one of the best I've been with.
Eh.. my circle sounds quite big hor... .BUT IT IS LOR!
I may look damn normal.. Not to mention FAT AND UGLY......

This is 1st time i drove up to Melaka.. other than just to JB to visit my relative and all. Its 1st time I drove while others Ride in a trip......

Didnt take much photos though.. . share with all of you some intimate moments.. hahhaha. Some of the pics were linked to my other frens.... FOR ALL TO ENJOY!!!

On Reaching Hotel Mimosa

ChiYen and his Faces!!!!! This guy nvr grows up.... FYI he is a LAWYER!!!! Who whould have believed!!!! -_-

This is Barry aka Crashman. He is our lead on this Trip..

Our Evergreen Kwan aka EarlyBird.. Mind you he is married with 2 kids all grown up.... He is very much young at heart. Healthy Lifestyle is his current heat now... Always cycling.. along with Barry now.. .KudoSSS!!!

This is Branden aka DenDen.. Our most adventurous Fella.... doing all sorts of crazy stuff.. hahahah But one of our best markers in the line of duty!!!

Relaxing at Geographer's Pub!!!! Shiok ah!!!

Wonder why Kwan so lost..... hmmm
Moments of Melancholic? Wang Jie is in the air!!!

Artistic shot with Rocketman behind!!! Sipping cuppa Teh..

Finally a pic of me and moi dear. See my new "army" haircut... .Make me look so GoonDoo!!! Ok la... look super Gin Na!!! hahahha
Not to mention FAT!!! damn ...

Our most happening Couple, Annie and Kwan!!!

What should i be doing later? Boozing or Satay Celup.....
Probably jus Nuaz......

Probably the best Beer in the WORLD!!! hahahah

After noon beer ... was quite tiring... besides we rode up all they way. A nap is very encouraging!!
Then comes dinner time. We decided to split groups. 1 headed for the coffeeshop near our hotel, the other led by Kelly went for Satay Celup... A very declicious local delicacy.

Dinner Time.... at the coffeshop near to our hotel!!! The Spread is Quite ok....slightly off standard as compared to last year though...

This Moi Table!!! Farnny thing is that Kwan is the one who did all the ordering..... He is the one that is NOT EATING LOR!!!

Roger's family!!! Happy sia...... kekekekek
We should have ordered the fish that Roger had. Ours sarks man...

The Hor fun.. looks interesting!!! Well its one of the few dishes that is till "OK la" type of food.

Attention..... Notice the small seed looking thingy.. ITs the Or-lua... aka Oyster~!! Pathetic size.. hahaha

I think this is the crown of the night.... .Soft Shell Crab!!! Everyone luvs'em.... Nice soft and crispy!

This is what my group missed out. .The nice Hot Satay Celup!!!

After that nice meal, Sherider aka Kelly drove them to the Portuguese Settement, where they get to see very nicely decorated homes

The locals were very welcoming, we were allow inside their homes to take pictures with Riding Santa!

Nearby they can't help ourselves but to have a picture standing under this very huge Christmas Tree!!! Beautiful!!!!

Ok, here is a short performance by me. As usual, sing song. This time i personally feel bit off.. Cos beer + insufficient water.... Throat is dry. but i still tried my best.

Oh oh .. i almost forgot about mentioning the SUPER DUPER BITTER TEA...ku Cha... .Really Bitter lor... But chinese saying, Bitter to the mouth, its good for the body. This is REALLY TOO MUCH LOR.. A lot of them tried it. Really really almost all except for Kwan and Lawrence say acceptable.. I always take chinese medication one also CMI man.. Its really Power!!!

THanks to Barry for a well organised trip! Everyone safe and sound.......
Think Roger left behind a pack of goodies from Tan Kim Hock.... -_-

Long time!!!!

2007-12-14T01:52:00.000+08:00

Its been Long Long time since i post.... So many things happened... Moved house la, job la, oversea working trip la. Blah Blah Blah.

Will try to post randomly..... well the most happening one right now I would say is work. One of my managers just got "asked to go" suddenly. Took all of us by surprise. Really Shocked! We were anticipating he tahan for another few months while he find a better lobang. Before we knew it, he came down smoking with us tell us. Bro's, I just been ask to leave immediately.

We were all dumbfound. Super duper fedup, unjust, well whatever you can say it. Not mere words can describe it. Only knew that the customer knifed him in the back. I guess nothing much can be said after that. The mood was so tense for the rest of the day. I felt like tearing when he left after the last stick of ciggy we had together. He taught me so much, took so much care of me, brought me to Indo few times. We enjoyed the whole bunch company. I tell you its the collegues that are holding us together. If not I would have left long time ago. Things promised not realised. So low pay!!! Asked for review dragged months and months. Previous engineer went thru the same shit. I was like too bag I didnt have degree.... so LL.... but nvr mind. I will make my degree a REALITY. Come march will start and 2 yrs later...

Meantime i will see what are my options. Constantly on a lookout. Guess its rather late now. Took me 1 hour+ to figure out how to add songs to playlist in imeem. Hahahah
Sudden gush of urge to listen to RETROS..... cells are vibrating to everybeat of it....
I hope to update randomly the rest of the stuff that has happened....including my relocating of location.. to SENGKANG!!!! hahahahah

Dancing!!!

2007-10-08T19:32:00.000+08:00

I've been itching for dance for months....
Eversince apr..... I really crave for dance!
After started out Ballroom with my gal, I really into it more .......

Chance upon this nice song..... By Christina Aguilera. At 1st I thought was a super retro song from the 60s... but after googling it.. .OMG.. its a recent.. hahaha

ITS JIVE TIME.... too bad my right leg cant kick like b4.. .sobs...

Question mark

2007-10-03T00:46:00.000+08:00

Long time no update.. Wonder what should i write at all.

Work?

Well... cant say its too good.. but surviving.. Unless I am gonna stay there and be contented with the crap i am getting now.... it is manageable...
If not.. ITS BYE BYE time....

A Head that doesnt know how to treasure his own man.
Only knows how to cover his own backside.
Driven off a capable engineer.
Now tekanning a sales manager.
Me and S taking shit from him too.
After taking over old S job, then take half of his pay..... Now living happily with a new born....
Hit him die also wont run off la. I tell u this company gonna be in deep shit soon if the NEW BIG BOSS doesnt realise who is playing the devil in the company.

Been actively applying for new job... Hope good one comes along.

GOing to depart with my beloved blackbird too. Time has come for us to say Goodbye. Circumstances forced me to do so. 2 bikes and a car... Big no no !!!!
my pay cannot sustain both. Gotta make a choice. I chose the scoot!
Partly cos its fully paid, the other my meow not comfy to take it anymore.
All my own fault....... sobs.... bear the consequences.....
So now gotta fork out extra $$ to push bike into shop. Then try to get $$ to repair scoot.. then car... sign... Everything $$ but don have.. SIAN AH....

Oh well.. I'll be back with a tourer.. IN TIME TO COME..

RIght now gotta make my priorities right.

Studies! Career... and LIFE!!!
need to really sit down.. give it a good thought!

881

2007-08-21T22:04:00.000+08:00

881

Watched movie last Sun. 2 infact. 881 and Borne Ultimatum.
Well the 2nd movie jus a exciting action packed movie. Normally you would expect it like that cos of the 1st and 2nd installment.

What I am impressed is 881. Director Royston Tan was my sec sch fren. He was quite a soft arts fella. Was never close with him though. But I feel proud for him. His movie since 15(the Ah beng show) has come a long way.

881 1st thought was Crappy show that is Something like Jack Neo's boring theme.
But it was Roy's film i decided to give it a go. The outcome was OUT OF THE BOX. Instead of lauging all the way, i teared. The ending was SSSSSSSSOOOOOOO TOUCHING.

The songs were all so down to earth. (OK maybe jus singapore). Appropriate songs at the precise moment.... WALA (tears).

Maybe its becos of my fren who recently died in accident that made me feel more, or maybe even the fact that the show also partially dedicate to the late Chen Jing Lang (Famous Getai Singer). Hokkien songs was perceived as uncouth even vulgar. Thanks to Roy, it took the center stage and a lot of people starts to appreciate it. The lyrics are larger than life and is really nicely worded.

一人一半=> So meaningful... too bad cant find the hokkien version.

十二莲花 => This part sadest in the movie.... OMG. .i teared!!!!

CY AU RIP aka Ablaze

2007-08-08T11:15:00.000+08:00

CY AU aka Ablaze Rest in Peace

CY Au aka ablaze.
Left us in such a hurry on 7th Aug 2007. Survived by a widow and 2 young daughters.
His life was filled with excitement and vigor. As a driving instructor and riding instructor as well. Come from Ipoh the land where most of us riders visit everytime. To explore and realise some of the full potential of our bike.
He always appears with smile and laugther. He's a sun in the group. Though he may not be able to go to all trips. He always make it a point to come for meetup over a cuppa tea.

随风而来，
随风而去，
生不带来，
死不带去，
留下的只是精彩的回忆。
没有华丽的服装，
没有炫耀的身家，
有的知识丰富的人生。

His life so short yet so colorful. I dedicate this song to you! My Fren in time.
Your life shown us light of how delicate life itself is. You never know what is gonna happen next.
As the lyrics go,

今天我寒夜里看雪飘过
怀著冷却了的心窝飘远方
风雨里追赶
雾里分不清影踪
天空海阔你与我
可会变(谁没在变)

多少次迎著冷眼与嘲笑
从没有放弃过心中的理想
一刹那恍惚
若有所失的感觉
不知不觉已变淡
心里爱(谁明白我)

原谅我这一生不羁放纵爱自由
也会怕有一天会跌倒
被弃了理想谁人都可以
那会怕有一天只你共我

仍然自由自我
永远高唱我歌
走遍千里

For those who cannot understand mandarin (cantonese)

I shall try to translate

Tonite, watching the snows falling in the cold evening
leaving for the faraway with my chilled disappointed heart
Braving the wind and rain moving
Unable to see the road ahead
Sky and Wide you and me
will we change

Upteen times, we been mock and laugh
But we never give up our hopes
Moments flashed
A feeling of lost and disappointment
Unwittingly be smeared out
The love in us (who understand me)

Forgive me if I indulge in this life uninhibited love for freedom
Although fear that we may fall
Betray the dreams whom anyone can
For the fear that only left you and me

Forever Free and loving
Forever singing my song
Travel miles away

I hope my translation can bring out the original meaning of the song. (pardon my Engrish)

Random Thoughts - Just to kick start once again

2007-06-29T01:40:00.000+08:00

Long time no post.
Shall write watever that comes to my mind.

1st .. My director chair broke. Damn!!! cos me $100. Think I had that for about 3 yrs aready or something.. Oh well.. "old one no go, new on never come" hahaha
Right now sit stupid metal dining chair. Butt hurts man

Oh. Been driving for some time already. Ever since my accident. I think God really loves me a lot. Though my bike was down, I had the car at my disposal. Along with it came a big pricetag at the expense of my bro. Well I should say recently there is BIG BIG HOO HAA in my family. Right now still uncertain. Might need to sell house. Oh well, there is a chinese saying " every household has its own story to tell". This is just something that I never would have imagine that will happen to myself.

Bottomline... from all the things I've learn all these years.. "Dont wear a hat that is bigger than ur head"
Errr... interesting thing is that for me, its so hard to get a helmet or even a Cap. Hahahhaha ops... Lame (echos... correct wat.. me big head wor)

Now to personal life. This young apparently innocent gal (er..... should be la hmm) came into my life. We know each other less than 2 months then HITCHED. At 1st I thought it was a mistake. I do admit I had hesitation about go INTO it deep. Time told everything. We are together almost everyday. Its been 15mths now. Strong we are with the force ( echos => another lame phrase). Never had i been doted before. Thank you dear. You let me know what is call Relationship. What is LOVE!!!!
L .... is for way you look at me....
O... is for the only one i see.....
V.... is very very... extraordinary...
E.... is even more than anyone that you adore can
LOVE, it’s all that I can give to you

DEAR, I think its a life time of commitment. Lets work for our future shall we. Do not anyhow think again Ok. You are the one that can share with me in times of good and bad. Health and sickness...... Give sound advise when I am doubt. Your age is not your disadvantage. In fact, its a PLUS POINT that many others more senior fail to acquire. Shame shame shame on them. Hahahahahha ops.. no pun intended but its a fact to rest of the mundane world. Sorry peepz. -_-

Its getting late. I got so much stuff to update. SO SO SO MANY. I guess right now I have her to talk to thats why so reluctant up write here. Hahahah

Let me tell you peepz out there. If you cannot talk to your partner like a close fren, then you better think twice and WAKE UP ur idea.
Love is not about BENDING over. To a certain extend you will Repel like a spring and wonder WTF was I DOING ALL THIS WHILE.
Finding out about each other and accomodate. Not trying to change the other party but learn to live with it. Ok ok ... crapping. Time to go sleep

Yada again soon!!!! hahahha

Oh oh before i forgot. Recently been hearing this song play over the air. A remix version of ToTo's Africa. Took me so long to find the name. Finally... .Anything by JoJo...
Sounds like the new drink Anything & Watever!!! Kaoz.... -_-
So right now enjoy the ORGIGINAL version from 1984 ToTo Africa!

200 Pound Beauty

2007-05-11T02:23:00.000+08:00

별 - Song By. 유미 (미녀는 괴로워 삽입곡)

바람결이 창을 흔들고 내키만한 작은 나의 방 위로
아름답게 별빛들을 가득 채워주네요.
셀 수 없이 많은 별들은 지쳐있는 나를 어루만지며
내맘 속에 가득담은 눈물 닦아주네요.
많이 아파하지마 날 꼭 안은채 다독여주며
잘자라 위로해주네요.

걷지못할만큼 힘에겨워 아파와도 눈물이 앞을 가려와도
갖지못할 내 사랑앞에도 나 웃을래요.
잠시라도 곁에 행복했던 기억들을 가슴에 간직할께요.
두 눈에 수 놓아진 저 별들처럼 영원히

꿈을 꾸 듯 다가오네요 유난히도 밝은 나의 별 하나
눈부시게 반짝이며 어깨 위로 내려와
자꾸 슬퍼하지마 손 꼭 잡은채 날 만져주며
따스히 날 감싸주네요.

걷지못할만큼 힘에겨워 아파와도 눈물이 앞을 가려와도
갖지못할 내 사랑 앞에도 나 웃을래요.
잠시라도 곁에 행복했던 기억들을 가슴 속에 간직할께요.
두 눈에 수 놓아진 저 별들처럼

나 오늘만은 안 울어요 눈물이 가득 차와도
저기 저 별들처럼 나 웃을래요.
행복했던 기억 모두 가슴에 간직할께요.
두 눈에 수 놓아진 저 별들처럼 영원히

Ok I donno what the heck is it singing.. I only know it sounded so GOOD. Finally found the link. After watching the show, few parts brought tears to my eyes. Talking bout low self esteem. Hahahah.. some part of me will always feel like tat.
Beautiful SONG! Though the part where the concert starts with Heaven is a place on earth i was rather excited to hear them sing. Too bad...

Was really Lazy on updating blog. Wonder why??? Actually there are so many stuff i want to update. So many things happened. My maiden trip to Thailand. My worst accident. My miracles survival along with Carin. So many many many stuff. Work blah blah blah. I must cast the spirit of Laziness OUTTA ME RIGHT NOW. .....

family新解

2007-05-03T03:15:00.000+08:00

Found this in a posting about a Gal jus passed away after WORKING TOO HARD @ work. She was turning 29 this month. Such a sad story.
This paragraph really made me start to think.

family新解 :

不知您是否意識到假如明天我們離開這個世界，
我們所服務的公司會在短短的幾天裡找人替代我們，
而我們的家人卻在他們的生命裡不斷感受失去親人的痛苦。
仔細想想，我們對工作的投入往往超過了對家庭的投入，
這確實是個不太明智的投資，難道您不這樣認為嗎？
這給我們更深的啟示是什麼？
您知道家庭（FAMILY）這個詞的意味著什麼嗎？
家庭（FAMILY）= 爸爸(F)ATHER和(A)ND媽媽(M)OTHER，
我(I) 愛(L)OVE 你們(Y)OU。

請把這個短文傳遞給您的朋友。

海阔天空

2007-04-24T14:45:00.000+08:00

海阔天空

1993 HKG Award Presentation for Beyond Kakui (海阔天空)

beyond 海闊天空 live 2003

Beyond-- 遥かなる夢に~Far away~

wonder why i post so much stuff here... i'll explain laterzzzz.... all bout Beyond..

Finally The REAL MTV, with Ka Kui wearing his Fave Green Jacket.

Just been thru an extreme experience, suddenly realise the value of life. Need to live to the fullest. Suddenly Reminded me of my music. What have I been doing all these time. Music was my passion.......It was a miracle that i escaped with only tear ligament and some abrasions. My dear escape almost unscath. Amen to that. There are many more things to life then just biking. My Music..... my Family.... my love ones... We are but so small..... To make a difference.... needs a lot...

Ok Ok enough of the sad and serious stuff.. Something here to relax!!!!!
This reflex our working life!!!!! SOme thing by Uglymen Cover version of a song by
Sam Hui.... 半斤八两

Radio.....

2007-03-26T00:58:00.000+08:00

Its interesting how sometime u jus turn on the radio and hear what pp sms or call in to tell their stories to the world. Just now sending dar Carin home, I tuned into Malaysian channel 988 or SG 99.9 Chinese canto station. When I was on the way back, I heard the DJ read a sms. A gal was very sad cos the guy she loved broke off with her. It was an english sms and i was quite impressed that the DJ read it quite well. Though 1 or 2 words sucked like Problem she pronounced Ploblem -_- . Anyway the sender mention the best fren wedding, the bride is not her. She hated that guy a lot.. blah blah blah.
Following that the DJ played this song. I find really nice so I though why not share with everyone. Canto song. my fav..... nice... 容组儿.... good singer!!!

