Wednesday, June 29, 2005
Hmmmmm how I wish now that I am just like TOM HANKS in cast away... Wonder what will i call the Ball.... Wilson???? Hahahahha....... Lost..... emotionally. But I'm not going to be like last time. Indulge in self pitying... For what? Stand up...... try new ways to face the challenge!!! Life is short...... self pity doesn't get you anywhere. Definitely nowhere near to SUCCESS in anything!
Hmmmmmm
"Regret for the things we did can be tempered by time;it is regret for the things we did not do that is inconsolable."
Guess This is a meaningful ...... quite apt quote for me. I used to be totally opposite. Now. Its a time for change! Hahahahha....... I thank those who were involved in shaping me into my current mentality. If not for them, I would still be the loser and pessimist before. It wasn't easy coming out of it. Believe me. I was shit. Loser to the core. Now........ its more like the stout beer advertisement. "
They can do it, why not you?"Here's one short story... interesting.......
.............She had no clear decisions of what lies ahead of her. Two paths that look similar. One has obvious road signs showing where its leading to, another non. Drawing nearer and nearer to the cross road. Corner of her eye spotted another path. One which seemed so familiar somehow. As if she had taken it b4. Decisions. The most difficult intricate process in a human and complicated chain reaction that it might generate. Mind being clouded and confused at the moment, show hesitation and confusion. What lies ahead, definitely something to behold.....
Stay tuned folks.
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Thursday, June 23, 2005
喜欢你那双眼动人
笑声更迷人
愿再可轻抚你
那可爱面容
挽手说梦话
像昨天你共我
...........
sudden rush of feelings... just like to pen it down.. so many unhappy things happening around me all da time. WTF man.. Life ain't sark at all.... I've learn to let go and tell myself. I am here to make people around me happy and joyful. If that is the only destiny .... so be it. No want more sadness.... NO MORE. As long as there are laughter and smile around me .... on those who i know and care and love..... even if it costs my life. Its worth every little effort ....... God is love .... share the joy and hope and love!!!!
My friends. U have my heart with you all the time!
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Tuesday, June 21, 2005
They were my fav all time fav band!!!! During the heydays when Jiaju was still around...... They were my inspiration. Where has it all gone to....Their motto was.... live beyond yourself! Live your life to the fullest! I lost that long time ago. Time to pick it up once again. He is gone.. His spirit never will.
I was told I am to lead....... Now shall slowly fulfil my destiny! Hehehe I sound so arrogant! Wrong.... Its confident! God will always be with me. I know . I felt HIM. HE was with me at my lowest point in life. My accident. My illness. I knew HE was with me...
Opss too much of .......
Anyway my point is...... Live beyond yourself! Ain't complicated at all. Cos the most dreadful enemy is always yourself.
要招越自己，
Beyond 自己
Beyond......
ps.. happy birthday... to you know who.....
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Monday, June 20, 2005
我愿用我有限的永远交换曾经快乐的泪水
穿越不安地带
穿越所有危险
来到你身边
*我有时相信美丽
的预言
却又不想如此
心甘情愿
直到你的出现
才了解这一切
因为你而改变
you make me want to fall in love
就在这一刻
oh~
也不管明天会如何
只要今生有你左右
陪着我不再寂寞
you make me want to fall in love
就在这一刻
oh~
瞬间也可以是永恒
只要每个寂寞时候
爱的回忆留在我心中
"All your life you are told the things you cannot do. All your life they will say you're not good enough or strong enough or talented enough; they will say you're the wrong height or the wrong weight or the wrong type to play this or be this or achieve this. THEY WILL TELL YOU NO, a thousand times no, until all the no's become meaningless. All your life they will tell you no, quite firmly and very quickly.AND YOU WILL TELL THEM YES."
As Promised my Blood Group (A) analysis
Behavior =
Be very careful about decision making
Make things clear in black & white
Care too much about social rules a& standard
Tolerance =
High tolerance regardless of physical or repetitious work
Can't take frequent changes easily
Can easily lose interest in their hobby
How do they see their future & past? =
They must try very hard to forget about their past
They are pessimistic about their future
How d othey express their emotion? =
They are ablt to display a cool outlook even when they are angry
They are actually quite short-tempered
They need a longer time to heal a broken heart
They are too sensitive towards other 's opinions.
How do they work? =
They are perfectionist
They handle one thing at a time
They draw line between work and personal affairs
They are highly responsible people
When they choose a hobby, they tend to choose one that will relieve stress.
