Tuesday, July 19, 2005
Continuing the short story previously.......
The paths are clear..... choices are difficult. Previous encounter with a road less taken has left her scarred. Haunted by nitemares and recurring images of unpleasant events are not easy pill to swallow. Be it anyone. Let alone a young damsel of such. Time will heal wounds indefinitely. And only time will have the power to let a person change, open up once again. There is an chines old saying...
时间能充当一切... literally means time will wash away everything. At the moment.... the lass will only wonder..... standing by the crossroad.... Maybe some day she might wanna try taking the route once again.....
The road will always be there....... waiting to be taken....... promising and bright..... covered with flowers and greenery. Only if u believe that it will happen.........nonetheless...... waiting........ patiently..........
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Monday, July 18, 2005
落花有意，流水无情，百份心思，付出东水，无影无行，心该何赴Recently... been ups and downs....... Am I too crazy? or obsessed? or jus plain ........
笨？我不是笨，我是有福!!! Hahahaha.. Then again.... Affairs of the heart has never been easy on me. Hahahahha Fate? Destiny? Ouch! It hurts. Rather see a bit of glow at the end of the tunnel..... somehow.. hahahha. What kinda glow is it? Hmmmmmm........ Indication of Good? Bad? No one knows.
Butler : The butler is a senior servant in a large household. Usually the butler is the most senior staff member, although in the great houses of the past, the household was sometimes divided into departments with the butler in charge of the dining room (including the wine cellar) and pantry, and sometimes the entire parlour floor, and a housekeeper who was in charge of the whole house and its appearance.
Hmmmm This is term given to me recently. Am I suppose to be happy with that? Hahahahha.... Oh well....... that instance I felt ....... destiny is such. My life is such.... Hahahaha no need to question anymore. Its been fixed. Butler ...... to all.. just a personal servant. Or maybe can be referred as nanny to the Artist. Taking care of all their day to day needs.
Though it may appear to be as such. I am not GIVING up just yet.. hahahhahh ... maybe this is the main diff between then me ... and the now me! hahahha.
Self delusion and self pitying do not get you anywhere! YES ABSOLUTELY NIL. These little demons has tried to make friends with me previously. For a while I was misled. Now .... Freed! Freed! hahahahhaha those people who are still oblivious to it and still need professional help. Thats pretty sad! I pray for you out there! GOD BLESS YOU.
Had a makan outing Yesterday.... rather.. almost out everyday.. hahahahha.... Yesterday was quite funny cos I was being commented as a Daddy carrying all the milk powder and stuff. Hahahha. 1st time i carry a bag out walking in Orchard Road... since how long ago. Hahahaha. Walking alone was nice. Viewing all the under my Red Cyclops Glasses. Eh.. some people say its so obvious its me. Hahahhaha. I find its quite nice hidding under those shades cos unless those who knows me. Others jus a big head in red shades. Ok enough crapping bout me. From Orchard we moved to ECP for makan. Was quite a killer.. looking for tables..... Organiser had a good timing of 8pm on a sunday.. FAMILY DAY. Oh well still got a feast nonetheless. Whole table of HEATY FOOD. OMG. Quite a number of us is sick with sorethroat and coughs... Still...*shakesheads*
The fun part is ...... after long long arguing bout whats next... we ended up at the clubhouse for a "short stint" of MJ once again. I think it was the best game we had ... not bout the winning or losing part. It was the atmosphere. Gossiping and jokes...... of everything ... hahahha. I guess I am for the last 2nd leg.... hahahah stuck for so long.. hahahahha My laughter was........ uncontrollable.. I am truely sorry.. HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAH.. ops
This kinda session is definitely what most of us are looking for I guess..... sorry for making student and interviewee for staying so late.. hahahah
我不能只是做你的朋友，不能只是做普通朋友，我要的不只是做你的普通朋友
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Monday, July 11, 2005
Patience : -
The act or power of calmly or contentedly waiting for something due or hoped for; forbearance.Persistence:-
continuity: the property of a continuous and connected period of time perseverance: the act of persisting or persevering; continuing or repeating behavior; "his perseveration continued to the point where it was no longer appropriateToday we take some time off to attend English Lesson! Students. Lets see what is the difference between this 2 words. Both might have similar meanings. As in the time involved. The subtle pun that exhumes from within means worlds apart. Which one Category you belong to? Hmmmmm..... I wonder really wonder which one do YOU... yes YOU belong to. I can definitely say I am to the 1st rather than latter. Wonder those who know me agree to this.. or am I too thickskinned! Maybe most of you might think otherwise. I really would really really wanna be the 1st one. Cos being the 2nd one might turn on off! U might be very persistant but the receiving party just accept blindly......clueless of what is the end result that you hope for.... end up will be just like the quote "
his perseveration continued to the point where it was no longer appropriate" .... I think this is the worst thing that can actually happen to anyone. Previously I will rather think I am such. Now...... after much thoughts. Guess its stupid. Business point of view.... Reap no gains........... physique point of view..... TIRED.... Much less to say about emotional point of view... Sad, Pathetic! GET A LIFE MAN!!! hahahahha. BTDT! Period!