作曲:蓝奕邦填词:林夕

像有感情到天星看风景
他似无还有偏却不承认
为了此人算初恋太高兴
失去承受更悲伤的本领
然后遇着我至今的经典
曾紧张得似应战
一晚渡无限风险
然后渐渐沉重到不愿见
人会变情会厌从没甚么保险
谁担保可不可
有一个爱一个
为何我不可
值得好点结果
即使悔恨又如何
别离得多不痛楚
其实带泪都该庆贺
失恋不怕多
多得天的许可
爱一个上多一课
自由也不错被吹熄的爱火
光影总算照亮过
想开心如何懒惰
无谓算尽机关只要情动
也不敢错过

逃避寂寞期待吃喝玩乐
谈得多恋爱更觉
不领会何谓快乐
谁是玩伴谁是爱的幻觉
谁与我能永远留在梦中天国

薯童谣

2007-03-05T02:03:00.000+08:00

Recently been following this show. Its very nice.. REcommended!!!! I do not follow many Korean show but this is definitely Interesting!!!!Totally unexpected plot. Good looking people. I like the Prof!!! Man!!! hahaha
Music is good too. Will try to find OST to let everyone hear!

So I have been lacking frequency in updating Blog. LAZINESS!!!! Cannot blame everything on it but DUH... ITS THE ROOT OF ALL failure.. hahaah
Will try to update as and when.... I hope to write like i used to be.. .TRYING HARD ON MY ENGLISH once again. hahah

Valentine 2007

2007-02-13T23:58:00.000+08:00

Well think this song aint about valentine right? A bit off.. but my of course have to mention my Vday gift from my GF. Its delivered.... to ME!!!! U R right. A stalk of ROSE!!!! I was totally SHOCKED man. Nvr did i had anything as such. For thou not handsome nor rich. How would I be so honoured to receive flowers for Vday. THANKS dear. This will definitely etched deep into my memory.

Oh.... one resolution for new year.... stay trim and fit. For health sake, also for my back problem.. I HAVE TO... and I NEED to... God help me!!!!
看我再次72变

Personality TEST!!!!

2007-02-09T01:44:00.000+08:00

My Personality


Neuroticism	52
Extraversion	94
Openness To Experience	70
Agreeableness	54
Conscientiousness	46

You are sociable, outgoing, energetic, and lively. You prefer to be around people much of the time. Stressful and frustrating situations can be upsetting to you, but you are generally able to get over these feelings and cope with these situations. Novelty, variety, and change spice up your life and make you a curious, imaginative, and creative person. You have some concern with others' needs, and are generally pleasant, sympathetic, and cooperative. You are reasonably reliable, organized, and self-controlled.

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Hmmm overall i would say..... not too bad... as in. .quite close.. Peepz.. try it!!!

Motorshow 2006

2006-12-18T12:12:00.000+08:00

Late updates.....

No time to update at all. Hahahahah
Think will post mostly pictures.
10 Days of motorshow.. Feelings like going back to those days of selling handphone at Suntec Eons ago. Rather.. Since 1997 to 2003. Permanent Part time. When M1 1st launched, I was paid $9/hr. So every weekend was like 198 for 2 days. OMG. That was JOLLY GOOD pay. After M1 "abandoned" me. Handphone shop took me in for $7/hr. Nonetheless is still OK pay. Anyway That was history. I was glad that I had those experience along with me. This motorshow was 1st time for all of us in the office. Rather most of us.
Our marketing engaged 4 showgals. IMO, because of the uniform, most of the public didn't know they were our show gals. More like giving-out-flyer kinda gals.

The thing is that my Product Management team almost became SALES people. Other than the actual Sales managers, we were the ones "promoting" Hella products. Damn!!! I was quite proud of it cos i sold the 1st Dyna View to end use in SINGAPORE. its a $730 product. If only i can have commission for it. >_<....

My other PM collegue Stephen! Super Buaya King!

My EX sales manager Euguene........ he came.. he left.......

My Marketing Asst manager James ( just had a baby - super tired Father!) he is really a nice guy!!!! Good Pal along with ..yes.. stephen again.... kaoz...

Valerie ( 1 of the showgals) and James and Stephy.

Ok Guilty of taking photo, but the thing is that there is another one taking snapshot of Valerie taking photo with me. And that is Beatrice. The Chao Tar Gal! hahahah ok la... Healthy tan looking Xiao Mei Mei...

Stephy with the Gals.... Intereting thing is that the age increases from Left to right.. hahhaha

Ok the gals along with our mascot. RAV4

Valerie giving out prize away for the Car club event
Oh i forgot to mention. We organise 3 Car club event. Rav4, Mistubishi and Suzuki club Singapore. Quite a successful event.

Yes this is the Chao Tar gal I was talking about. Beatrice. She caught a lot of guys attention. The farny thing is that. The guy is 34, she is 18. No one believe that she is only 18. Everyone though she is 25! OMG. Hahahahahah. Is it a good or a bad thing. hahahhaha

Yes a closeup of our mascot

Yes... Our ever Act cute Novelle. Oh did i mention she dances at Devil's Bar.

Another AC pose

This is Valerie with our Application engineer Kian Sing.(KS he really buaya at the show grabbing a lot of gals to take photo-hug them all... YEHHHH)

Ok This is our Hella Challenge booth. Top 3 prize are Xbox 360, Nokia 6280 and Ipod Nano 2Gb. Cool ya!!

KianSing in Action. With the Philips Gal

KianSing in action with Nakamichi gal

Close up of Philips gal

Stamford Tyres gal. With Hella Sweet! hahahah

She's Ziru, the only gal in my team. She one IT fanatic. The 1st gal that would prefer a 160Gb Hdd than to a bouquet of Flowers or chocolates. COOL!!!

The Tokyo Drift lookalike.

Overall was very tiring but fulfilling. Learn quite a lot of stuff. Polished up my Sales skills once again. Gals were ok standard. I think The Lexus gals were very elegant. The most jialat ones were the chinese cars and skoda. They share the same PRC gals. Crap!

TGIF???? hmmmm i need a rest

2006-11-25T02:42:00.000+08:00

Just had a Karaoke session with my collegues in Hella. 1st time, hahaha. I've fly them kite for 4 times. Few days back they bet that I will be the F16 pilot once again. hahaha Proven them wrong this time. Hahahhaa....
End up I become Jacky Cheung. And also every other songs that they cannot make it I became the backup. Kaoz....WTF.
It was fun.... It was more like Chinese Retro nite. Hahahha 60s, 70s, 80s, u name it we sang it.. hahah

Then... one of my fren sms me told me Mdm Wong grand Reopening! I was quite shock when I saw the sms. I was quite tired though.. but my dear sms me told me she only one working at Actors... I wanted to go down help her a bit... Oh well.... A detour wouldnt hurt.
The new location is at China Square... opposite the former Mdm Wong2 or the current Club MoMo.... Free entrance is just too tempting! Hahahhaa...
Ok... finally went in. Stuffy! Look bit sleezy. Kaoz... totally lost the image I had anticipated! Crap in fact. Ok... Finally a retro joint once again. Stayed for a while until they turn to R&B. Hmmm Ok.. i still can take it. But.. my headache came back to find me. Final straw! Siam!!!! Scram...
TO ACTORS!!!! .....

So now I am reporting live in Actors, with a bunch of CMI Ang Mos... trying hard to have a good time while the rest are enduring the aftermath of KingKong banging our eardrums. Those Ang Mos outta be shot man! Totally CMI... Bless them man.. Hhahahahahah.

Weekend coming. .I still havent update other stuff like Motorshow.. which many may like to know... the GALS ya ya ya that will come.... My booth.. other booth Cars.... blah blah blah.... Oh well Akang Datang... (damn i like to use this verse... hahahha)

COME BACK KID!

2006-11-22T02:45:00.000+08:00

It has been a while since i blog... OMG .. .its like more than 2 months... What have I been doing?
Well.. Work .... work......love ..... work..... blah blah blah....

Its been 8 months since I join this new Family( company I'm refering).
7 months into this new Relationship
13 month into ownership of my BB
Oh well.. If it wasnt for the anti peak sine curve I went through, none of this would have existed!
I thank God for putting me through that phase.

Until now.... I think I still very blockhead. Many things that a gal wants. I am absolutely CLUELESS.... (need to "long bia"). Anyway I think I have a fair share of headaches already since my back was sprained. Every now and then.... GOD HELP ME!

This back sprain. I believe it happened for a reason. Though I may not see the point at the moment. I still thank HIM. For cos of this I found a gem in my life. She was there to take care of me. Besides my family, she was there....... went i was in the agony stage. I never felt this kind of warmth and love. I thank God that she came into my life.

So many things to update.. i need more time.... Will do one by one.. Akang Datang....( some pp dont like this word though.. cos sometime it takes a while)

Motorshow 2006!! interesting. .I think i will illustrate more on that in my next entry. hahahha

酒店风云

2006-09-18T23:36:00.000+08:00

REcently been hooked to TVB show. 酒店风云. According to my ex collegue, she watched this last year. Oh well, they story is totally out of my expectation! I tell U HK serial ROCKS!!!! Hands down. My mummy, sister and GF been hooked!!! hahahah Eh.. I think its bad. Cos my GF never really follow serial until eh... well.. ME!!! hahahahaha

Anyway inside this show, this song caught my attention. I rem the chinese version long time ago. But as usual I find Canto songs hard to not let me fall in love with! HEHEHEHHE. So much happened in the show that reflects true life. Though bit dramatized but nontheless. GOOD. The songs used are so apt.

On personal note, my specialist appointment is in 2 days time. I am quite excited and anxious. I really hope the doc can help me, shed some light into my back problem. I still have so much stuff to do. I miss my basketball, swimming, rollerblading, and of course TOURING ON 2 wheels. I was thinking if doc really tell me have to stop riding. Maybe high chances I might sell off the bike. Or ask my fren to take care for me at the moment. Maybe 6 months? Reason being, my bro maybe going overseas to work. He wants me to take care of the car as well. I cant juggle both car and bike right now. If i was still riding my S4. Confirm No problem! I jus pray that God lay hands on my back and let me and a perfect recovery without the need to OPERATE or anything. I'll be happy. And this is the only wish I made for my Bday this year. Health is above all things. Only when u are down then u realise how important health is. God bless!

Thank you darling for standing by me all this while. I really appreciate it a lot. Muacks

Lastly, this song is for you too.

一生不变李克勤
曲:彭承松/范俊益词:向雪怀

一幽风飞散发披肩
眼里散发一丝恨怨
象要告诉我你此生不变
眉宇间剌痛匆匆暗闪

忧忧戚戚循环不断
冷冷暖暖一片茫然
视线碰上你怎不心软
唯有狠心再多讲讲一遍
苍天不解恨怨痴心爱侣仍难如愿
分开虽不可改变但更珍惜一刻目前
可知分开越远心中对你更觉挂牵
可否知痴心一片就算分开一生不变

反反复复多次失恋
进进退退想到从前
让我再吻你吻多一遍
别了不知哪一天相见
别了不知哪一天再相见

Recover!!!

2006-09-04T16:00:00.000+08:00

God.. when will I recover??? I cannot take it anymore! GOD LAY HANDS ON ME!!

August 2006

2006-08-16T22:02:00.000+08:00

New Job. New Life, New bike, New Love......

Well 2006 has been exciting up til now. Everything has been going smoothly until last week. One thing led to another..... Continuous trips, insufficient rest and water.... For someone like me, weak in contituent, falling sick seems like inevitable!!! WEAK ... Big size no use..... aiyah.... no choice.. I've seem to know myself too well but every now and then i will ignore the signs. Then... KABOOM... i drop for few days... be it high fever, til I faint or other "jialat" things. Most of my frens don believe that I am weak.... HAHAHAA They forgot 1 thing. The bigger they are, the harder they fall. This verse speaks for itself.

So many trips I wanna go, so many things i wanna do. Jus so many.
Studies..... this has been up my mind since...... God knows... What passed has passed. No point mentioning again. $$ is the most important thing now. God really answers prayers. Just recently, my Company HR came up with something that is so TEMPTING!
Study Loan -> 20K loan, pay back interest free...
Bond -> 20K loan + contract to work for company....

I think i will take the 1st option. Study and pay back asap! Rather then Bond... Cos bond is not happy with pay.. STILL LL stay there slog. So far, I guess I am happy with the Job. Not the pay. There is so much that I can offer. My pay is peanuts! Come on 7 yrs in work force and Annual Income not even qualify for Credit Card application.. How pathetic is that?
(then again, I got all my credit cards after my 1st yr of work------ BECOS OF ALL THE OTs....)
Peepz reading this...... be focus on career... When u don have career = NO $$ = NOthing....
Wan to bring parents out for decent dinner, wanna go for oversea trip ( and i don mean malaysia), wan to buy new furniture or even renovate this old house that has been my Habour for years..... ALL THESE ... I CANNOT give.. .Sad... sad....sad.... Most of my frens married, some even have 2 kids liao.... Imagine going for Primary sch gathering......one word..... Paiseh!!!!
Sec Sch gathering...... worst.....
Poly... eh.. so far.. been skipping... hahahahha

Ok..... dragging too far off topic...
Back to life! God has been great.... .Why? Giving me new lease of life. New Job, New love. Frankly speaking. I only thank God that the job and my new GF turns out fine. I have never so enthusiatic towards my job before. Ok.... beside selling phones part time for the last 5 - 6 yrs... that was kinda interest. Now also bent more on interest then jus a job to me!

GF. Maybe to others she just look like plain Jane or some would refer her as Flashy, "Attention Seeking".. wonder why....... -_-....
To me, she has the bod!!!! Cute eyes, height and the posture - i don like gals slouch (COS she do ballroom dance) "woof whisle" ........ in the 1st place, I didn't even think that she have the slightest interest in me.... Come on...... (a song suddenly drift into my mind) I'm not and Actor I'm not a star ...and I don even have my own car! .....
OK this sounds lame... but that was my level of self esteem .... since..... Donkey years ago!!! hahahaha

All thanks to one of my biker fren....... that brought us into each others life. So interesting!!!! My fren wanted to court her, I had a gal harbouring good feeling towards me that made her drive all the way from KL to meet me in Melaka. End up..... Oh well... rest is history. HAHAHAH.. Life.. so facinating.

Ok Ok straight to the point.....
lAST Last Weekend, after coming back from Port Dickson ( I shall update the trip in a while), I had overstrained my back.... so I do something i normally would do. Stretch my back and head.... Much like cracking the joints of my fingers. Monday night I went to jog, ignoring the strain. Tue Morning I feel something wrong and I went to See Doc right away ( wednesday Is National Day resting at home ALL DAY... how boring is tat.) Thur.... I Struggled to work because my Germany BIG BOSSES coming and I had no choice but to strain myself back... I feel pain in my back halfway waltzing through PIE. As i reach office, I tried to walk normally. Obviously I am sick! My collegues were like " Michael are you OK, U look so Pale!"
I can hardly contain my pain. Lunch time i went into my workshop and lay flat on the ground!...... I felt neusea. Took a mouthful of bread and puked.....

At last, knock off i went to visit a chinese physician.... (Right now i think i made a grave mistake) instead of making me feel better, downright twistedmy tendon and nerve making me went thru hell weekend .... Fri, Sat and Sun my fever crept in as the night falls. My Dear kept me company on Fri nite... I tell you, as the blood throbs, ur back tendon pulls from lower back to right up the skull. It felt like flames blurning! I nearly wanted to end my life!!!! Until Panadol extra come into picture!!!!
The medicine that the stupid doc gave didnt even help a bit! Muscle Relaxant my ARSE! Oh well my point here is tat... my DEAR...... Carin PANG!!!!! Thank you for staying beside me when I was walking thru the valley of death (OK thats a bit too exaggerated). After that night, I truely understand how a Girlfriend can care for the boyfriend. Something that I never in my 28 yrs of living in this pathetic earth did I experience this! What is love? THIS IS THE REAL THING. Nothing ever more real than this!!!! I was whining in pain the whole night, she jolts out of sleep as and when, tryin every means to reduce my pain...... Patting me and trying to massage my back in attempt to reduce the throbbing....
To her she felt nothing, or just something small and simple that any other Girlfriend would do. This small gesture meant a world to me!!!! I told her I appreciated it very much. Even though we are a couple but I still must say it. THANK YOU DEAR!....

Come next week I will be turning 29!!! OMG...... turning big 3 soon... I will strive my best in work and maybe studies in time to come! Thou shall not be looked down..... Thou shall be happy as I can be..... Thou will not repeat the path that I've taken in 2005!!! EVER! ......

As this post ends.... I dedicate this song to my Dear! Its a very old song... sung by a very talented Singaporean Artist in the 80s...... it was one of my very 1st CASSETTE that i bought when I was a very small boy!!! Hahahahha... Old School

Love 57

Bekok Waterfall!!!

2006-08-11T18:57:00.000+08:00

Its has been sometime since I've updated my bloggy. Guess I've been too busy with work and life. Until now, that I've injured my back, i can sit down and write something. Despite my current condition, sit also pain, lay down also pain. Throbbing in the head til i wanna hit the wall. It a challenge nontheless. I guess it should be due to my "GEH KIANGness' after port dickson trip last week. Shall continue this story later......

Right now I am updatin the trip Before Port Dickson. Hahahah Makan Durian and Bekok waterfall. As I can recall. Last weekend of 2005 we 1st embarked on the journey to enjoy his waterfall. I had my stock BB and the ride was quite a diasaster. It ended with a sore back for me too. Stock windshield and stranger pillion made me strained my back. This time round added a stopover for durian. I tell u the 猫山王 cat moutain king durian is really the TOP of durian. Smallest of seeds, thickest of flesh. Mixture of bitter and sweet. Though per KG is $13rm. Its worth. 3 person wack a 2kg durian. We were so full after that. Its a pity we cant take more pictures cos we were TOO BUSY WACKING the durians. I feel so bad for not bringing some back for my folks. It really so good. I wanted to go back to 打包some back. I guess I am out of the action for now. My back didnt want to go any further.

On reaching the waterfall, drizzle become downpour. The once clear water fall became filled with Teh Tarek like waters gushing down from the top. Spirits were kinda damnpen already. We were like enjoying the "RAIN FOREST" rather then the waterfall. Soon it was dark and we decided to leave Bekok. I guess we will be back sometime again to enjoy the waterfall. hahahahah

This photo taken by Alan. It looked so nice...... That ST11 looks like Botakmonk though.

This is the BoSS in action! LEader of the PACK

This is the 1st time I was caught on camera along with my Darling! YES...... Carin!!! Muacks!!!

Breakast at Ayeh Hitam.... or am i wrong.... i not sure bout the place la. hahaha

The sheer number of bikes made many head turned!!!!

This kopitiam hosted quite a good selection of dishes!!!!!

This is the stall I ordered my Wanton Mee with "AngBa"!! quite alright la....