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Saturday, June 18, 2005
17th June 2005... This date marks the end of an attachment era for some people.... a group of students to be precise. Though their stay in Delphi was only a brief 6 months...... the memories etched into my heart and mind is as deep as the century old tree...... Root that runs deep. For some peepz...... chancing upon people in their life might only be passing phases... come and go... just like everyday you boarding MRT or SBS BUSes. For some... they leave marks that will always let your heart twitch when u hear certain songs ... or go to certain places.....Kinda remind u of stuff....
I've been .... time and again..... trained and trained until the point the heart is quite..... HARD!!!
These few days... I just thought ....... rather feel... .i dono.....Don want to face the fact that 17th is coming..... And Fri itself...... which was a couple of hours earlier.... I dare not face it. I stayed at home... Did not turn up for work. I don wish to face another episode of goodbyes... I hate good byes..... So big a guy... so fragile a heart! Last Nov..... this Mar.... then Apr.... I've had quite enough of that.....
I wonder.... if I'll really open myself up again...... HAHAHAA biggest joke man .... My life is a big joke.... to date...... maybe can write my own memoir!!!! Ya rite.... as if! Duh....
I've read something about .... characterizing by Blood group couple of days back.. Much like those stuff of zodiac and stuff. But i find its very accurate...... at leats most of it is correct for me. For eg... take a long time to forget the past R/S ..... pessimisstic about future..... blah blah... shall update the actual table of classification on the next entry...(cos i left it in office).....
Right now ... I am in company of my sweet collegues and frens... One might thing i be fooling around... but.. actual fact all are my Jiemei.. Cos they don feel like I am a guy... or rather harmless around them.... I feeling more and more "GU NIANG" already... donno how.. the nail polish.... the poses....shopping.... oh whatever... Why not be a trans... hahahha I think i too fat and big size for one anyway.. hahahah Stick to being a sucker! Faithful to all sincere to all... then ganna makan all the way..... I think I am too soft... too aggreeable....too self giving.... Not wanting to hold back once i think that something is worth my concern or attention. Damn it.... I am weak.. I am fricking WEAK.. .God bless me!
Now this song is for those who treasured the past sweet memories just like me.... and not ( DO NOT...absolutely not to) over indulge in living in the past. Cos we only live once..... eyes are being grown in front for a reason.. and its to look ahead! hahahaha
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时光一逝永不回
往事只能回味
忆童年时竹马青梅
两小无猜日夜相随
春风又吹红了花蕊
你已经也添了新岁
你就要变心
像时光难倒回
我只有在梦里想依偎
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Wednesday, June 15, 2005
Steady pun pi pi... Last sat (11 Jun 05) was fun. But hurting nonetheless. Heheheh weird combination right.. hahahahah.
Its was a meeting of biking frens. Total turnout was bout 11 heads. 2 bottles of I donno what hard liquior. I was late for bout 1 hour... reaching 11pm. 1st bottle finish already. I was like... WTF ... you guys crazy? .... Anyway. It was crazy... Drinking happily and dance! Yes ... DANCE... my fav part of the clubbing regime. There we were dancing halfway when a ANG MO decided to cut in and do a lambada with Fel. Fel is a petite little chilli while that ANG MO is like half a head taller than me... He was like engulfing her in the dance.... an alien trying to devour its pray... OMG.. its was crazy.... and we were like standing there helplessly enjoying the whole process. Had club with her a few times and all that time, there were bound to be episodes. Hahahahah FUN!
After that I heard some farny stuff and i just slipped and hit my head against the concrete....... Oblivious to the surrounding cos of the alcohol making me slowmo-. Haven't been that happy since a long time. The exchange for that was headache and a bad "orh cheh" until now .... even wearing helmet was quite a chore for me .... TMD ..... damn it. Still rem someone offered to help me rub... but... its ok.. I've learnt that promises are meant to be broken... ahahhaha so I've been immune to whatever people says or promises. I only know i will do my bit for whatever I say. Do not promise anymore.
I think i am really getting too old . My fav song came out... only thing i can do is wriggle and shout... cant dance like i used to be...rather my partners were not around to synchro movements. God I missed those days. ..... nicely choreographed movements !!! woot... feels like a boy band group that time.. muahahhahaha
Anyway... we had a super super lobster with us.... and she ain't even drinking.. hahahahh ..It was cos of her joke that i landed in my BIG headed state. Hmmph...anyway my head is already big so .... lamer....