Recently, I've had a feeling... So familiar.....so close.. yet so hurting...... The word is .... EXTRA.... hahahahhaha...... .Its not easy being in a competition feel lost......not knowing when does the route end. There is an old chinese saying.... "
鱼与熊掌，两者间施" ... simple english..... Fish I want.... Bear Palm I also want. I wonder which one am I anyway.. .Definitely not the bear palm I guess.. .Hahahahh ...... Financially not that sound! Experience in life... hahahahahha not as comparable!
Been trying myself in showing whatever side of me that is worthy. Wonder how long can my recent trained body can take. You are sick. I am worried. So much of nagging make me feel so old. U are so so so stubborn. I only can give in (cos whatever I say U are not gonna listen) and let u do what you want. The aftermath can only be salvaged by being there taking care of you. I will not drop ........ cos I have to be there. I just can't.
不管有多苦,
我会全心全力
爱你到底
当你看进我的眼里
我的心颤抖不已
请让温柔的说一句感觉累的时候让我抱紧
是你让我看透生命这东西四个字坚持到底
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Saturday, July 09, 2005
爱一个人真的那么难吗？努力证明自己的价值，自己的纯在。如果我能，我愿是那片大海天空，能让你在失落的时候看着我发呆。我愿是那时间，转回头让你把一切的污点漂白。感谢这一天的温暖，午餐，逛街。陪伴在你身旁给与意见让你更加认识我。无声的语言更加处近比此间的默契。虽然浪费了那一刹那的试影，看到你那灿烂的笑容，仿佛把所有的怨气与烦躁都抹掉。几个时辰的单独相处是我这些日子以来最开心与向往的。谢谢你的温柔。。。爱 玲 我 好 爱 你
是 声 愿 事 与 愿
永 不 我 永 情 谁
恒 息 宁 传 感 扛
， ， ， ， ， 。
Love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does. Love is a battle, love is a war; love is a growing up
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Thursday, July 07, 2005
Sian.... Completely Sian. Plant shutdown ended. It marks an end of something. Something much more subtle then just starting to work once again. Its July already. Time i drawing nearer and nearer to my decision to get my degree cracking. Hehehhehe. Pondering of changing job to entirely new field. Besides that, hopes to change of a new bike!!!!!! But I wonder what are my chances. Hope alls well ends well. I'm definitely crazy recently. Everything seemed oblivious to me except for one. The only one that takes my breath away and all my attention. My everything. Wonder really its my fate that I've gotta go throught them same crap....... 5 yrs.... 5 weeks........and now...... all same..... My fate? NO!!!!!! I'm not gonna let past experience haunt me! It has already been but shadows of the past! Lessons learnt! Time to move on. Destiny in helping people yes! Resigning to fate to whatever that has happened ???? NO... defnitely no....I am not the boy I once was . I'm a man Now! Mark my words. Be it sane or insane. Challenges lies ahead. Tanning @ the Pool! Me and Irene
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Sunday, July 03, 2005
Elaine' Bday. At Ah babe's (Alvin's House)
Nice pic eh?
Happy bday Ah Babe Sao aka Elaine! Heheheh Makan on da house. Recently these group of frens are my closest click I guess......
Hmmmmm....... .so many many stories read, so many many life ones happening around us. Many of us have grown up watching serials and soap operas. Endless repetition of similar tragic situations......love, hate, 3rd party, whatever ....... Growing up thinking all these only happens in shows..... NOT real life.... OUCH!!! Get real man. Who are the ones writing all these?...... where are their inspirations? Real Life situations! Never have I even thought of similar storyline will happen to me. Hahahaha...... but when it does, its really hard ...... hard ........ hard..... hurts...... hurts ........ hurst....... Oh well. Never fall, never learn. How many times must 1 be hurt continuosly to the point that he/she totally give up on everything? Hmmmm. Some time maybe just once is enough, sometimes countless... hahahha.....
Learnt very important lessons these few years....smiles can bring wonders. Its can maybe you more relief, make your friends feel that you are better. Abeit the thruth, underneath the skin is pure .... pure sadness...... Its often said. The one who laugh most, is the sadest of them all. One of my friends did make a remarks 2 nights ago. He said, this group now has couple of super low people around.... Msn chatting with them almost got him jump off his unit. Hahahahahha..... True... true.....I was one of the few who was in the consoling party for him. Now..... now... hahahahha ......... hahahhahaha
落花有意随流水，流水无意恋落花
记得最近听人对我说过; 命里有时终需有，命里无时莫强求。
开始我觉得是出自一翻好意，过了些日子，我晃然大悟。
原来最近所发生的是竟如此的藏在话中话。。可能嘲笑，可能提醒。。。
成功与失败只在一线中。。。。 争取每分每秒。。。拼了命也要证明。。。敢去爱，敢去拼。。时间才能告诉我是否我是真心，或假意。我是不会这样就输了。
For the stories earlier.... Pls..... wait for further publishing....... Hahahahhaha
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