This is moi table. Gathered by Roger and mummy, one fren i not sure is who, Arron, Jess and Lopes! All that i named were the click i made frens with from my KL trip earlier this year!

There are many tables being occupied. This uncle in the foreground at 1st i though was an AH LONG or something. He got the China face and thick chain with Jade around his neck. Felt quite weird when I 1st saw him.... Then again he was riding a STX!!! HAHAHHA

This is BotakMonk! Alan named him Botakman instead. hahahah. Coupling with Lawrence(SV650), Kooteowman, Kwan, Annie and Wildcat.

This is stanley(hamsterz), blue kiss, Endlessloop ( ah seng) and his fren (riding GSZXR 750)

This is Brandon ( DenDen) and Au

Mr and Mrs Paul Mai!!! Silver and paiseh i donno who is the couple

This is Ben's GF, with Natureman and Courgar. Though he may lost his left leg. He is riding a modified Hornet 600! Don play play. He goes down track one ok. I was quite shocked when i 1st come across his bike. Was thinking how come got mechanical sound when he kicks his gear. After a while i realise...... He is really a role model!

This table i only Kennethy and his GF... e other 2 couple o donno.. HAHAHAH

This table i only know Gabriel and Fraser ( the ang mo with 06 Hornet6) Look damn chio ok!

Official Advertisement for the liulian stall!!! hahaha

This is the real STUFF ... Durian... I tell u the boss was so happy to see Alan.... He treated him couple of free ones...... and its not the cheapo $4 per kg ok.. ITs the ，猫山王...... Brandon, Alan, Lawrence and Ah Seng.. Happy man with the liulian as the trophy for doing their job as markers and sweepers. Hahhahaa

This is the 1st Durian stall into Muar! I tell you.. Its heck of a punch where their fruits are.

A contented Lawrence Savouring his LIU LIAN!!!! Ohhhhhh..... SHiok ah

COME ON !!! Say LIULIAN!!!! Taken with the Boss and his Wife!! All happy faces YA! Stanley. Don even think about it. U can swallow tat!

Ok this is a small episode we had on the highway before reaching Muar. There was a school of hornets flying thru our path. So many of us got caught in the cross fire. The hornets sacraficed themselves in the end. This is on of the body left on Palmer's helmet! GROSS i would say

This is the 4th stall from the front. Air-con place to savour the bittersweet love for Durian! Annie they all really knows how to enjoy.. In such a hot weather.. THen again... the review is tat the durians were not really up to mark.. .kekekkekek

Refreshing Coconut after the heaty Liulian.... I tell you though i didn't really liked coconuts. This is the 1st time i seen the flesh so thin and jelly type. Unlike our normal one that is so hard...

Advertisement shot for the Coconut Stall!!! I tell you Alan is one good player with Photoshop. Every pic turn out so nice. He can be ambassador for Malaysia!!!! Truely Asia!! hahahahah

This is one of the most dangerous corner before reaching Bekok. If u not paying attention. U will end up in the river behind where this photographer is standing!

Rain came in. When we reached the waterfall. We sought shelther under then make shift tentage selling drinks and food. All of us literally were enjoying the essense of a typical "RAINforest"

See.. .My fren here indulging in his own activities. Something I like to do during childhood days. Catching Frogs!!!!! hhahahahhahaha

Grand Finale. Phototaking in the WET condition. Say WET!!!!!! with Alan's signature move!

In memory of a fellow Rider........ Mr Bean!!!

2006-07-11T01:06:00.000+08:00

IN memory of Misterbean,

Softspoken, well received, helpful guy. Though we may only brushed shoulders a couple of times. Be it trips or outings at KTM, your nick did left me an impression. But nothing of the real Mr Bean on TV. U were more of Mr Nice Guy...

God took u back into his arms.
It was not suppose to happen but it did.
I hope that it was a painless one for you.
Not knowing why u did it, how it happened, even for the uncle that saw you laying there. He was traumatized. God bless him as well. There were too much circulation of non factual info tat lead to misunderstanding. I took all the info with a pinch of salt. I only want to hear the truth. Too bad the info we got was not close enough to shed lights on the whole topic. We can only pray and hope that God was with you that last moment u had.

I couldnt find a better song that this current song tat Beyond Sang.. so much irony... So much in common. 天妒英才 This is the word to use. From your frens around you said u had a bright future, high flyer.. .U were a scholar... so much so ... so...

1993 Kakui!!!

2006-06-30T10:02:00.000+08:00

Let me dedicate this posting to him....who left us his legacy of songs and lyrics that will stay with us forever.

Beyond was never the same after he left....

Last year they finally disbanded. Each to pursue their own dreams in life.

Who knows..... they might have a comeback concert again in near future......

2006-06-27T01:48:00.000+08:00

YMCA

Tis is something Outta the BLUE!!! SOLID RETRO MAN... true Retro!!! even with the Handsign!!! OMG...

2006-06-09T14:14:00.000+08:00

Nitemare on Skipper

My bb went for a spa retreat.. I had to borrow my fren’s bike… .SKIPPER for the moment…. I thought it was cool.. to play with such a small bike…
Then again.. It was a grave mistake…. 2 times I couldn’t start the stupid bike …..
Marvy… you could have told me about it earlier!!!! I almost died of heart attack..
Imagine kick starting a bike for 1 hour on the 2 occasion. I was really….. having cramps at the leg…..

I think after this incident.. .I WILL NOT GET A SUPER OLD 2B bike at all…
Then again. I’m still thinking of getting a 200cc scooter for local riding.. if not.. BB’s cost of riding is quite high… must think of alternative. Hmmmmmm

Lets see…

Planning to resume my degree course. … So many things up my mind… so sian…. Dilemma!!!! Work is busy also ( which is good.. .rather then wasting my time back in Delphi) …..

So many things to do.. so little time… oh and yes $$$$$ .. always not enough……..

So busy until cannto deliver my Vege powder too.. i'm sooooo paiseh.. Will try to complete everything by this weekend!!!! heheheh

Wish list on my bike!!!

2006-05-29T16:33:00.000+08:00

Wish list on my BB!!!

heheheh
ICELED tubs.... this is called the TRON

These are the scanner!!! COOL right.. It like the niterider car ... woo hoo

Either of this 2!!!
Product of Hella Optilux!!!! FOG LIGHT.... no need HID Xenon version la.. cos too bright le

This is known as the GEM plug

This is the 1 Foot tube... coupling with the controller call ZAP.. then ho seh liao.... Chingay prosession also lost out sia!!!!

Jus bought tis.. Awaiting for INPUT!!!! HO seh... some pp say loud pipe save lives!!! I don think so.. Rather.. Lights and Horns is more apt for the safey issue...

If only i had another naked bike..confirm mod like tat ah

Movies after Movies II

2006-05-29T16:28:00.000+08:00

Movies after Movies II
Xmen III
Oh man… Action all the way. Jean’s power is really beyond anyone’s comprehend~~~~~ SO POWER Sia… The one who is able to split himself up is really cool. I wanna do tat too then I can do many things in one go. Go riding for trip, dancing and working as well… Heheheh to maximize my time. Also work part time and do MLM as well. Then my mummy can relax more. Both parents so old liao.. I really wish I can do more for them…..opss off topic. Oh and yes.. TAT blonde guy tat flies.. He's appearance is lik Angel from Heaven!!!! Cool man

Movies after Movies

2006-05-29T15:50:00.000+08:00

Movies after movies

Davinci Code

The Smilling lady... or guy??? hmmm

The vitruvian man

Last Supper!

To me .. solid… Though I didn’t read the book (which I tried to borrow from my fren 1 yr ago), I find the movie very interesting. Maybe cos I was there in paris and UK last year…I find the scenes close to my heart! Its really nice. I definitely wanna visit that place once again.
The Louvre

Desaru Bike Meet 13 - 14 May 2006

2006-05-23T00:04:00.000+08:00

Desaru Bike Meet 13 - 14 May 2006

As promised ..... the Photos!!! hehehehe

This is the Banner for the Bike meet! Once we reach there.. The downpower started!!! hehehehe

That is how our room looks like.. but this is not our room though..... This room belong to the brokeback mountain bros!!!! hahahahha

This the toilet ... Quite decent looking though!!!!

This is the bikes geting ready to ride off for the event. Its raining quite heavily though... a bit sian so our own group didn't join in!!! Hahahhaa

See they are so well organised even engaged TP to help convoy!!!

Heheehehhe Kwan Annie Carin and Me!!!!

The Ang MO Organiser conducting Briefing !!!!

Here comes the WET BIRD!!!!! St Du Du .. aka Simon

TP getting ready for Convoy

Check this out!!! Our Lady rider getting ready!!!!! woo hoo

4 Birds Posing!!!

Hehehehhe Consider race queen???? hmmmmmmm "rubs chin"

Doing the Famous Alan Pose after reaching the Poolside!!!

That is the Desaru Beach.. Ain't that clean thought.. .hahahaha nice and BIG

The model inside doing the "Gek Sai" pose

Da Ladies!!!!! woo hoo....

Hmmm someone said these are the Desaru F4s.... I would rather think we are the Birdmen!!!

Makan!!!! awaits... Check out the desserts!!!!

Someone cannot tahan.. wanna start the lamp chop 1st !!!!

The Ice-Kachang man!!!!

Certified Twin Bird Bros found in Desaru. CHeck out the Certs they got!!! hahahha

Me and my Dear... 1st Photo nicely taken.. also bit from my "touching up" to make us look our best!!!!

Since when this phone in kimono budge in???? alamak!!!

Lai ah... LIM AH LIM AH..... ahahahahhaa

Breakfast team!!!!!

Poolside by the morning!!!

The stage tat entertained us previous nite...

Helmets for sale... why is that OGK so special????

The Hunks of Desaru!!! woohoo

Beauties!!!!!!

Hey tats animal abuse!!!!!!

Check out new bikes!!!! BMW Tourer!!!!

YAMAHA FJR 1300!!!!

New Yamaha 06 Fazer 1000... DAMN STREET FIGHTER!!!!!

The peeps getting ready to go home!!!

Hmm we decided to go to the Balau Beach.. where we RODE UP THE BEACH!!!! cool leh

My Dear posting with me again!! heheheh steady bo???

GRoup shot!!! Wow its really HOT

ALL BIKES... Chio leh!!! where's mine?

This is the absolute Classic!!! heheheh

Chilling out at a nearby Jetty

The scene is absolutely stunning!!!!

Back at GP Esso R&R

THis fella quotes....
===>>>> I"LL BE BACK!!!!!

Trips, Work and Life!!!

2006-05-22T17:09:00.000+08:00

Trips, Work and Life!!!

Dear Bloggy,

Its been long time since I write… about 1 month +? Hmmmm
I am really tight up with work, frens, short trips, work and work and also my DEAR. Somewhere in the mist I found you. Oww……. Its nice… its really nice. Ok ok save this later.. hahaha. Right now taking a “bit” of time off work to write.

Lets talk about work! New job, New office, everything new. But I was told that the increment and bonus… has nothing for me.. I feel a bit sad. But its God who brought me to this job. I have no qualms about the plan he has for me. So I will put in my best effort in every thing I do here. Hella. I really wonder in the 1st place how come they accepted me?? Hahahha . Then again, what I’ve done in this 2 short months really amazed myself even. I think what I have done here surpassed whatever I have done in Delphi for the past 3 years. Seriously I mean the amount of dedication and task accomplish really. I feel proud of myself and the sense of accomplishment. THANK YOU GOD for letting me to have a chance to prove my worthiness! The event that took part bout 3 weeks back call Hella Value Partner really turn out to be a shocker!!! I coordinated the lightshow along with 8 Rav 4s (numerous Hella lightings installed), 05 Mistubishi lancer (Micro De HID version), 04 Honda CRV (hella Rallye 1000) and 05 Toyota Wish ( with latest Technology Dyna View Evo II static cornering light). This is rather my 2nd proud accomplishment here.. 1st is troubleshooting the installation of the Dyna View Evo II that failed to work until I solved the installation dilemma. YEH !!!! Within a short time of 2 month +, I made my presence felt! YES!!!!

Ok… My bike…. Update…… Got into a small accident. Kissing a Cab’s arse. Its another cabs fault… oh well. Its just meant to happen for a reason. The Gahment gave us all Ang Bao. I guess mine just came in for this matter. I paid 200+ for the Cab’s repair. Yet to settle my own. My jeans were torn (bout 40cm from knee to ankle). Looked quite bad if u saw my jeans. Miraculously I only had a bruise on my knee cap and my 4th finger. My bike’s fairing got cracked and scratches from the right side. Est repair cost at least 200+ as well. So sad. Right now .. almost 1 month. I haven’t got the time to do my repairs yet. Argh!!!!!

Trips….. just done a Bike fest at Desaru 2 weeks back on 13th May. It was quite fun. Went with couple of good frens I made since I got my bird. There was about 40+ bikes but mostly Harleys. Nice weekend getaway. Not too far. But I need to workout my back and train my physique again.. If not . I wouldn’t be able to conquer Thailand this year end with the 3 Nation Ride!!!! Whooo hooo……
Will be back with the photos asap!!! Hehehhe

Guess I wil be giving up my band at potong pasir. Music will still very much in my life. One way or anther but I guess I will need to focus more on career right now. I need to decide if I will continue my course by Jul…. loan of 20K. Ultimately for my future. Working experience I have already.. now is the piece of STUPID paper… I don want to be left behind just because lacking of that piece of paper. Feel damn low morale. I was the one who can study. And just because the lack of opportunity and $$ cause me my future. I think its not fair at all! I need capital to upgrade myself… and yet not giving up on my bike too….. dilemma!!!! God help me

Oh recently I encounter another story. Lets hear it shall we. Oh I am so 38… oh well.

There’s a couple whom was very close at 1st. In most of the frens eyes, they were a loving and perfect couple. Both of them came from same hometown, studied in the same school. Things were like perfect for them.
Suddenly, the guy became cold. Came home late, not letting the girlfriend know where he was. Even turn up with small bruises around the neck. OMG how can this happen? Anyway. It did and she was deeply knifed through the fragile heart. What else can she do? He was as cold as the ice and mentally miles away when he was with her. Things changed. He had too a sudden interest in another hobby which he thought no one knew. While getting to know about the new hobby, he slipped his tongue about his new found love to the other new frens he had. Sad to say it’s a small community and words got into the former circle of frens and that really sadden all of them. Affairs of the heart is the most unpredictable. The frens cannot do anything but to help and comfort the gal which has been cheated in a way. There is no absolute right or wrong. The gal can only weep and weep while the guy keep going out every night returning late. While getting into the new relationship, he told all his frens that he is busy with his new work which his job responsibility is way over exaggerated compared to his pay scale.
When she decided to leave him, he maligned her of going out with another guy in such a short time and that added salt to the wound she had. He impaled her being a lose woman! Ouch, that really hurts and being a Man myself felt disgusted at such remarks. Remember one thing whilst pointing your index finger at others, there are 4 other fingers pointing back at yourself. She was lucky to have that bunch of frens to help her overcome this downhill period. Broke with no money for herself, she had to bite the bullet to move out of the house. She threw almost all the money she had to pay for his stuff not long ago, and she got what she deserved; good souls don’t get good endings. Hmmm sounded like modern day script for soap opera. Then again this ain’t a show you are watching!! Then again…. Its happening everywhere. Hehehe oh well that’s me. The most amusing part is that the guy tried to cover his own arse by emphasizing to other people out there that she had went off with another guy and that he has nothing to do with her and that they broke off 2 weeks ago. I think even if she goes out with other guy right now, he has no right to comment since they already broke off 2 weeks ago. The part that he emphasize on her going out with another fella really is a dead giveaway for pushing the focus onto her instead on himself. Hahahah oh well. Stories. Ain’t it interesting.

Ps.. they say bikers life are complicated. Then again, you donno unless you are one!!!

追.............................................琳

2006-04-17T02:06:00.000+08:00

Been to pubs recently. Its not that I am in bad mood.. On the contrary, I was attracted by the concept and feel of the place. Been there 3 times and I have fallen in love with that place!!! Not to mention other things that came along with the package. The one who introduced me to that place. This kind of pub or rather hangout has been in my mind for more than a decade. Imagine ME singing this song ... IN FRONT OF PUB audience.... and also played drums ..... hahahahh ( eh... I've played sax infront of a thousand crowd before... so what is this anyway... hurhurhur)

Dear, listen to this song!!

There is a certain level of comfortness between us. Though it was only such a short period of time. I must say something. Your love and passion for music and dance really drawn my attention. When a person can really dance, he/she will exhume an aura of attractiveness (for me at least) Much like the show...... REALLY REALLY Its so ..... 帅！！！！

ps... as I am writing this entry.. scenes from the trip came into my mind. I did not paid much attention to you except for the fact that you were my fren's pillion. Until u mention about SALSA... hehehe and how keen you were about dancing..... BALLROOM DANCE. I've been planning to take up a course or two about it. I've been playing all kind of songs since secondary school. All are typical songs but never a dance.. Anything pertaining to music will trigger my adrenaline.. One way or the other. Come to think of it, eversince we all unloaded our stuff in Eric's home, I noticed you walked in steps... much like practising dance. I wanted to ask but keep mum.. until really had the chance to chat without letting other people thinking I WANNA HIT ON YOU. I guess sometimes things just happens without you deliberately planned or whatever. Its really chances ........ chances that was given by God.. and ultimately we CHOOSE. You were telling me you thought that "someone" was cute so I tried to sound it out for you.. but too bad.. he is attached. So there I was, as usual, trying to be a good guy helping whatever things I can. Even just some fren I got to know.......( OK OK OK I DID HAVE THE INTEREST in the 1st place)

I guess this is my 1st time having something started without the need to ask.. .LITERALLY.... the flow just happens. Its really nice. Not mere words can describe it. I guess I did hesitated like a couple of months back. The pros and cons, the rights and wrongs, the............ oh well... The only biggest concern I had was.....age... then again.. U are more matured then ur age, I am so childish for mine! Damn.... hahahahha lame joke right.

My mind was still in a confused state just weeks back. Why I was hesitating so much? I had the answers to it. I DO NOT WANT TO RUIN PEOPLE's life. Why bend so much for me? There will be a point when u will spring back( I've tried that before. Took me LONG TIME to realise that and the end result NOT GOOD)..... I am sorry. Truely am! Given 5 yrs earlier, i wouldn't have hesitated and went ahead before thinking of any steps further. Right now..... right now.... So much learnt, so much sadness, so much hurt. Trained me to THINK EXTRA HARD ........ bottomline is that I am too soft. I am afraid to hurt pp more than other pp hurt me. Sorry that I had made u sleepless..... I guess I have to be more selfish when it comes to the affairs of the heart.