After that we had our supper ... with the almost gone BEARY! hahahahha Kinda fun poking fun and "suanning" sessions...... I wish i was 10 years younger. Sometimes.... you just wish time will turn around and you can walk those paths that you've taken.... with a better set of thinkign and aim..... Hmmm ok ok rather 5 years should be enough.... 10 years is too much.. hhah God if only that wish can be granted!
Tuesday..... which was yesterday..... The group of IA students presented their project to our director. It was their last stint here in Delphi. Wish them all the best. One of them came up to me asking me to help them take photos. (how irony-my skill is so so .... but keep on ganna camera man all the time) It was fun ...... mixed feelings...... ehhh...... fun...... sad...... whatever.. hahahah .... End of this week. Their attachment will end. Good luck for whatever their future beholds. After this, polishing units in the lab will never be the same again. Hahahahha.....
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Friday, June 10, 2005
Why is there such thing as sadness exist? If only there are only happiness that dominate the whole of Earth realm. Seeing and feeling sadness waltzing thru the mist amongst our pathetic souls really make us down and out. If there is one wish... one wish us all. I rather there be no sadness at all. Seriously. Only happiness ...... that lingers to the very last drop......
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无言到面前
与君分杯水
清中有浓意
流出心底醉
不论冤或缘
默说蝴蝶梦
还你此生此世
今世前世双双飞
过万世千生去
～不论冤或缘
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Thursday, June 09, 2005
Hmmm i feel like ...... sad once again... donno why.. just suddenly i guess..... depression mode on... life.. what is life??? Love? what is love???
Its times like that when u feel sucky..... oh whatever words u can think off... hahah
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It has been wonderful blogging.... yakking to myself.... What's life? Kinda lost at the moment. Hoping that everything will fall in place once....... I get a new job. Non engineering!!!! Hehehehe kinda sick and tired of it. Though I felt should have been gone 2 yrs ago... here I am still loafing around. Ogling at IA students and seeing old staff go, new staff come..... thinking to myself... I should be the one giving chocolates already.....
Recent episodes of sunset bay proven fruitful.... in terms of tanning!!! Hehehehe.. got a bit of shades that I never had... Oh I'm in love with my body....-_- minus the fats...Urgh!!!! Hope my future is as interesting and arresting as my new LOOK here... hehehe.... The last one was good.... very good.... BUT I STILL HAVE TO MOVE AHEAD.... " I like to move it move it..... we like to...... MOVE IT"
I like to move it move it
Whats wrong with our Dear Yoda? Dark side of the forces, he was tempted... Slightly.. but definitely.......
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Monday, June 06, 2005
Dream Bike!!!!!!
This is definitely one bike that keep my blood speeding in my vein!!! VFR... Sports tourer! now with Vtec.... V4 engine... it Roars and is steady and is fast! AFter much consideration. I have to say bye bye to it. Its expensive .... 24K .OMG...... for a 800CC bike only.... Paying 1000CC bike insurance and roadtax ..... for 800cc bike.... definitely a no no... Unless i really crave for it.... not now i guess.... a new blackbird CBR1100xx is only 20K ..... hmmmm Class 2 ... after getting it whats the use.... Can I change bike? Can i get a new job? heeheh God this is difficult. Help me!!! ARghhhhh....
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Been very tired recently. Must have been the late nite.... and i mean REAL LATE... rather morning!!! Sleeping almost 6am weekend.... OMG.... Life.......If it like that?
Now its 2am.... Monday morning.... Hope can get my 2nd interview.... ASAP.. am sick of playing the waiting game. It was like a chattin and catching up session with the Engineer... Cos he was former from my company.. hahahhaha Not much questions asked. I wonder what he is thinking. I want that job. Its really what I am looking for... GOD HELP ME if u think this is meant for me! Amen!!!!!!!!!!!!
Will carry on searching for new jobs. Can't pin all hopes on one.... Think this applies to everything in life. What if the one and only thing that you give all hopes to... lets u down........... It will be DOOMS day for anybody i guess. I want long break again. Long long break... hahahah ...... There is only 1 thing, 1 person that anybody can rest their heart with.. thats GOD! For HE is TODAY, tommorrow and forever!
Facing the unforeseen future alone might be scary at times. There are moments that one wish for someone to walk the path together. Its a gamble!!! Hahahahha ultimate gamble. For now, being alone is the best.