2006-03-26T05:39:00.000+08:00

Service For Mankind...... II

Think i wrote one entry with this heading before. This was my feeling I had just moments ago. 1st time i club-hop til almost like 5am? hmmmm 4.30am to be precise. Was fun. Being asked to join in fren's collegue outing. Almost all were ang mos. They were a crazy bunch. Damn... the club was named ONE NIGHT STAND!! Ouch.... hahahah The live band was Solid! I wouldn't mind going back there again!!!! After a long while.... the whole gang decided to go MOS!!!

I though all ang mos like the main dance hall cos its their kind of music. House, trance, progessive........ to my amazement. They all went to the retro room instead. Ehhh.. jus one thing. . This retro room... spinning true retro.... as in the ORIGINAL COVER of the songs!!! It was quite OBIANG!!!! kaoz.... hate it man..... Though it was ok crowd...... The atmosphere slowly slipped into pathetic one..... particularly for me...... >_<

There were some moments, I had this gush of air being stuck in the throat. I thought somethings were either buried deep deep inside or have been really let go and been dealt with. God carried me through that rough period. Peace was with me. Then again, I am still human after all. Scene of Paris flashed through my mind.

Why am I still so stupid knowing that some things will evoke my 4th dimensional emotions and yet I wanna do it. Hahahahah maybe its still me. The old me. Enjoy being tortured! hahaha.... oh well.

God bless all. And of course you most of all. Pray that your life will be blessed and everything will be just fine and as good as it gets!! ^_^

I just had to speak out somewhere. And I guess this is my only mode of voicing out. Hahahahah....... Tears was the 1st song i wanted to link. Then again. This song came along..... I not know what is tears. Sitting there alone staring at the elaborate ceiling filled with studded glistering balls. Blank? Hurt? Sad? mmmmm I really wonder if I am really void of feelings. Given some time back, i think i my tear glands will play me out. Right now, its kind dry..... ok ok it did came into action for a bit. Hahahaha.........Only the promise kept me sitting there... The promise I had during secondary school. After long thought. I reckon. Its crap.

Zooming 160km/hr along CTE was great. Be it super4 or blackbird. Its great. U dont get chances everyday to do that. Heheheh unless you cross the causeway.... The sweet NorthSouth Highway.... Here??? Outta ya mind!!!! hahahahhaha

New job, new environment. Everything gotta go. I need to change....I think I want to change.... COMPLETELY....... to be void of feelings. The only thing that kept ruining my life. I think its fine. Just like this song.... Used to the wind!!! I am used to the wind... on my precious BlackBird!!!! Else fails ... there's always God.. and my dear bike........

到了世界尽头
开始习惯了风
捧着厚厚的寂寞
平静向前走
不当做那是折磨
到了世界尽头
开始学会快乐
不同方向的辽阔
是你最后的温柔
一直到现在我才懂
海阔天空在我心中
湿透了眼就不再迷惑
望着你给的黑夜
当泪划过才能对自己宽容
海阔天空我顶着风
当雾散开就真的自由
独自寻遍这地球
找新的出口谢谢你让我爱过
不同的方向的辽阔
是你最后温柔
一直到现在我才懂
就算舍不得也不能回头

2006-03-23T20:04:00.000+08:00

18 .... Mar .... 2006....

The day my niece is born...... Christian name Faith!!!! Chinese name 敏儿... so CUTE!!!!

On my way to hospital to visit her the next day.. i ganna summon.. jus received it not long ago.. $130 4pts... SO SO SO ANGRY... must go appeal...

off topic!!!

Back to her again.. She is so so so cute..... will post her picture here soon!!! hahaha

She was suppose to be the 2nd one..... oh well.. It was meant to be... God's precious gift!!!! Amen!!!

2006-03-13T19:56:00.000+08:00

New job....

Ahhhhhhh finally..... after 1 yr +++ of talking and no doing.... hehehhe
Its a whole new ball game... I like it! My previous experience definitely help...
Though no need a lot of hands on.. rather is dealing with people... But the physical aspect of it I am definitely Game for it!!! Bring it on!!!! hehehehhe

This marks a new era ... .a CAREER ... real career path!!!
2004 & 2005 let me went thru a series of rollercoaster. I thank all those who were part of it. If it wasn't for you peepz out there. I wouldn't be what I am now... I sincerely thank you.... Forgive me for those who I had offended or even made their life worst.

Right now... right now.. nothing is gonna stop me... from soaring to greater heights!!!

New workplace altought further.... its ok..... 20+ km .... to ... .fro another 20+...
Cant complain much... God gave me a chance.. have to grab it!!! heheheh

I miss my old collegues... like U & U .. .hahahah u know la hor... MUACKS!!! heheh
New job so much to learn.... and and yes.. must wear nice nice... cannot be like last time.... EVeryday shirt and pants.. feel bit Awkward.... then again.. something to get used to... propel me to keep slimmer .... hahahah and also.. need to cut hair but no $$ now.... jialat.. Hair in a mess!!!!!!!

Used to travel to and fro for 5.5km... right now... to and fro 50km.... OMG... thats the diff between AMK and Jurong EAST... hahahah oh well... no pain no gain......

Ops. And there is always... OLs.. for me to ogle at!!! most of my collegues already married with KIDS already. Cant believe it.. they maintain so good wor! anyway.. must concentrate on my work. No career !!! no $$ ... nothing will be real..... need to buck up... other things all self aside!!!!! hahahahahh
THANK GOD!

Trips and Trips.....

2006-03-10T23:54:00.000+08:00

What can i say... after recovering from depresison. I'm a changed man. Been riding my bird to trips and trips. And even the trips to Desaru wasn't enough. Make it 2 on the roll. One weekend after next.
1st is Pegerang Near Desaru......
This group consisted of only a handful of us. 1 special set is Angmo with his Korean Pillon. Its a short makan trip thru Causeway. Meet and go. Quite interesting trip.. cos 1st time. Visited the Ostrich Farm for 1st time. Really an eye opener.. Then to seafood lunch. Then Tanjong Balau beach where I 1st time see bike actually go all the way to the beach!!! Steady leh. Was quite touched that my fren came all da way from KL to meet me up for this short trip..... spend quite bomb on the travelling part. Felt quite bad bout it.

Da A-TEAM .........

The abang making our Prata!!! Its so much bigger in JB......... its like comparing personal pan witha Supreme size pizza... whoo hooooo...

Right after tat..... off we go... to Pegerang..... Passed by a road tat reads TG CHANGI! steady!!!
Then Johnny led us to the Ostrich farm. 1st time for me... had an orientation conducted by the boss. He is a Singaporean. Former Pilot!!! Cool right.....

So jialat of us. Making the organiser squat!!!! hahahah

Ok ... next ... we went makan Seafood!

We had prawns, fish and CRAB!!!! Quite heavy for a LUNCH!!!!

Next stop..... Tg Balau!!!! A beach off Desaru !!!! Nice.. 1st time. .whole bike jus ride up to the grassland... next to the beach.. THE WIND is absolutely.... SOLID>.... never ending.. feels like bike travelling at 100km/hr... Kept on blowing until i feel sleepy!!! Beh Tahan!!!

R&R time!!!!

Fancy having a model for the birdies!!!! hahahahha

Time passed quickly... We left the beach for jb town.... where we had our dinner at a quite ULU indian restaurant... .Guess again.. Opened by singaporean!!! hahah the boss was a former regular in Airforce. .... Aircraft Tech to be exact!!! coool!!! Johny has lotsa lobangs for this kinda thing!!!!

One for the shot!!!!!

After tat.... its home sweet home!!!!!

1st KL trip.... meeting fren on da way!

2006-02-17T02:22:00.000+08:00

1st KL trip....... Its wonderful.... With a new group of frens.... Simon Soh so to say... Super Frenly Chap...... Though its not as far as Cameron Highlands.. .But its been a place I wanted to visit for a long time.. ON BIKE!

Thanks to him that i finally got a chance to do it.

My only regret was ... FORGET TO BRING MY CAMERA!!!!!!!! OMG....

There were few others that i know on the trip... like Xiao P, Eien, Stardust, Aubrey ( damn she is fast!!!!) Roger of X11 as well.. Got to know another Roger S4 spec II there.. I tell u this Roger is solid.. cos he pillion his MUM up all the way.. and Her mum is a Jap.. .Kudos to the MUMMY..... riding at a breakneck speed she relaxes without any complain behind him...

(Taken at Seremban)

Anyway... trip is also to meet up with a LONG fren of mine.... 6yrs to be exact.. The twist to it is that we have been communicating thru MSN!!!! hahahhah rather... we started off with ICQ... hehee its like the penpals of the olden days... Finally after 6 yrs .. We decided to meet up.. In a biker trip.. hahah. She had superbike license but didn't ride one for years... So I decided to give it a shot.. To do the ultimate gamble. Meet a net fren.

2 senario came into my mind. 1st, she sees me.. Arh... u look weird ... and then.. the trip is being ruined.... 2ndly, i see her.... eh... different frequency .... trip is being ruined... No 3rd senario.....
But.... by God's Grace... we hit off very well.....though i was mentally prepare for her Towering presense... I was still very much awed by the presense when she waltz down the road of Seremban R&R... SUPER TALL GAL man..... my 1st real life fren who is .... MY HEIGHT... the tallest gal that I've known was only bout 1.75..... She is .... "swallow saliva" my height... and she was wearing BOOTS... over my HEAD already....

The rest of the Group was sort of surprise by her sudden intrusion. Some came to me.. I didn't know u pillion someone ? The others who had GFs or Wifes as pillions stared in astonishment.. All those that know me before the trip..."psst Ano, your fren ah... she really TALL LEH...." I was like ya.... she was a MODEL... hahahahha

The were ... eh.. i forget how may bikes already... Bout 20? cos there were 17 rooms... + few other extras..... I think definitely More than 20 Bikes.. As we soar across the streets of KL, stares of shock and admiration beamed onto us.... WOW... tat is really NICE..

After bout almost 1 hour of ride from Seremban..... we REACH ..... FORTUNA HOTEL.

AS we unpack and got allocated to our own rooms... ROGER of X11 was my roommate.... and of course my fren too. Roger was like.. Eh ya fren super tall leh... All she could do was giggle and giggle non stop... I cracked a bit of LAME ones and she jus lost it..... NON STOP....

After settling down, we proceed for supper at a street right behind the hotel..... quite good spread i would say, Char Kway Teow and Carrot Cakes, Chicken Rice.... and yes.... Loads and LOADs of Laughter... NONstop action... jus like those AH BENG TECHNO CDS... nonstop until most of us had stomach cramps and tears running down our cheeks... Cos i was lame.... but... Eien was LAMER!!! and Guess again... SHE LOST IT.... everything.... totally non lady like ... OMG... I was signalling to Eien to stop it but..... oh well... lets laugh everything out!!!

Oh well. The night ended with much laughter. Even in our own room. 2nd day was quite tiring cos of late night laughter and stuff. But it was alright.... It holds more exciting moments ahead cos we are heading up to Genting Highlands! 1st time going up the hills on 2 wheels. Its definitely Interesting. And also with my tall sidekick ( as being nicknamed by Ricky aka Ah beng Prof)

( Tats me in centre.. Candid shot... aint on purpose)

Its time to zoom up to Genting!!! Forming up..... all bikes.. heheheh Wow.. its really quite a scene

(Reach Genting already.. look at the MIST)

( at the car park..... where we got separated from the main group)

Anyway. Our group only went jalan jalan. Makan and sight-seeing. No gambling.. .NONO.. hahah. We only had a few hours to spare and quickly made our rounds.

( Lisa..... eh.. all 1st impression.. u see as compared to Roger and Mummy u know what I meant)

I accompanied Lisa to try out a red top at a Boutique.. and chatted. I enjoyed the rather 30mins of personal time. Tracing back what happened between us and we've gone back 6 yrs of our time. Its was quite a feat for us. Considering ..... we did not plan to meet at all. hahahha and there were are chatting right there in the cool mist of Genting. What a timing! Its nice. Its really nice.

(well this is yours truly with Lisa)

Time to hit home. Back to hotel.. Or at leaste we thought.. the Organiser had other plans. He brought us to a cool makan place near Cheras

Dining ... Al fresco .... with another .... episode..... Where... the word Aubrey became a Noun and Verb!!!! ( did a Aubrey => Doing a perfect backflip on a chair landing with point almost perfect 10 )

The makan here was quite alright.. Even have a big projection TV infront of us. I suspected the Boss deliberately played Westlife MTV cos we are from SINGAPORE. Nice entertainment..... ALL THE WAY. Lucky Lisa was not beside me. If not the episode will turn into a SAGA.

After that is all the way back to the hotel!

(On the way back to hotel with the Infamous Doc BENG. Peace sign coupling with a middle finger! ops...)

The evening ended with a ......... CARD GAME... i manage to WAKE UP my roommate Roger.. ehhh.. where he almost lost 100% in a card drawing game.....!!!

I felt so bad for waking him up and ... hehehehhe end up ... he drinking most of the time. But hey... The 1st round of drinks were on me ok.....

So the night ended with not so sober bunch doing ..... the TKO..... (snores and stuff... alamak.. so disturbing)

Next day we bid farewell to the nice hotel that housed almost 40 of us.... Well. On the 1st petrol station leaving Lisa crossing the highway. It was quite dangerous cos.. its the NSHW. She insisted and I was inexperience to go 1 round. So I made sure she crossed safely over the other side then I zoom off to meet the rest of the gang..

I went up to 270+ to catchup with the rest of the peepz. On the average is bout 220.... which is QUITE alright speed for my BB. Rest 1 stop at Pagoh and all the way back to Gelang Petah where we washed our bikes and had lunch before heading HOME.... tired but satisfied!

TAGGING

2006-02-09T18:12:00.000+08:00

Since the lovely HUIPING tagged me, I shall do this now. (Else she don't friend me, how? O_o)

If any of the following statements apply to you, highlight/bold/italize it. Then, post.

I have a cell phone. (Understatement! I had cell Phoness...... Current luv N70!)
I have friends that use me. ( Hey, who doens't have ? Jus matter of good or bad way)
I am an only child. ( Nope, luckily)
I love dangly earrings. ( Tried before.... interesting feeling)
I love cold weather. ( Hmmmm sensitive to Coldness though)

I'm obsessed with the computer internet. ( To a certain EXTEND YES... VERY MUCH)
I have shot a gun before. ( NPCC airgun.... sorry didn't got to do it in NS... wasted my time)
I can't live without music. ( This is a DEFINITE YES. Its very much me!! Like Air and water )
I have no tolerance of ignorant people. ( Hmmm kind of stretched my tolerance to a level that not many can undertake)
I have ridden on a motorcycle before. ( another Understatement! Current Ride... Super BlackBird CBR1100XX05 ... and she's a REAL BEAUTY)

I'll be in this town forever. [NOOOOooo!!!]
I've been to 5 other countries. [Come on.. i can do better than this!!]
I get annoyed easily. ( Used to be.. LONG LONG TIME AGO)
I eventually want kids. (kids...... its God's blessings)
I have neat handwriting. (This is my wish.... long time ago. If only ... )

I have more than a few horrible memories. (Eh.... lets jus let it be a story)
I am addicted to chocolate. ( Ouch... This is Hard to ...... differentiate addiction and LOVE)
I am an atheist. ( eh .. wat is tis? I BTC => Boh TaT Cheh)
I love airplane rides. ( Yes definitely ... along with it a big price tag)
I love taking pictures. ( This is true... taking pics of other people)

I hate people who are fake. ( Man This is absolutely CORRECT... Pls ask them go Fly kite will ya?)
I can be mean when I want to. ( eh... quite hard..... I'm too soft)
My parents care about my grades. (sort of .... previously)
One of my best friends is a girl. ( hmmm do i have? Guess ........ donnno if i have at all hahah)
I have way too many wallets. ( NOPE....)

I'm obsessed with lip gloss.
I am easy to talk to. ( Guess so ... pertaining to certain individuals)
I would never eat raw fish. ( pls .. gimme sashimi anytime.....)
I cry easily. (THIS IS HARD...... to admit.....but I do)
I hate when people are late. ( THAT WAS ME YEARS AGO... now i am the guilty party)

I procrastinate. ( VERY MUCH YES THANK YOU)
I love winter.
I have too many clothes for my closet/dresser. ( hmmm how bout adding the old there => hand me downs)
I love to sleep. ( Currenly yes... maybe I ignored the importance of sleep years back... now retribution!!!!)
I wish I were smarter. ( Oh God... in your Grace..... BLESS ME WITH THAT)

I'm afraid of flying. ( NOPE definitely)
I hate drama. ( On the Contrary....)
I bite my nails. ( eh at times)
I have been on an 8 hour drive. ( more than tat..... additional factor.. COLD WET and tired.. on bike)
I never fight with my parents. (eh... i don think i am that SAINTLY)

I love the beach. ( OHHHH YES...... sea, sand and the BABES)
I have never had the chicken pox. ( man... this is embarressing.. .got it couple of years back. SO old already....)
I have gone out in public in my pajamas.
I can't control my emotions. ( hmmmm that is a NO - NO)
I have a best friend. ( Should be )

I have moved more than once. (Around the same area. I like my part of Singapore.)
I truly love my friends. ( THIS IS CORRECT)
I have (had) braces.
I have never broken a bone. ( SO FAR.. GOD BLESS)
I hate my computer. ( OH PLEEEZE... i love em)

I like girls who play the drums. (Admire should be the word, cos i play em myself.... heheh)
I state the obvious ( hmmm most of the time?)
I'm a happy person. (Overall I guess)
I love to dance. ( eh... I'm much of a head-turner------ only when dancing....)
I love to sing. ( Dreaming to be the next SuperStar)

I love cleaning my room. ( Hmmmm maybe with a cane lurking somewhere)
I tend to get jealous very easily. ( I lost tat part of my feeling)
I love cute underwear. ( ehhh......... kinky)
I love night better than day.
I don't like to study for tests.( who likes em?)

I have been on the phone for over 5 hours. ( long long time ago... record of 8 hours all the way til dawn)
I am too forgiving. ( Pertaining to those close to my heart)
I have horrible sense of direction. ( NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO )
I miss elementary school. ( hmmmmmm nope... secondary would be better)
I'm a daddy's boy/girl. ( I like to make him feel proud of me)

I love the color pink. ( Beginning to appreciate the color more )
I love to sew.
My eye color changes. ( Hmmm tat'll be great)
I should see a therapist. ( Definitely.. .I going into depression)
I played on a girls sports team. ( ?????? in moi dreams )

I become stressed easily. ( I should say so.....)
I hate/detest liars. ( PLS KILL THEM ....)
I love the smell of rain.
I love my family. (Very much!!!)
I hate needles. ( Pls dont hurt me)

I am a perfectionist. ( Typical Virgo Trait ... If u wanna do.. DO IT GOOD)
I always wanted to learn to play the guitar. ( Learnt for a while... sark at it)
I hate the feeling of failure. ( Its MCP.... but i am still a man after all)
I have friends in other countries. (Not many.. but still have...... )
I know how to cook. ( A little i guess...... some of those who tried my skills .. .gimme comments)

I can be quite selfish. (Hmmm seldom)
At times, I still act like a little kid. (Been out of that... for long long long time!!!!)
I have food allergies.
I love to read. ( This is definitely a LIE)
I wish I were more motivated for school. (pls turn back the clock so I can reset my SCORES)

I love getting stuff in the mail. (Credit Cards, Greeting cards... nice stuff ...... , not spam ones)
I have problems with letting go of old feelings. (I need a psychiatrist )
I hate being alone. ( Learn to live with it ..... recently)
I love summer. ( YEH.. tats when i can ride without fearing the rain)
I love the weekends. ( OF COURSE.......)

I love black eyeliner.
I think I'm a looker. ( I look at people!!! ALL THE TIME)
I type with one hand. ( eh... I did tat.. when i was injured that time... hahah)
I live in a one storey house.
I wear make-up. (Eh..... something must be wrong with me)

I have never rode on an underground subway. ( Hmmmmm cant be)
I can't swim. ( I SWIM LIKE A DOLPHIN)
I have bad memories. (Let them rest with the dust)
I go to church. ( Been slacking.... picking my feet up recently. GOD HELP ME)
I sing in the shower. ( hehehehe I do.. i do)

I hate cheerleaders. ( Oh man.. i wanted to be one)
I usually get what I want. ( Hmmm do I? jus maybe .... maybe)
I have been on stage before. ( hehehhe so much that i lost count... hahahh Jus performed my concert recently...Bit sad for my poor performance tat nite though)
I love roller coasters.
No one knows the full story of my life. ( Hmmmmm think so... think so.....)
I am close to my parents. ( To a certain extend)
I don't have a curfew. (Nah.... Long Long ago.. in the sounthern province of China.......)

I'm tagging:

Kenneth!!

XiShi

Penelope

2006!!! Chinese New Year!!!!

2006-02-02T01:35:00.000+08:00

恭喜恭喜！！！！！又是一年！！！！　而零零六一定会更好！应为我有主与我同在！！

It has been a year of Ups and Downs for 2005...... so many mistakes and impulsive decisions made. So much things learnt. Really changed me... Even my work. Hahaha. I'm weak. Ops Wrong..... I was weak. I am definitely MUCH MUCH better now!

Jus watched "Fearless" aka 霍元甲 Yesterday nite. It was good. Rather the 1st bloody and violent show for Jet Li. I would say the cinematography was absolutely breath-taking. Abit of Crouching tiger and hidden dragon kind of smoothness at times. My fren commented. Wa seh... fight non-stop from start to the end. Blood here and there... OMG..... no wonder its NC-16...Coincidentally. Jet Li is 42..... and the Original Character Died at the age of 42..... Li wants to end his Fliming career with this Hero's story!.

After watching the show...when we were visiting the wash room. Someone caught my eyes. Someone that had chance upon many years ago. Suddenly the memories came back to me. Hahahaha was quite a joke. So long ago. During army time. Got to know a group of gals while clubbing. There were 3 of them. 2 of them jus came out of Juvenile home. I remember it was cos of insufficent table that them came to join our table. We started chatting and after a while were dancing together. 1 of them went toilet and ........ started frenchin with a stranger. At 1st I thought he was her BF or something that came out of no where. I was few mins later than her to the washroom and there I was, surprised at the scene. I came back told her frens and they rushed to her grabbing her back. I didn't know what was happening. Hahahahah. There I was being foolishly good chatting with her asking whats her problem and chat chat chat....

Time to go home. SHE INSISTED THAT I SEND HER BACK!!! Damn! I didn't had enough $$... hahahah I rem it was few days pass new year as well. No choice .... I accompany her on cab.... Throughout the journey. SHe keep on blabbering bout her BF this and tat.... I was like.. OK OK ... comforting her. DAMN it was from Princep street all the way to WOODLANDS!!!! Suddenly she said... U know how hurt I was ... and there she grabbed my hand and try to put against her CHEST. Much like how we say the Sillypore Pledge. OH MY GOD. Halfway thru the momentum of reaching her " designation" I pull back immediately. Come to think of it. How come I did not let it flow. HAHAHAH I was damn stupid right. hahahah. But its jus me! Hahahah Imagine.... Reaching the place.... I thought was her home.... THEN AGAIN.. its was her BF home! Her BF was standing there... waiting for her.... That was the ultimate! I even wave Hi to her BF ...... kaoz.... after that.... ON the way back.. The Cabby was like asking a lot of question .. .I was like .... donno how to answer.. .HAHAHAHHA complicated YA!!! ahahhah

It was after that ... .her fren... asked me out..... told me she admire me.. for not taking advantage of her fren. ... I told her ... Its ok .. But.... we can only be fren. Come to think of it. I did have couple of interesting encounter too. Hahahah for a plain looking arse like me! That was... HISTORY!

Back to New 2006! This year. Will be the time I bounce back. 1st will be New Job... New Jo scope... no more boring engineering..... Hopefully is Sale engineer!!! Yeh...... Bike.. Hope that can carry on depending on the new job nature... If not... Too bad.. Let it go... Let everything go. After all biking wasn't in my plan anyway. It serves as a BIG BIG LESSON. Though I grew to love biking every inch I COVER. Dilemma? No .. jus hand it to GOD! hahahh

I really hope to hold as long onto the bike as possible. I hope to cover to China as well since there is already a link up to China straight! Visit all the churches along the way! I've heard they have underground churches with MILLIONS of believers! Can u believe it? Yeh.... Pilgrimage?? Hahaha why not. Shall start a group Saint Riders! Hahahahah

New Year......... so wat... hahaha

2006-01-23T00:14:00.000+08:00

CHINESE NEW YEAR...... around the corner.. but doesn't feel much for me .... rather .. i feel like just staying at home. So much things to do, but totally no mood at all.. .sian.... guess rather been affected by job. LOOK FOR NEW ONE. Pray that God will let me have a better one. Prayer! Powerful!

Jus had band practise today also. Feel good to play music. Ultimate destress!!!! New songs .... Interesting! Playing with younger pp.. make me feel YOUNGER! hahahah though i ehem... not that old la. Guess music still my best company after all... rather after so many years..... hahahahha

Chanced upon this song in MTV channel. Originally sung by a Local composer that only Yes933 has the live version. Donno why she had it in her album.... MEI MEI... hahahah the cockroach song from Dragostea Din Te. Oh well.. lets enjoy....

总是不经意地想起，
你喜欢哼的那首歌曲，
一样温柔的音，
依旧牵动我的心。
我曾寻寻觅觅，
想在文字里寻找爱情，
才发现最美的诗句，
原来都在你眸里。

爱是你眼里的一首情歌，
轻洋著飘逸旋律，
让我不知不觉地陶醉在，
你缠绕的深情。

爱是你眼里的一首情歌，
轻拨动我的心弦，
让我不由自主地深爱著你。

Virgin Long Distant Trip on a BlackBird

2006-01-11T10:13:00.000+08:00

This is the Main Cast that embarked on the Trip... The longest and wettest one yet ( according to the organiser MR CHILLI) ........

600++km of cold, wet darkness that started on 7th Jan 06 1am+.....

Setting off from home.... already in the rain. Hoping that condition might get better.... THINK AGAIN!!!! All the way.........

Group shot at StrawBerry Farm ( my 1st time eating whole strawberry... sounds very suakoo right.... but its the truth... and its BERRY NICE)

Nice senery....Outside the Bee Farm

another shot....Outside the Bee Farm

This is our TEA....break.... of ..... Sinful Choc Cakes!!!! Woot.. .its damn nice... coupling with Hot fresh Boh Tea...... 1st S4 outing of the year??? UP CAMERON HILL.. hahhaha

See for yourself.... S4 members.. .hahahha

Outside the Tea Plantation.....

Outside the Tea Plantation.....another one

This is one LONG HARD cactus!!!!

How do it look??? PRETTY????

Another "Hua Chi"!!!

Look At all the Cactus!!!!!

TMM couple shot... so sweet!!!!

Come on.... let me have it!!!!!

Hokkien song " wu yuan bo yuan... zhe yi chie sui yuan...."

table full of flowers!!!! nice leh

Macro Shot... sing my Olympus!!!

I can't tell whether its the leaves or flowers

Eh... another 1st time... seeing a true Lavendar plant

Next.... 1st Photo with my BB!!! woot

Taken with my "lover" ... Chilli san!!!

All bikes together now!!!!! Say ROAR!!!!

Luckily the 2nd day was blessed with minimal rain and we went to couple of places like catus valley, strawberry farm, bee and honey farm as well. I must say its very COLD.... maybe due to the fact we brough insufficient clothings.

Last day..... still blessed !!! Drizzled halfway down the mountain.. we manage to catch 2nd half of the downhill Dry.. .thats it.. INITIAL D we go!!!!! SHIOK AH.... twisties all the way.....

Then again... the rain resume once we hit the highway..... on well... another 600+km back to sg ... WET AND COLD.........

Its a place to go back again.... WHEN ITS NOT RAINY season!!!

New Year!!!! 2006

2006-01-03T02:25:00.000+08:00

想
若结局一样
又何苦再想
伤
若让人成长
我为什么怕分手的伤
解脱是肯承认这是个错
我不应该还不放手
你有自由走我有自由好好过
解脱是懂擦干泪看以后
找个新方向往前走
这世界辽阔
我总会实现一个梦

Thoughts of 2005

2005-12-21T16:21:00.000+08:00

As time draws closer to Xmas, New year is jus one bend away. Time really flies. Just like riding at high speed when things just zoom pass you. Everything becomes blur. Conclusion bout this year. A year of training and lessons. Mind enriching, pocket diminishing! Such a short time, so many things happened. Some even repeat cases. Hahahha, damn it. Mistake made once being repeated. I'm really an idiot. Hahahahah.

When I was younger, I like to watch Back to the Future. In all 3 parts of the movie, Michael J Fox was being challenged time and again. Many things being foiled because of his "Bu gan Yuan" attitude. Just because people call him "chicken". Almost caused his life in Part III. He decided to withdraw in the nick of time. In which it changed his whole future. For the better that is. I am glad this year is like part 1 and 2 of the movie. Some how similar stuff happened. And the same kind of "after-feelings" lead me into making HUGH mistakes. In which I nearly give in to depression. If it wasn't for my buddies, I think I would have made a bigger mistake. So what if you have the biggest bike around, U have no happiness, no ease of mind?

I am confident that things will fall in nicely come 2006. I know because HE is with me. Thank you! Without You I think I am really lost and maybe even lost the will to survive or stand up again. Trust, thou give to thee, not mere mortals anymore. For secular mind is clouded by the fallen one, You are my saviour.

命

2005-12-02T01:45:00.000+08:00

命

他。。。。。是否真的迷失了方向？
他。。。。。是否暂时碰到了生命的瓶颈？
他。。。。。是否会败给命运？
他。。。。。是否会坚持到春天的来临？
他。。。。。是否这一刻就逆舟而翻？

生命如果没有困难，如何能突破自己的限制？
生命如果没有经历，如何能丰富生命的价值？
生命如果没有拼搏，如何能填满腰包的空虚？

常言道。。。。命里有时终徐有，命里无时莫强求。既来之着安置。船到桥头自然直
这是一个懦弱的心态。就算有机会，没有争取，终究等于零！！！

他虽然盼望着有一个她能与他同行，可是今非昔比。往事虽已放下，路要怎走，自己看。。。。。。。

原主永远同与我在，

在这一刻，我以无法在倔强的走下去了。

唯有以主的爱与力量，才能再度扶持我，让我能勇敢地面对所有的挑战。

阿门！

Depression????

2005-11-28T00:07:00.000+08:00

Depression????

How come this fella got a new bike but seldom comes out? Come out face like no expression? What wrong with him? Why he want to sell everything? He's crazy......

IF ................. Maybe...............

2005-11-23T14:45:00.000+08:00

1 yr passed, files, without u knowing ...... Things happened..... Good, Bad, whatever. Just a period 12 months can churn up so much of crap. Hahahah interesting .... so so interesting.

Feelings of uncertain and confusion clouds the current mind. Do you ever have the feeling of so near yet so far; missing people yet afraid to kind of dilemma? I guess its all part and parcel of life.

Back from afar, changed? Very much yes..... Views on life..... very much different..... Eyes forward..... So much things lies ahead. Compunction - woohoo chimalogy..... This word come as a substitute for .... REGRET..... Ouch... such a word that everyone hope never to be found in anyone's dictionary. Ok simply want to say... I feel bad for not turning up at the airport. Failing to fulfill a promise that i made. To fulfill a promise to someone I once loved. Now a good friend. Rather.......

In a different league I would say, I am blue collar, You are a white collar. Worlds apart now. Distance grew unimaginably. Is it just me or I am hyper-sensitive. Hahahhaha... Think its the ego monster... hahahahha

不知心在何处,
不让命运摆布,
不想就此结束,
不懂何时闭幕.

切切的思念, 有如天空落下来的雨滴.
湿湿的脸蛋, 流下无奈与空虚的泪水.
震震的心跳, 打着我默默守候的旋律,
无边无际的爱,抹去了往事包袱与伤害.

Speed.....its really...... really.....

2005-11-14T01:23:00.000+08:00

Feelings of blood rushing in your veins so fast... Heart pumping...... things going blur in your eyes.......

Thats what you get when u are travelling at 280km/hr. Virgin!!! Scared, curious, excited... you name it.....

Its was a Birthday dinner trip to Gelang Petah at Malaysia.... After dinner.... Petrol... Was pacing with a BUS of which driven by Mashi, along with Buzhide and Xiaoyun..... right after from 2nd link JB custom ... suddenly Vrrooommmmmm ... AH siao's bike zoomed passed me... Jus being playful.. .I changed my riding posture and off I go....... After going past him, I decided why not give it a Thrust! Then it all happened so fast..... Before I know it, Yeeehaaaa!!!! Was shock to see the speedo displaying that.. .I immediately close the throttle..... then rather .... throttle a bit.... so as to cause a wheellock..... It was a rush.... that made me forget about everything..... TOTALLY EVERYTHING...... when things was jus flying past you....

Too bad.. .some frens were not able to join us...... or how should i put it..... Somethings are complicated.... paths taken... diff ... diff..... (difficult..... difference) ... hahah but i still wished for them to be there though... hahahah

变！变！变！

2005-11-12T03:36:00.000+08:00

Aim in life has shifted..... paradigm that is no longer comfort to be in...... Cruel facts in life smack right into your face... causing changes and evolution. Changes ... is it good or bad?

Motivation for evolution ....... There is now.... there was then...... more than ever. Thinking out of the box, looking from window beyond, thoughts of dreams that were mere coffee chat is getting more of realizing then ever before. Life.... its not about boring and "sian sian sian" everyday. Its how u want it to be. Fight for the things you want.

Evolution! Change! New........... me...

Beyond 解散了

2005-11-04T00:40:00.000+08:00

Beyond

一个陪我度过小时候的乐团。。。。走了二十个年头。。。。还是闭不过散场的结局

从他们的身上学了很多做人的道理。。。。他们可以说是带出香港乐团的先锋。。。。

五个人的乐团，半红不紫。四个人的乐团，海阔天空。最后剩下Beyond三子成了十来年。

一路走来不容易。。。大家最怀念的还是家驹Beyond没了他就好比没了灵魂。。。。我看这句话应该没人会反对吧。。。。

改变。。。。。。一个不断继续在发生的过程。。。大家能接受吗？

新的，旧的，哪一个才是你中意的？

虽然我已尽量的改变我自己，新的我会是这么样？这么样才能做到海阔天空？

今天我寒夜里看雪飘过
怀著冷却了的心窝飘远方
风雨里追赶
雾里分不清影踪
天空海阔你与我
可会变(谁没在变)

多少次迎著冷眼与嘲笑
从没有放弃过心中的理想
一刹那恍惚
若有所失的感觉
不知不觉已变淡
心里爱(谁明白我)

原谅我这一生不羁放纵爱自由
也会怕有一天会跌倒
被弃了理想谁人都可以
那会怕有一天只你共我

仍然自由自我
永远高唱我歌
走遍千里

Tears

2005-10-20T01:56:00.000+08:00

Tears :

Lacrimation is the body's process of producing tears, which are a liquid to clean and lubricate the eyes. The word lacrimation may also be used in a medical or literary sense to refer to crying

眼泪

一个陪你一生的朋友，开心时，它会随着心情的高潮而滴下，伤心时更不会遗弃你。解脱与发泄，它是最好的附属，不会让你失望。如果没了它，生命就像少了调味料，没了它暗档无味。

寒眼情红
风泪感粉
轻滴深浓
轻滴深浓
插脸心为
身蛋里谁
过流缠抹
，，，？

走过了当时逛过的街道，

熟希的小巷，找到了当时买过的同一幅墨镜，

当时因疏忽而弄坏了那幅。。。。。。眉头奏了好久。。。。

缘让你再找到它，一模一样。。。。。。为何在犹豫不决呢？

有些东西，失去了就永远找不回来了。。。。。。

熟希的小巷，走到了那间店，

又是一幅眼镜。。。。。我呆了好久。。。。。

“往事随风如云烟。。。。。。刹那脑海如昨天。。。。。”

为何又触动了那以往，一幕一幕。。。。。浮现在我眼前？

空中播的歌曲，让我眼角不知不觉地湿了。。。。。。

江南

2005-10-14T12:12:00.000+08:00

Didn't have much to say bout anything recently. Have been busy making myself "NEW" in everything that is about me. Feels good thought. Anyway last nite jus met my "sister"....... one of the few I really had. Our name is only 1 word diff. Same surname even. OMG. How close can that be. Really nice. If only is my real sister..... Hahahhaha Anyway.... Have not met for a long time and updated each other about our lifes and really chat until midnight. Hahahhaha. Nice, haven't felt so comfortable talking non-stop so such a long long time! If it wasn't for band, I wouldn't have such cute and nice sister! Heheheh... I wonder am I her brudder or sista. Ops.. hahahha

Recently been into JJ's song all the way. Found out that Junyang is JJ's JCmate. Anyway, one song I was surprise to find out that is Junyang that sang. The lyric is very meaningful. I've been trying to link up to my blog. Quite hard though.. .Its call Guardian angel. Guess its akang Datang! Will settle for JJ's song for now...... Yeh!