Sat has been a Sunset Bay day for me for the past 3 weeks. Babes watching and suntanning!!! Woot... this is something that can be get used to!!! The disappointing thing is that I cannot get anymore tanned! "White Chopped Chicken"... This session showed something extra! A band festival! OMG i miss being in a millitary band! THere were at least 10 bands marching or rather boggeying down sunset bay playing songs from Mickey Mouse to standard marching pieces... Cool man... All wearing Hawaii prints.... Sad to see my alma mater was not there..... sobs.
Its another week coming up....wondering what holds for me to attend to this week. Hopefully more job. I do not know how to fill up my forecast for the coming evaluation of job performance. Definitely have to get out of this company ASAP. If they were still stable, I might consider staying another 2 years.... to get my degree.. But I guessed I have wasted enough of my youth and times here. I should have left 2 years ago. So many things happened.... heart shattered, deeply hurt. Opps. Thou shall not indulge in that again.. .EVER!
*hums=> always look at the bright side of life.....whistle...........*
I am really beginning to wonder... am I cracking up or something.... getting more and more used to talking to myself. Hahahahahhahahah.... Funny....
Sign off for now dear bloggy!
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Thursday, June 02, 2005
These few days. I feel so tired!! Wonder why ..... wonder why.... Not eating too much, been exercising regularly. Not thinking a lot..... letting things go thorougly! Oh well... Life.... hahahah Counting down to the hours and mins to my big big occasion.. Wish me Luck... whoever thats out there..... hehehehehe I need it.
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Rise and shine! Today I am early...... for run.... morning 630am... hahahah crazy neh!
last nite I hit my bed about 7+... wonder why tired. Donno.... fail to turn up to meet my bike frens. My intended gym session..... Oh well before i know it, its 3am in the morning... OMG. Can't seem to fall asleep after that. Using pc to watch ONE PIECE movie..... nice anime. Cute....
Writing blog, reading blog, chattin with my UK sista!! hahahha Searching for songs as well. Oh. its so sinful. Piracy!!!! What a topic... .recent edition of Digital Times was the big theme. How to educate our young generation.....To them everything is free from net. (err... i believe in that too...)
Oh well.... Hope today is a good day. Need to top up my fuel. Wonder if I should go Malaysia to top it up. Feel so bored..... 2molo is the big day... Really hope I get thru. Even if its shit. I will try my best. As long as I am outta this old age home! Its making me damn old........
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年月把拥有变做失去
疲倦的双眼带著期望
今天只有残留的躯壳
迎接光辉岁月
风雨中抱紧自由
一生经过□徨的挣扎
自信可改变未来
问谁又能做到
Bah... can't sleep..... knocked out 6 hours since i came home.....
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Wednesday, June 01, 2005
Whats up recently? I dont know.. Life... think it still goes on. Life has been pretty ok. Just that without a partner to share the colorful details with me at the moment. But its perfectly alright. Everywhere I go now, my ipod goes along with me. I have my crazy collegues who "dears" with me. Hahahaha... we are very close frens. They are trying to get me into going HongKong with them for the July Shutdown my company having. Anticipating $500 for the trip and lodging. Shopping is not budgeted into the $500. I am really tempted to tag along. After my last Europe Dream, my arse has been itching to go abroad to experience different culture and food. OMG, what should i do.....Marnee is definitely a issue to me now. I am also also also torn between going thru' LASIK...... I am really sick and tired of wearing specs and contact lenses.....Thou dreamt of waking up opening my eyes seeing my surrounding crystal clear!!!! Wearing my Arai Fullface without any hindrance!!!!! God what should I do!!!! If only the Lasik in Singapore can use installment to pay. I'll definitely go ahead with it!!!!! Yeh man....
Hmmmmmm....... THere is something that i want to hold back til i confirm 1st.... WHich is a new job..... Yes... .yes.... If it has any more further developments. I will definitely tell.. Right now. Its still pending... This Fri(3 June)... There be interview!!! Pray hard for me .. .my frens.... really hope i clinch this new job. Cos current 1 is really boring me to death.. Nothing much to do (company really has gotten into deep shit) . just surfing net everyday. And current company lingers too much of my past. Sad ones most of them ( why sad ones.... cos sad ones hunts you more) . A new change of environment will be good for me, myself and I..... -_-"'
Time really flies.... Its JUNE already..... This word and month will have other meanings to my life next time the calendar hits the month again..... Hahahahha ...... Joke? Hmmmmm.
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