????

2005-10-10T21:44:00.000+08:00

安静

Risen Once again

2005-10-10T01:48:00.000+08:00

On the 3rd day, He rises.....................

Surviving everything that came along his way. Love the enemy, its so hard so so hard. But once you can accept it. Your life changes. Everything changes once again. Disappointed he is not, sadness left him. Secular matters are but ashes and dusts. Faith had him revived.........faith!!!

CRUCIFY MY LOVE

2005-10-08T21:07:00.000+08:00

CRUCIFY MY LOVE

Crucify my love
If my love is blind
Crucify my love
If it sets me free
Never know Never trust
"The love should see a colour”
Crucify my love
If it should be that way

Like a river flowing to the sea
You'll be miles away,and I know
I know I can deal with the pain
No reason to cry

Crucify my love
If my love is blind
Crucify my love
If it sets me free
Never know Never trust
"The love should see a colour"
Crucify my love
If it should be that way

Swing the heartache
Feel it inside out
When the wind cries
I'll say goodbye
Tried to learn Tried to find
To reach out for eternity
Where's the answer
Is it forever

Till the loneliness shadows the sky
I'll be sailing down and I will know
I know I can clear clouds away
Oh is it a crime to love

Jus a Thought!

2005-10-05T01:49:00.000+08:00

SMS。。。。一个让他们开始交流的地方

过了好久，他们开始大伙出去。。他对她的印象很好

虽保持着联络，他默默的手后等待，始终无法遗忘那感觉

直到她生日时，他决定“该是时候”。。。。

为她办会，亲自做礼物，感觉好窝心。。。

他们的关系慢慢的更好了。。。。。。

SMS。。。。一个最后让他对她失去信任的地方

她作了一些让他伤心的事，他好无奈。。。。

他们的关系最终变成陌生人。。。。

现在每当他拿起手提看简讯，他会无心的想起。。。。

“她现在到底过的怎么样，是否还安好吗？”

SMS，一个让他们开始与结束的地方。。。

不懂你的心究竟躲着什么
不懂为什么要我放开手
不懂爱情为何不长久
好想对你说,说不愿就此分手
你只是默默对我摇摇头
微笑说我们永远是做朋友
永远有多远我看不见
爱在一瞬间说变就变
你曾是我的地平线
想围绕你沉浮起落日夜直到永远
永远有多远我泪眼看不见
爱在一瞬间变成冷漠的拒绝
泪水苦又咸流成汪洋一片
情人和朋友之间爱太远
一天天天转地旋喧闹的世界不停歇
一夜夜夜长梦多躲进了回忆的枷锁
风花雪月的承诺烟消云散不再有
你还在说在说在说分手以后可以永远做朋友

Drunk!!!!!

2005-10-05T00:36:00.000+08:00

Drunk!!!!

Its long time since I got so high...... and drunk..... Long long time. I told myself never to do it again... atlas, I broken my own promise. Club hopping from Newsroombar to Double O. 3 bottles of heineken, 1 1/2 jug of Volka Lime, 2 shots of Tequila! Thats it.. hahahahhaha I'm weak. If not for the songs, I be gone sooner...... Dance it out. Let all out.

此路非易自坚则，
史人告终文逆耳，
失得妇欢战虽败，
窗外望君笑衷乐.

Spontaneous and adaptable "balance in life" seeker

2005-10-05T00:09:00.000+08:00

Jus taken some tests.... interesting results I must say......

Spontaneous and adaptable "balance in life" seeker

You like to be in touch with the in-crowd, in touch with what's new, and making sure you have the best of it. You appreciate design, and quality. You can give a 120% when you need to, but know that you don't need to 100% of the time. You know that life is for living, and you're smart enough to make sure that you have time to relax, chill and just be yourself.

You come across to many as a patient, people person who is a good listener, adaptable and accommodating to others. You have the ability to "go with the flow" of your surroundings. This ability is both your biggest strength and weakness; at best, you're very accepting and supportive of others as they really are, but at worst you can sometimes forget who you yourself are, passively agreeing with others and reticent to assert your own desires.

You may have a particularly hard time when making painful decisions, like firing someone, because you also see the other person's predicament, and hate to force confrontations. Sometimes you can find it hard to get started on things. However, this inertia can also work to your advantage, because once started you will make slow-but-steady progress, becoming determined and relentless in your pursuits.

Famous people who share these traits include:Bill Clinton, Carl Jung, Nelson Mandela, Tiger Woods, Prince Charles, Ronald Reagan, Albert Einstein, Dwight Eisenhower

Happy Bday!

2005-09-30T00:00:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday!

May not be much I can offer. But at least there is the thought. Guess only can wait til you are back to pass it to you. Wish you enjoy your remaining time there with your beau! God bless you always. Rem bring back some MAKAN for me!!!! Slurp!!!!

Sepang Motor Grand Prix!

2005-09-27T10:48:00.000+08:00

Sepang Motor Grand Prix!

1st time in my life to actually experience the actual Grand Prix for bikes. Though I may not be crazy about it but its an experience nonetheless. Along with all my bike friends, 13 bikes up to Kuala Lumpur Sepang Racing Circuit. It was long long journey. Crazy weather...... Rain for a short distance...... it was really WET... cos we were travelling in high speed. On the range of 140-190 Km/hr. Definitely not for the old and faint hearted! One wrong move... thats it. At 1st, my baby only went to 170 Max! Wondering what was wrong... This is the 2nd time I "Pi Chia" lie down as close to the fuel tank as possible (cos non faring bike and I am really contributing to the wind resistance). It really helps in the increase the speed. After such a long period of time, my baby finally is able to clear meter once again. It felt so good.... when it went to the power cut region! Funny feeling is .... I felt underpowered! .... Its really kind of dampening the spirit when you find you can't do anything when you are in certain situation, just letting things happen in front of you... Ops.... Am I Drifting too far.... Eh.. No... Underpowered! Thats exactly what I felt! Feel that you could have gone faster, further, fiercer...... with a flick of the wrist. That is something I want to do for quite sometime. Financially been taxing on me recently so have to bite the stick and endure for the moment. Given the opportunity! My next trip will be on my ideal bike! Yeh.....

Upon reaching Sepang, I was awed by the number of bikes present! Its a sea of bikes I mind you. Quite a sight! Too bad I forgot to bring my own camera (damn it!) well still my job as a photographer never did left me. Hahahha. One thing I have to mention... The Weather is really FINE! So hot man! I wonder how high the temp was. Couple of our bikes ( super bikes) hit temp well over 100 degree C! Man..... Oh well. Finally got ourselves into the stand... though not grandstand ($50ringgit), we settled for a location overlooking the 1st hairpin and 90 degree turn. Its really worth the $$ though. Seeing their cornering really amazes me! The 125 and 250cc one was quite boring actually. Its only the main GP starts with the super bikes (heard its 500cc) that draws attention of the overall crowd! The roar of the exhaust really set the blood pumping! Really changes some of my mindset about getting my next bike though. I had my promises about getting sports bikes...... but I guess you only life once. Why not! Don live in regrets.

At 1st I had problem recognising the most popular racer (Valentino Rossi) until our leader pointed him out. His "costume" really stands out from the rest... let alone his bike! SO SO SO FLUORESENT! Anyway ... there were exciting few rounds when he started no. 7th bike and overtook the rest ........ and maintain the 2nd spot....... eventually he did overtook and got 1st but lost his top spot to another fella (I not sure of the name). It was definitely worth the $$ paid to see such exciting race and sound of the roaring exhausts. Right after the race, we all went around to take a look at the booths to see what good stuff they are selling. Disappointment. But there were Sports bike that were on display.

Might as well take a few shots with them. More and more tempted I am as I mounted the bike. Ops..... hahahahaha. Soon it was time to wrap everything up and leave KL.......

Leaving that place was a disaster! Damn! can u imagine the sea of bike..... all leaving.. not to mention cars as well.... OH MY GOD! The most stressful traffic I've ever encountered! Besides the heat, there are bikers whom we known them for reckless and hell riding not giving a damn about other road users. Finally we escaped from ALCATRAZ. Upon reaching our 1st stop.... we scurry away looking for food! Boy are we hungry! We totally forgot about lunch. Hahhahaha. At that time was close to dinner already..... We decided to skip couple of stops after that.... zooming 130km to our next stop.. That was when some of us really brain drained...... including me. Nearly dozed off at speed of 190km/hr. Thats really ... er......... SHIOK! Bit of stomachache, bladder overflowing..... My God I was really rushing for time! Endurance really was the key! Finally reach the checkpoint for topup... SHOCK! The stupid station was jammed! No choice endure further until I refuelled my baby!

From Machap back to Sg was more of a breeze.... full speed ahead...... There was a commotion thought at the SG custom. At 1st I thought our group had some argument. Later I found out that it was because of some JACKASS malaysian cutting queue that sparked the fire. Not only our group was fedup thought. There were so many Sg riders from Sepang.... all crowded around. Haahha If only something happened! hahahhah That'll be quite a scene!

An experience! Not to be forgotten.

Letting Go

2005-09-23T01:17:00.000+08:00

:: Letting go ::

There is only one person in this world that can make you feel lousy, depressed, sad, angry...etc. The person is YOU.

Sooner or later, everyone you know will disappoint you in some way. They'll say something or fail to say something that will hurt you. And they'll do something or fail to do something that will anger you. It's inevitable.

Unfortunately, you make things worse when you stew over someone's words and deeds. When you dwell on a rude remark or an insensitive action made by another person, you're headed for deeper problems.

In fact, the more you dwell on these things, the more bitter you'll get. You'll find your joy, peace and happiness slipping away. And you'll find your productivity slowing down as you spend more and more time thinking about the slight or telling others about it.

Eventually, if you don't stop doing it, you'll even get sick.

So what should you do the next time someone betrays you? Take responsibility for your feelings. Even though the other person may be at fault, even though the other person wronged you, you are still responsible for your own feelings.

In other words, other people do not "cause" your feelings. You choose them.

Bottomline. Its always boils down to the choices that you make.

2005-09-20T14:40:00.000+08:00

是你故意欺骗
怪在我太过心软
你的真话就等于梦呓与谎言
无奈你说得太自然
令我听了也能热暖
甜言蜜语原来又一次食言
是你对我改变
你别说世界转变
解释得混乱
千丝万段
太多纠缠
谁没兴致守这诺言
但却对我再全心诈骗
胡言乱语
任你讲足半天
为何永远放不低
为何错爱这一位
但求仍然维系
不惜一切
我为你执迷
任情爱控制身体
任谁关心
仍未可把你代替
是明知的
仍愿将心意白费

Who am I???

2005-09-14T18:13:00.000+08:00

Who am I???
Hahahahahahahaha Bastard? Backstabber? Liar? Whiner? Wanker? (if u use in terms of US cockney = one who jerks himself off..... UK which means IDIOT... whichever one dont care don bother, to me its the same) Thanks for all those who given me comments to improve myself. Of the things I've done, 我问心无愧！I can sleep well at night. Knowing my conscious is clear. I am not worried that I have repercussions after that.

What is a man in general? Rather should rephrase it a MALE in general. What is the trait of a Male? What should he be or do? Can anyone tell me? Give me the table of points that you can list out.... let me know.

Nothing I did was right. Hahahhahahahah what a big joke.... nothing at all....... It only pisses people off. I shall take my leave.....

My utmost apologies to those who were ticked off, mauled, sacrificed, insulted, made used of etc......... by me...

Thanks to those who trusted, supported, cared for me all these time.... I've disappointed all of you.

NO worries no more.. cos I will not be around anymore.......

Jus another weekend of ups and downs

2005-09-13T09:35:00.000+08:00

Finally.. .after so long.. SRF T-shirt launched! Got it last fri. Cute logo.... but the size was a bit too BIG i would say.... almost 1 size bigger than normal T-shirt. The most bo liao part was.... going all the way to Sun plaza ... ate KFC ... then going to KKFC ... hahaha really bo liao.. but visiting the place for her was.... memorable. Oh well... history...

Sat! Hmmmm. At 1st, planning of swimming, tanning..... then when u least expected! It started to rain bigtime. What a waste! jus moments before it was bright and sunny.... Lifes is exactly like the weather.. U don know what's gonna happen next! Ended up at my place for Fantastic 4. Hahahah another comic book show.. Its downloaded and I must say the quality is good! As soon as the rain simmered, we rushed to the pool. At the entrance, we were awed by the crowd! How amazing! There were so many people at the pool even though it was raining! Duh! The swim session ended with disappointment. The evening was more dramatic where da lady obviously had something disturbing her. Nothing arouses her tastebutts' interest Ended up going to the clubhouse.... Cold...... Cold highway..... motionless metal cages zooming pass one by one.... suddenly I see her cry.... admist the busy traffic, i see her tearing under those visors. My silence was the best comfort for her for she needs to let it out..... pent-up frustrations, pressures, everything from what she is going thru..... given if I was her, i guess similar reactions as well. Nothing much after that except watching DVD and also the repeat telecast of the PROJECT SUPERSTAR FINALS. Before hitting the bed.... received a rather sad sms....... of which I donno what to reply....except for staring at the phone... reading the past sweet sms logs. Guess good times are only meant as memories. Period!

Sun....... Woken up by my hairstylist! 9am..... OMG.... its like i slept at 4am.... anyway..... He manage to insert a slot for me... rather.... her to color her hair.... Good news... I believe when gals are down... going shopping or haircut or whatever...... will soothen their emotions and thoughts as well... Guess that this session definitely will help... .cos she has been thinking for sometime to get rid of her old rusty half tone color..... Glad that my lobang can make her day much "brighter". At 1st, 2 colors were intro-ed. Half way through we were told 4 colors were mixed .... really bold of him to experiment it. ( Does it meant more $$?) Anyway the whole session was ..... not that long.... took so many pictures of the process..... vid clips and pics.. hahahha very farny...
At the end of the session, Wow! The base color is really NEAT... along with diff shades that is embedded within that show when the hair is flicked. COOL! At the counter.. he took out calculater and started punching the keys away.... I was quite worried that he add on $$ which e price he 1st promised me.... halfway punching the keys, he turned and look at me... "Oei, how much i told u tat time ah......", "Oh ... its $XX", "Oh Ok... then thats it lor" WOWWWWW...... I was worried for that moment! hahahhaha imagine... 4 color tone for 2 digit price... I'm really thankful. He is no Joe on the street kinda hairdresser but celebrity level man! I'm really privileged to know him.. (Thanks to you. PING! Thanks a milion.... Guess u be rushing to meet him to give ya hair a fine treatment right.. its been a year) Oh well a little drama happened after we came out of his salon... Shhhhh... its our little secret... Seeing u brighten up after the session really brings relieve to the already tensioned atmosphere...

After that a little sushi to fill the stomach and off to Orchard !!!!! Supposingly meeting our fren for K-session.... (thought really timing off), she decided to get nail polish to match her hair color.. hahhah GALS WILL STILL BE GALS..... end up shopping.... Kaoz.... eating gelatine, Oh i must say its GOOD..... ended up... FULL... no dinner needed......hahah... with a new pair of low heel shoes with buckle front.

Evening is more of healthy lifestyle.. .Jogging! Mis-com ... hahahhaha ... duh.. but ended walked for long long time.... as cooling down regime... Nice.... Cool evening ... walking.... along beside you..

thought sessions like this not gonna be ................... but thanks.... hope there are chances again...

Unexpected

2005-09-10T03:36:00.000+08:00

Unexpected

Jus when u think..... all things are over.... guess again.... sometimes.... Things turn around... Farny... absolutely unexpected. Thanks for letting me spend time with you since after the quarrel...Thought that everythings over....but...the moments shared...... Guess the rule of the game needs to be explained to this BTC guy. Hahahhah... Now fully understood. Care, concern, whatever.......not a percent less..... Thoughts of unjust, fair verdict? hmmmmmmm....... Hahahha in life... nothing is fair...... YOU GOTTA FIGHT FOR IT.

Er.... the call from the VENDOR was quite.. interesting.... kinda sour feeling within though... but.... glad u told me bout it....... though i maybe no one to you... but glad u told me.... kinda giving me a bit of respect i guess....... hehehhe U know what your are doing absolutely.... hehhe... Ferrying you around running errands is my pleasure....as long as you are with me..... singing off key sitting behind me..... opsss... It sounds angelic in anyway that u project....... doing anything is fine.. even jus watching TV..... talking about the characters, the story board...... whatever at all.... Even helping on your research ....... (though almost all i do one lor... kaoz... hahhah) Company...... a word that explains everything... Thanks for having me around....part of your daily life.......my china doll( though DIY haircut a bit out but.... Kawaii nonetheless)! kekekekke

rem this song??? we sang before....... more practices before we hit the next KTV session... haahha
as long as u like... i can use flute or sax to play for you....... heehhe the lyrics is for you........

Interesting

2005-09-06T16:41:00.000+08:00

Journey!

2005-09-06T01:19:00.000+08:00

Journey.............

It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you

Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong

I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you

sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through

Cause It's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies

When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feel like everything is out to make me lose control
Coze it's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you...to you

盲侠的童话

2005-09-02T01:52:00.000+08:00

盲侠的童话

伟联你终于赢了。那一刹那当成绩揭晓的时候。我的眼泪以不由自主的流下来了。不过，我的眼泪不经事为你而流。就在成绩未解晓的几分钟前,我刚发现了原来我重来就不存在她的眼里。

伟联。。。恭喜你！！！！第一个绝对SUPERSTAR
奇迹是会出现的，有些人不相信。可是你就是一个例子。
这首歌就是你唱的。。。。。。刚好说出了我的心声。谢谢你

虽然只是简简单单一个测验，足以代表很多实事。我太执著了。哈哈哈哈。。。。。
主会让你看到设么是奇迹的。。。。相信我这最后一次。

2005-08-30T16:46:00.000+08:00

曲名：偏见歌手：梁咏琪

我手心的温度渐渐在离开
你口中的谎言慢慢能明白
早知求也求不回来
即使最后只剩残骸
心不会更改没有祝福我明白
看凋零的玫瑰在静静发呆
朋友对我责怪要我放得开
固执对我是种虐待
越爱得深越难抛开
爱是种偏见如果可以再重
来我明白爱情已经超载
爱的完全坏了姿态
你冷眼看待就像是种伤害
我好像站在无人山崖
全世界都抛在外
明知你不再回来
我早已明白

This song is to YOU...... U sang it, read it... ultimately understanding its meaning and doing it... is another issue....nonetheless....... I dedicate to you.....God Bless You abundantly.

Champion........ Loser????

2005-08-28T16:41:00.000+08:00

Champion!!!!! 4th in a row......Basketball... my best game!

It was a fierce battle.... left 2 teams only.. I went with heart that is broken. 6 men vs 10 men. How tiring is that..... This year is my last year in company.... Using my name as the Team name... The previous night before... I was so perturbed and disheartened.. I really didn't want to go at all. With me they might not win.. but without my will definitely lose.....I hate to disapoint people...... really really hate......

Into the game... I was hoping to recieve an sms, jus to boost my morale a bit... I know it will be only a dream for her to be there cheering for me. But jus an sms. NON.... hahahhaha I went ahead... telling God I hand everything to you.. I can't take the pressure and sadness. My mind was in a blank........ there was a moment that we trailed by 7 points... slowly ..... we caught up... level and even over took. In the final 32 secs..... foul to our favour 29-27. I got the pass and I jus instinctively went for the shot (as if I'm gonna slam) Wham.. it went in 31-27..... We WON!!!!!!
I did not expect the final game point to be scored by me..... sad to say the one I wanted to share the joy with ......... suddenly grew distanced away.

I rem .... in life being 1st... Champion is the thing... 2nd... is loser... failure.... whatever.....Who wants to be loser? Duh...... I got this Champion but so what...... Hahahahhahahaha

In the end ... it doesn't matter...... Irony ...... Fact.......

"If you love somebody, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were."

公道自在人心

2005-08-27T18:32:00.000+08:00

At 1st I wanted to put a song 那女孩对我说黄义达 but then again.. its so so sad..... utterly self-pitying.. Its like telling people "I am so poor thing, come pity me......." Duh...... Guess I'm not swooping to that kind of level.... asking for pity... OUCH .. .thats not me!

Recently been looking for this singer! So embarressed..... Standing at CD shop copying all the titles in the album... Oh I am such a pirate... .Muahhahaha.....(hope I don get sue for saying this)

张敬轩期待

*听完你说goodbye之后我自己掉眼泪自己那么用心
那么投入到底为了谁你总是说不必太过太过在乎谁
这样只会令自己越来越累
#每天醒来我都告诉自己要少爱你一点
好让离开那天自己可以好过一点
可是一天不见我就在夜里梦见你好几遍
醒来的时候才发现你已不在身边
@每一个女孩都期待能拥有爱能够被人爱不受伤害
我对你的爱我不明白何时变成了依赖每一个女孩都期待
能拥有爱 never say goodbye 不要再分开
i''ll never make you cry i''ll treat you right
feel the love close your eyes
(想让你明白对你的爱就像深深...大海)

"我有骗过你吗？"

除此之外

2005-08-26T02:25:00.000+08:00

除此之外

Stepping out of darkness..... Its the hardest thing to do when you encounter events that leave you scarred ..... for life! Difficult? Of course... Hard to swallow? Definitely. Indulging in the past is somewhat "enjoyable" for some of us. Been there done that... Why the world is so cruel? Why he/she treat me like that? Why..... thousands of why..... Ultimately....life goes on. Living in a world without color is really really sad. Being personally encountered BTDT(been there done that) kinda mentality. Its really the difference between a winner and a loser. Snap out of it, you win. Not able to.... Sorry to yourself, your life, and those who care and love you.

Though there are those who are around you may not be able to be there for life, they are there now.. this instant to help you pull through your darkest hour. Maybe some of them are your santuary for the moment....some are jus wannabes.. nonetheless they are here to help..... All jus wanting to give you a hand! Don't waste all their efforts..... They may not be even close to that of what you can't let go of, they are around to make your day brighter and livelier.

Rem this :

从远处望着你的影子，
看着哭泣的双眼，
背负着往事的重担，
心里有千万个不想放。
你伤心，我失眠，
你哭泣，我心酸。
原能帮你承当所有的怨恨与悲伤，
让你好好的熟枕。
玲，我就在不远处守候着你为你祈祷。

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

我只遇见你的现在
不管你接受或离开
i hope to stay for a while
除此之外要你明白
你的笑我真是喜欢看
于是我一次又一次等待
其实都还算愉快
除此之外非常遗憾
你的心我还是打不开
and if you need somebody
我确定我会在
不会走开

I'm 25 once again

2005-08-24T02:36:00.000+08:00

祝我生日快乐

Hehehhe Wish myself a Happy birthday.......
Wish that all those that I love will be granted what their heart desire......
Here's my Wishlist.....only that
all her wishes be granted........
White spot gone
Headache gone
Financial problems be ironed out and solved
and what her heart deeply desires.......... of course not me.... but the bai-ka......the one who swept her off her feet and now an armageddon that left her hanging.....

I guess that he is very much still up her mind... even though I maybe with her almost daily and helping & taking care of her in whatever that I can. My existance maybe oblivious to some but I am making my presense felt in lotsa ways. If there is really a wish that I may make for this Birthday of mine....... that is only grant what her heart desires...... God I thank u and AMEN!!!!

相爱不如相知
与其执着痴念
不如化为祝福
不要让你爱的人
被你的爱所磨蚀
反过来
以你的爱让他得到力量展翅高飞
假若真的有缘就算分隔两地心仍会在一起
真正爱一个人必定以他的幸福当作是你的幸福
若然有人能给予他更大的幸福你就把它送到那里去

At times, people need to re-evaluate about those around you. You really care for them? Love them? Or simply jus want to possess them like something u see off the shelf you like and u buy. Hmmm guess many people will keep their mind occupied for a while ba.....

SUPERSTAR!!! WEILIAN!!!! Kambate!

2005-08-23T02:29:00.000+08:00

This face.... is inspiration to many ... many SINGAPOREANS!!!!!!!

Front the 1st moment I see him... I had great admiration for him. Being blind doesn't mean anything. God is always fair.. He takes away something from you, he gives you other in return... In Kelvin's case... his voice!!! His ability to touch the hearts around him with his angelic voice! God really bless him..... I saw the preliminary and I was like.... If this stupid project superstar is really looking for someone who can sing.. HE IS DA MAN!!!!! true enough he went thru stages..... In the beginning ... .the public was debating if the program kept him in the game only to show that they are "goodwilled".... Facts proven otherwise..... He beaten other contastant to win the Guys Final.... the moment the results was announced.... Tears brimmed my eye..... I am really touched! Seriously.. He deserves to win..... More than his counter part! He, even as blind, took his steps around the stage.... waved on the audience in effort to move the crowd to his music.... He smilied as if he can see... move as if he can see...... Man...... how many people can do that even when they had the gift of SIGHT!!!!

Friends out there... Those who think that you are being in worst situation... .self indulgence in sadness.... This is a true hero that u can learn things from..... emerge in the mist of the singapore crowd.... a ROBINHOOD who sees nothing but darkness..... voices that shines in every aspect in life!!!!! Kelvin 陈伟联 ... He is already a legend... even though if he might lose in the final of the project superstar in INDOOR STADIUM... .he is already a SUPERBRIGHT COSMO in the small red dot in southeast asia... He is definitely not like William Hung like some people said... HE IS A SINGER.... Inspirational!!! Our very own Ray Charles & Stevie Wonder!!!!!

This entry is dedicated to those who never give up in their life.....despite whatever unfairness that might have been bestowed upon them..... Live their life to the fullest!!! Living BEYOND THEMSELVES..... God bless you all.....

Phones...... Cameras... .Action!!!!!!

2005-08-11T16:48:00.000+08:00

Recently, I've been quite amaze with pp keep taking self shots and trying to find the best view of whatever angles they look the best...... The solution.... A phone with good cam! Hmmmmm Interesting indeed... .and I automatically become 1 of the victim of being backdrop hahahaha... Oh well I look rather nice anyway.... surprise..... maybe cos the camera is so good that it hide all my "fine" details.. muahahhaha This entry will be dedicated to U! hehehhehe all bout u!!!! Telling the world how much u are in love with YOURSELF! ... glad to be part of it... even jus a bit only la... kekekekeke

Mirror mirror on da wall.. Who is the Chioest one of all... .er...... wrong Selfshot Queen

In Da Car

In Da Car once again with lights on

Look so nice...

Still in clinic.... Sick meh? Don look like leh

Ehh......... Confirm not sick... Look good together ah?

Babes on a blackbird!!!!

This is for you.. .dedicated!!!! hehehehe and being there for you maybe until now has become a habit. I jus wanna let u know........ I maybe not be the richest nor most handsome guy........ The only thing I have is jus a heart....... true and sincere....

当你孤单你会想起谁

2005-08-01T13:45:00.000+08:00

Except for feeling of tiredness... other than that I'm quite fine actually.. Hahahhaha.... Life has been quite......... how should I put it...... GP style.... Skidded on a road that I've taken a couple of times... Only this time I was dreaming..... then went up slope.... Totally outta nothing. Have to fork out a repair cost! Wonder why am I so clumsy....

Being butler and BSBH (Bao Shua Bao Hai -- in hokkien) quite used to it already.... Oh well I've been doing that for years already... nothing new to me anyway.. Hahahahha I am a man of 三便
方便 (convenient) 顺便 (on the way)随便 (easy going/no preference)..... So many years I've been such a character. Be it towards all my friends....especially my loved ones (also to those gals that I like as well opss). Whether they take me for granted ... I have no complains....... Why方便 ? I always 随传随到 ... irregardless of time and place..... even before the time i had my bike..... Maybe some of them know what I am saying bout...顺便 in a way that I will make my way out for them when help or favour is needed and I always pretend to say its jus 顺便 its ok .. even though many a times risk of getting my job affected or even personal health or safety at risk. 随便 ...This is my character I guess. Anything also can.... easy going ... another word would be soft hearted. Too good .. to a point that I'm being trampled all over.. I still ok ... .smile...... kill me if u can that kinda attitude..... Many of my buddies say I'm stupid. Sometimes I really feel I am..... How can anyone tolerate your girl friend this or that.... or even those I am courting. Hahahhahaa tolerence has peak to scale...... mine is like the ocean...... Only to drain me out totally.

Recently so many things happened in the group..... Namely R/S problems ......... I don't wanna elaborate much...... Bottom line.. Know what you want and what you are doing..... Things alwasy happen for a reason..... Time is your friend to let you realise soon enough what it meant for such things to happen. Swallowing it or accepting the fact... You have not choice at all..... Why not take it happily? Live and let live...... The most difficult part is ........... the person is not accepting the truth! ....... Its not like you are being lead on nor misleaded in anyway! Simple direct blast in the face will do more good? Some find it cruel!

Talking about the part about misleading.... this is interesting........ Its so subtle...... full of pun! Sometimes when apply correctly... its white lies... hidding the truth to prevent other party from getting hurt........ wrongly...... TOTAL Armageddon. Lifes affected ...... complications...... This word has been with me for how many years already... hahahha Kinda numb towards its evergoing whispering around my ears...... Truth is that I have conquered it. Knowing the truth and walking through it is my challenge...... still is and I guess will always be...... Many might not be able to take it but.. .I took it, I am still taking it... and I WILL ALWAYS BE RESILIENT to it. I guess some people will aways falls for the oldest trick in the book.......hahahahahahah... seeing it happening all the time tickles my bones and grins with empathy! God bless you.....

Extracted from my fren..... its nice.. .it only the truth i guess.....
"Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get, it's what you are expected to give -- which is everything."
ps.... i believe love can conquer everything.........

The path..... continues......

2005-07-19T19:25:00.000+08:00

Continuing the short story previously.......

The paths are clear..... choices are difficult. Previous encounter with a road less taken has left her scarred. Haunted by nitemares and recurring images of unpleasant events are not easy pill to swallow. Be it anyone. Let alone a young damsel of such. Time will heal wounds indefinitely. And only time will have the power to let a person change, open up once again. There is an chines old saying... 时间能充当一切... literally means time will wash away everything. At the moment.... the lass will only wonder..... standing by the crossroad.... Maybe some day she might wanna try taking the route once again.....

The road will always be there....... waiting to be taken....... promising and bright..... covered with flowers and greenery. Only if u believe that it will happen.........nonetheless...... waiting........ patiently..........

2005-07-18T14:45:00.000+08:00

落花有意，流水无情，百份心思，付出东水，无影无行，心该何赴

Recently... been ups and downs....... Am I too crazy? or obsessed? or jus plain ........ 笨？我不是笨，我是有福!!! Hahahaha.. Then again.... Affairs of the heart has never been easy on me. Hahahahha Fate? Destiny? Ouch! It hurts. Rather see a bit of glow at the end of the tunnel..... somehow.. hahahha. What kinda glow is it? Hmmmmmm........ Indication of Good? Bad? No one knows.

Butler : The butler is a senior servant in a large household. Usually the butler is the most senior staff member, although in the great houses of the past, the household was sometimes divided into departments with the butler in charge of the dining room (including the wine cellar) and pantry, and sometimes the entire parlour floor, and a housekeeper who was in charge of the whole house and its appearance.

Hmmmm This is term given to me recently. Am I suppose to be happy with that? Hahahahha.... Oh well....... that instance I felt ....... destiny is such. My life is such.... Hahahaha no need to question anymore. Its been fixed. Butler ...... to all.. just a personal servant. Or maybe can be referred as nanny to the Artist. Taking care of all their day to day needs.
Though it may appear to be as such. I am not GIVING up just yet.. hahahhahh ... maybe this is the main diff between then me ... and the now me! hahahha.

Self delusion and self pitying do not get you anywhere! YES ABSOLUTELY NIL. These little demons has tried to make friends with me previously. For a while I was misled. Now .... Freed! Freed! hahahahhaha those people who are still oblivious to it and still need professional help. Thats pretty sad! I pray for you out there! GOD BLESS YOU.

Had a makan outing Yesterday.... rather.. almost out everyday.. hahahahha.... Yesterday was quite funny cos I was being commented as a Daddy carrying all the milk powder and stuff. Hahahha. 1st time i carry a bag out walking in Orchard Road... since how long ago. Hahahaha. Walking alone was nice. Viewing all the under my Red Cyclops Glasses. Eh.. some people say its so obvious its me. Hahahhaha. I find its quite nice hidding under those shades cos unless those who knows me. Others jus a big head in red shades. Ok enough crapping bout me. From Orchard we moved to ECP for makan. Was quite a killer.. looking for tables..... Organiser had a good timing of 8pm on a sunday.. FAMILY DAY. Oh well still got a feast nonetheless. Whole table of HEATY FOOD. OMG. Quite a number of us is sick with sorethroat and coughs... Still...*shakesheads*

The fun part is ...... after long long arguing bout whats next... we ended up at the clubhouse for a "short stint" of MJ once again. I think it was the best game we had ... not bout the winning or losing part. It was the atmosphere. Gossiping and jokes...... of everything ... hahahha. I guess I am for the last 2nd leg.... hahahah stuck for so long.. hahahahha My laughter was........ uncontrollable.. I am truely sorry.. HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAH.. ops
This kinda session is definitely what most of us are looking for I guess..... sorry for making student and interviewee for staying so late.. hahahah

我不能只是做你的朋友，不能只是做普通朋友，我要的不只是做你的普通朋友

Patience vs Persistence 耐心与恒心

2005-07-11T23:27:00.000+08:00

Patience : -
The act or power of calmly or contentedly waiting for something due or hoped for; forbearance.

Persistence:-
continuity: the property of a continuous and connected period of time
perseverance: the act of persisting or persevering; continuing or repeating behavior; "his perseveration continued to the point where it was no longer appropriate

Today we take some time off to attend English Lesson! Students. Lets see what is the difference between this 2 words. Both might have similar meanings. As in the time involved. The subtle pun that exhumes from within means worlds apart. Which one Category you belong to? Hmmmmm..... I wonder really wonder which one do YOU... yes YOU belong to. I can definitely say I am to the 1st rather than latter. Wonder those who know me agree to this.. or am I too thickskinned! Maybe most of you might think otherwise. I really would really really wanna be the 1st one. Cos being the 2nd one might turn on off! U might be very persistant but the receiving party just accept blindly......clueless of what is the end result that you hope for.... end up will be just like the quote "his perseveration continued to the point where it was no longer appropriate" .... I think this is the worst thing that can actually happen to anyone. Previously I will rather think I am such. Now...... after much thoughts. Guess its stupid. Business point of view.... Reap no gains........... physique point of view..... TIRED.... Much less to say about emotional point of view... Sad, Pathetic! GET A LIFE MAN!!! hahahahha. BTDT! Period!

Recently, I've had a feeling... So familiar.....so close.. yet so hurting...... The word is .... EXTRA.... hahahahhaha...... .Its not easy being in a competition feel lost......not knowing when does the route end. There is an old chinese saying.... "鱼与熊掌，两者间施" ... simple english..... Fish I want.... Bear Palm I also want. I wonder which one am I anyway.. .Definitely not the bear palm I guess.. .Hahahahh ...... Financially not that sound! Experience in life... hahahahahha not as comparable!

Been trying myself in showing whatever side of me that is worthy. Wonder how long can my recent trained body can take. You are sick. I am worried. So much of nagging make me feel so old. U are so so so stubborn. I only can give in (cos whatever I say U are not gonna listen) and let u do what you want. The aftermath can only be salvaged by being there taking care of you. I will not drop ........ cos I have to be there. I just can't.

不管有多苦,
我会全心全力
爱你到底
当你看进我的眼里
我的心颤抖不已
请让温柔的说一句感觉累的时候让我抱紧
是你让我看透生命这东西四个字坚持到底

问世间情为何物。。。。。。。。

2005-07-09T04:20:00.000+08:00

爱一个人真的那么难吗？努力证明自己的价值，自己的纯在。如果我能，我愿是那片大海天空，能让你在失落的时候看着我发呆。我愿是那时间，转回头让你把一切的污点漂白。

感谢这一天的温暖，午餐，逛街。陪伴在你身旁给与意见让你更加认识我。无声的语言更加处近比此间的默契。虽然浪费了那一刹那的试影，看到你那灿烂的笑容，仿佛把所有的怨气与烦躁都抹掉。几个时辰的单独相处是我这些日子以来最开心与向往的。谢谢你的温柔。。。

爱玲我好爱你
是声愿事与愿
永不我永情谁
恒息宁传感扛
，，，，，。

Love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does. Love is a battle, love is a war; love is a growing up

Holiday Ended

2005-07-07T12:49:00.000+08:00

Sian.... Completely Sian. Plant shutdown ended. It marks an end of something. Something much more subtle then just starting to work once again. Its July already. Time i drawing nearer and nearer to my decision to get my degree cracking. Hehehhehe. Pondering of changing job to entirely new field. Besides that, hopes to change of a new bike!!!!!! But I wonder what are my chances. Hope alls well ends well.

I'm definitely crazy recently. Everything seemed oblivious to me except for one. The only one that takes my breath away and all my attention. My everything. Wonder really its my fate that I've gotta go throught them same crap....... 5 yrs.... 5 weeks........and now...... all same..... My fate? NO!!!!!! I'm not gonna let past experience haunt me! It has already been but shadows of the past! Lessons learnt! Time to move on. Destiny in helping people yes! Resigning to fate to whatever that has happened ???? NO... defnitely no....

I am not the boy I once was . I'm a man Now!

Mark my words. Be it sane or insane. Challenges lies ahead.

Tanning @ the Pool! Me and Irene

Bday, Pictures........ Ironies

2005-07-03T05:48:00.000+08:00

Elaine' Bday. At Ah babe's (Alvin's House)

Nice pic eh?

Happy bday Ah Babe Sao aka Elaine! Heheheh Makan on da house. Recently these group of frens are my closest click I guess......

Hmmmmm....... .so many many stories read, so many many life ones happening around us. Many of us have grown up watching serials and soap operas. Endless repetition of similar tragic situations......love, hate, 3rd party, whatever ....... Growing up thinking all these only happens in shows..... NOT real life.... OUCH!!! Get real man. Who are the ones writing all these?...... where are their inspirations? Real Life situations! Never have I even thought of similar storyline will happen to me. Hahahaha...... but when it does, its really hard ...... hard ........ hard..... hurts...... hurts ........ hurst....... Oh well. Never fall, never learn. How many times must 1 be hurt continuosly to the point that he/she totally give up on everything? Hmmmm. Some time maybe just once is enough, sometimes countless... hahahha.....

Learnt very important lessons these few years....smiles can bring wonders. Its can maybe you more relief, make your friends feel that you are better. Abeit the thruth, underneath the skin is pure .... pure sadness...... Its often said. The one who laugh most, is the sadest of them all. One of my friends did make a remarks 2 nights ago. He said, this group now has couple of super low people around.... Msn chatting with them almost got him jump off his unit. Hahahahahha..... True... true.....I was one of the few who was in the consoling party for him. Now..... now... hahahahha ......... hahahhahaha

落花有意随流水，流水无意恋落花

记得最近听人对我说过; 命里有时终需有，命里无时莫强求。
开始我觉得是出自一翻好意，过了些日子，我晃然大悟。
原来最近所发生的是竟如此的藏在话中话。。可能嘲笑，可能提醒。。。
成功与失败只在一线中。。。。争取每分每秒。。。拼了命也要证明。。。敢去爱，敢去拼。。时间才能告诉我是否我是真心，或假意。我是不会这样就输了。

For the stories earlier.... Pls..... wait for further publishing....... Hahahahhaha

Casted Away... Decisions

2005-06-29T02:24:00.000+08:00

Hmmmmm how I wish now that I am just like TOM HANKS in cast away... Wonder what will i call the Ball.... Wilson???? Hahahahha....... Lost..... emotionally. But I'm not going to be like last time. Indulge in self pitying... For what? Stand up...... try new ways to face the challenge!!! Life is short...... self pity doesn't get you anywhere. Definitely nowhere near to SUCCESS in anything!

Hmmmmmm

"Regret for the things we did can be tempered by time;it is regret for the things we did not do that is inconsolable."

Guess This is a meaningful ...... quite apt quote for me. I used to be totally opposite. Now. Its a time for change! Hahahahha....... I thank those who were involved in shaping me into my current mentality. If not for them, I would still be the loser and pessimist before. It wasn't easy coming out of it. Believe me. I was shit. Loser to the core. Now........ its more like the stout beer advertisement. "They can do it, why not you?"

Here's one short story... interesting.......

.............She had no clear decisions of what lies ahead of her. Two paths that look similar. One has obvious road signs showing where its leading to, another non. Drawing nearer and nearer to the cross road. Corner of her eye spotted another path. One which seemed so familiar somehow. As if she had taken it b4. Decisions. The most difficult intricate process in a human and complicated chain reaction that it might generate. Mind being clouded and confused at the moment, show hesitation and confusion. What lies ahead, definitely something to behold.....

Stay tuned folks.

从不知她的痛苦

2005-06-23T03:36:00.000+08:00

喜欢你那双眼动人
笑声更迷人
愿再可轻抚你
那可爱面容
挽手说梦话
像昨天你共我

...........

sudden rush of feelings... just like to pen it down.. so many unhappy things happening around me all da time. WTF man.. Life ain't sark at all.... I've learn to let go and tell myself. I am here to make people around me happy and joyful. If that is the only destiny .... so be it. No want more sadness.... NO MORE. As long as there are laughter and smile around me .... on those who i know and care and love..... even if it costs my life. Its worth every little effort ....... God is love .... share the joy and hope and love!!!!

My friends. U have my heart with you all the time!

Beyond...................

2005-06-21T03:54:00.000+08:00

They were my fav all time fav band!!!! During the heydays when Jiaju was still around...... They were my inspiration. Where has it all gone to....Their motto was.... live beyond yourself! Live your life to the fullest! I lost that long time ago. Time to pick it up once again. He is gone.. His spirit never will.

I was told I am to lead....... Now shall slowly fulfil my destiny! Hehehe I sound so arrogant! Wrong.... Its confident! God will always be with me. I know . I felt HIM. HE was with me at my lowest point in life. My accident. My illness. I knew HE was with me...

Opss too much of .......

Anyway my point is...... Live beyond yourself! Ain't complicated at all. Cos the most dreadful enemy is always yourself. 要招越自己，Beyond 自己

Beyond......

ps.. happy birthday... to you know who.....

Things come things go.....

2005-06-20T03:13:00.000+08:00

我愿用我有限的永远交换曾经快乐的泪水
穿越不安地带
穿越所有危险
来到你身边

*我有时相信美丽
的预言
却又不想如此
心甘情愿
直到你的出现
才了解这一切
因为你而改变

you make me want to fall in love
就在这一刻
oh~
也不管明天会如何
只要今生有你左右
陪着我不再寂寞
you make me want to fall in love
就在这一刻
oh~
瞬间也可以是永恒
只要每个寂寞时候
爱的回忆留在我心中

"All your life you are told the things you cannot do. All your life they will say you're not good enough or strong enough or talented enough; they will say you're the wrong height or the wrong weight or the wrong type to play this or be this or achieve this. THEY WILL TELL YOU NO, a thousand times no, until all the no's become meaningless. All your life they will tell you no, quite firmly and very quickly.AND YOU WILL TELL THEM YES."

As Promised my Blood Group (A) analysis

Behavior =
Be very careful about decision making
Make things clear in black & white
Care too much about social rules a& standard

Tolerance =
High tolerance regardless of physical or repetitious work
Can't take frequent changes easily
Can easily lose interest in their hobby

How do they see their future & past? =
They must try very hard to forget about their past
They are pessimistic about their future

How d othey express their emotion? =
They are ablt to display a cool outlook even when they are angry
They are actually quite short-tempered
They need a longer time to heal a broken heart
They are too sensitive towards other 's opinions.

How do they work? =
They are perfectionist
They handle one thing at a time
They draw line between work and personal affairs
They are highly responsible people
When they choose a hobby, they tend to choose one that will relieve stress.

Alls well ends well

2005-06-18T05:37:00.000+08:00

17th June 2005... This date marks the end of an attachment era for some people.... a group of students to be precise. Though their stay in Delphi was only a brief 6 months...... the memories etched into my heart and mind is as deep as the century old tree...... Root that runs deep. For some peepz...... chancing upon people in their life might only be passing phases... come and go... just like everyday you boarding MRT or SBS BUSes. For some... they leave marks that will always let your heart twitch when u hear certain songs ... or go to certain places.....Kinda remind u of stuff....

I've been .... time and again..... trained and trained until the point the heart is quite..... HARD!!!
These few days... I just thought ....... rather feel... .i dono.....Don want to face the fact that 17th is coming..... And Fri itself...... which was a couple of hours earlier.... I dare not face it. I stayed at home... Did not turn up for work. I don wish to face another episode of goodbyes... I hate good byes..... So big a guy... so fragile a heart! Last Nov..... this Mar.... then Apr.... I've had quite enough of that.....

I wonder.... if I'll really open myself up again...... HAHAHAA biggest joke man .... My life is a big joke.... to date...... maybe can write my own memoir!!!! Ya rite.... as if! Duh....

I've read something about .... characterizing by Blood group couple of days back.. Much like those stuff of zodiac and stuff. But i find its very accurate...... at leats most of it is correct for me. For eg... take a long time to forget the past R/S ..... pessimisstic about future..... blah blah... shall update the actual table of classification on the next entry...(cos i left it in office).....

Right now ... I am in company of my sweet collegues and frens... One might thing i be fooling around... but.. actual fact all are my Jiemei.. Cos they don feel like I am a guy... or rather harmless around them.... I feeling more and more "GU NIANG" already... donno how.. the nail polish.... the poses....shopping.... oh whatever... Why not be a trans... hahahha I think i too fat and big size for one anyway.. hahahah Stick to being a sucker! Faithful to all sincere to all... then ganna makan all the way..... I think I am too soft... too aggreeable....too self giving.... Not wanting to hold back once i think that something is worth my concern or attention. Damn it.... I am weak.. I am fricking WEAK.. .God bless me!

Now this song is for those who treasured the past sweet memories just like me.... and not ( DO NOT...absolutely not to) over indulge in living in the past. Cos we only live once..... eyes are being grown in front for a reason.. and its to look ahead! hahahaha

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时光一逝永不回
往事只能回味
忆童年时竹马青梅
两小无猜日夜相随
春风又吹红了花蕊
你已经也添了新岁
你就要变心
像时光难倒回
我只有在梦里想依偎

Clubbing!!!!

2005-06-15T02:14:00.000+08:00

Steady pun pi pi... Last sat (11 Jun 05) was fun. But hurting nonetheless. Heheheh weird combination right.. hahahahah.

Its was a meeting of biking frens. Total turnout was bout 11 heads. 2 bottles of I donno what hard liquior. I was late for bout 1 hour... reaching 11pm. 1st bottle finish already. I was like... WTF ... you guys crazy? .... Anyway. It was crazy... Drinking happily and dance! Yes ... DANCE... my fav part of the clubbing regime. There we were dancing halfway when a ANG MO decided to cut in and do a lambada with Fel. Fel is a petite little chilli while that ANG MO is like half a head taller than me... He was like engulfing her in the dance.... an alien trying to devour its pray... OMG.. its was crazy.... and we were like standing there helplessly enjoying the whole process. Had club with her a few times and all that time, there were bound to be episodes. Hahahahah FUN!

After that I heard some farny stuff and i just slipped and hit my head against the concrete....... Oblivious to the surrounding cos of the alcohol making me slowmo-. Haven't been that happy since a long time. The exchange for that was headache and a bad "orh cheh" until now .... even wearing helmet was quite a chore for me .... TMD ..... damn it. Still rem someone offered to help me rub... but... its ok.. I've learnt that promises are meant to be broken... ahahhaha so I've been immune to whatever people says or promises. I only know i will do my bit for whatever I say. Do not promise anymore.

I think i am really getting too old . My fav song came out... only thing i can do is wriggle and shout... cant dance like i used to be...rather my partners were not around to synchro movements. God I missed those days. ..... nicely choreographed movements !!! woot... feels like a boy band group that time.. muahahhahaha

Anyway... we had a super super lobster with us.... and she ain't even drinking.. hahahahh ..It was cos of her joke that i landed in my BIG headed state. Hmmph...anyway my head is already big so .... lamer....

After that we had our supper ... with the almost gone BEARY! hahahahha Kinda fun poking fun and "suanning" sessions...... I wish i was 10 years younger. Sometimes.... you just wish time will turn around and you can walk those paths that you've taken.... with a better set of thinkign and aim..... Hmmm ok ok rather 5 years should be enough.... 10 years is too much.. hhah God if only that wish can be granted!

Tuesday..... which was yesterday..... The group of IA students presented their project to our director. It was their last stint here in Delphi. Wish them all the best. One of them came up to me asking me to help them take photos. (how irony-my skill is so so .... but keep on ganna camera man all the time) It was fun ...... mixed feelings...... ehhh...... fun...... sad...... whatever.. hahahah .... End of this week. Their attachment will end. Good luck for whatever their future beholds. After this, polishing units in the lab will never be the same again. Hahahahha.....

Sadness

2005-06-10T18:08:00.000+08:00

Why is there such thing as sadness exist? If only there are only happiness that dominate the whole of Earth realm. Seeing and feeling sadness waltzing thru the mist amongst our pathetic souls really make us down and out. If there is one wish... one wish us all. I rather there be no sadness at all. Seriously. Only happiness ...... that lingers to the very last drop......

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无言到面前
与君分杯水
清中有浓意
流出心底醉
不论冤或缘
默说蝴蝶梦
还你此生此世
今世前世双双飞
过万世千生去
～不论冤或缘

Food for thoughts

2005-06-09T16:18:00.000+08:00

Hmmm i feel like ...... sad once again... donno why.. just suddenly i guess..... depression mode on... life.. what is life??? Love? what is love???

Its times like that when u feel sucky..... oh whatever words u can think off... hahah

A New Lease Of Life

2005-06-09T03:33:00.000+08:00

It has been wonderful blogging.... yakking to myself.... What's life? Kinda lost at the moment. Hoping that everything will fall in place once....... I get a new job. Non engineering!!!! Hehehehe kinda sick and tired of it. Though I felt should have been gone 2 yrs ago... here I am still loafing around. Ogling at IA students and seeing old staff go, new staff come..... thinking to myself... I should be the one giving chocolates already.....

Recent episodes of sunset bay proven fruitful.... in terms of tanning!!! Hehehehe.. got a bit of shades that I never had... Oh I'm in love with my body....-_- minus the fats...Urgh!!!! Hope my future is as interesting and arresting as my new LOOK here... hehehe.... The last one was good.... very good.... BUT I STILL HAVE TO MOVE AHEAD.... " I like to move it move it..... we like to...... MOVE IT"

I like to move it move it

Whats wrong with our Dear Yoda? Dark side of the forces, he was tempted... Slightly.. but definitely.......

2005-06-06T17:52:00.000+08:00

Dream Bike!!!!!!

This is definitely one bike that keep my blood speeding in my vein!!! VFR... Sports tourer! now with Vtec.... V4 engine... it Roars and is steady and is fast! AFter much consideration. I have to say bye bye to it. Its expensive .... 24K .OMG...... for a 800CC bike only.... Paying 1000CC bike insurance and roadtax ..... for 800cc bike.... definitely a no no... Unless i really crave for it.... not now i guess.... a new blackbird CBR1100xx is only 20K ..... hmmmm Class 2 ... after getting it whats the use.... Can I change bike? Can i get a new job? heeheh God this is difficult. Help me!!! ARghhhhh....

Tiring Week end... heheheh

2005-06-06T02:07:00.000+08:00

Been very tired recently. Must have been the late nite.... and i mean REAL LATE... rather morning!!! Sleeping almost 6am weekend.... OMG.... Life.......If it like that?

Now its 2am.... Monday morning.... Hope can get my 2nd interview.... ASAP.. am sick of playing the waiting game. It was like a chattin and catching up session with the Engineer... Cos he was former from my company.. hahahhaha Not much questions asked. I wonder what he is thinking. I want that job. Its really what I am looking for... GOD HELP ME if u think this is meant for me! Amen!!!!!!!!!!!!
Will carry on searching for new jobs. Can't pin all hopes on one.... Think this applies to everything in life. What if the one and only thing that you give all hopes to... lets u down........... It will be DOOMS day for anybody i guess. I want long break again. Long long break... hahahah ...... There is only 1 thing, 1 person that anybody can rest their heart with.. thats GOD! For HE is TODAY, tommorrow and forever!

Facing the unforeseen future alone might be scary at times. There are moments that one wish for someone to walk the path together. Its a gamble!!! Hahahahha ultimate gamble. For now, being alone is the best.

Sat has been a Sunset Bay day for me for the past 3 weeks. Babes watching and suntanning!!! Woot... this is something that can be get used to!!! The disappointing thing is that I cannot get anymore tanned! "White Chopped Chicken"... This session showed something extra! A band festival! OMG i miss being in a millitary band! THere were at least 10 bands marching or rather boggeying down sunset bay playing songs from Mickey Mouse to standard marching pieces... Cool man... All wearing Hawaii prints.... Sad to see my alma mater was not there..... sobs.

Its another week coming up....wondering what holds for me to attend to this week. Hopefully more job. I do not know how to fill up my forecast for the coming evaluation of job performance. Definitely have to get out of this company ASAP. If they were still stable, I might consider staying another 2 years.... to get my degree.. But I guessed I have wasted enough of my youth and times here. I should have left 2 years ago. So many things happened.... heart shattered, deeply hurt. Opps. Thou shall not indulge in that again.. .EVER!

*hums=> always look at the bright side of life.....whistle...........*

I am really beginning to wonder... am I cracking up or something.... getting more and more used to talking to myself. Hahahahahhahahah.... Funny....

Sign off for now dear bloggy!

Tiredness!!!

2005-06-02T17:32:00.000+08:00

These few days. I feel so tired!! Wonder why ..... wonder why.... Not eating too much, been exercising regularly. Not thinking a lot..... letting things go thorougly! Oh well... Life.... hahahah Counting down to the hours and mins to my big big occasion.. Wish me Luck... whoever thats out there..... hehehehehe I need it.

~~Beyond = Peace and Love~~