Tuesday, August 30, 2005
曲名：偏见 歌手：梁咏琪 我手心的温度渐渐在离开你口中的谎言慢慢能明白早知求也求不回来即使最后只剩残骸心不会更改没有祝福我明白看凋零的玫瑰在静静发呆朋友对我责怪要我放得开固执对我是种虐待越爱得深越难抛开爱是种偏见如果可以再重来我明白爱情已经超载爱的完全坏了姿态你冷眼看待就像是种伤害我好像站在无人山崖全世界都抛在外明知你不再回来我早已明白 This song is to YOU...... U sang it, read it... ultimately understanding its meaning and doing it... is another issue....nonetheless....... I dedicate to you.....God Bless You abundantly.
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Sunday, August 28, 2005
Champion!!!!! 4th in a row......Basketball... my best game!
It was a fierce battle.... left 2 teams only.. I went with heart that is broken. 6 men vs 10 men. How tiring is that..... This year is my last year in company.... Using my name as the Team name... The previous night before... I was so perturbed and disheartened.. I really didn't want to go at all. With me they might not win.. but without my will definitely lose.....I hate to disapoint people...... really really hate......
Into the game... I was hoping to recieve an sms, jus to boost my morale a bit... I know it will be only a dream for her to be there cheering for me. But jus an sms. NON.... hahahhaha I went ahead... telling God I hand everything to you.. I can't take the pressure and sadness. My mind was in a blank........ there was a moment that we trailed by 7 points... slowly ..... we caught up... level and even over took. In the final 32 secs..... foul to our favour 29-27. I got the pass and I jus instinctively went for the shot (as if I'm gonna slam) Wham.. it went in 31-27..... We WON!!!!!!
I did not expect the final game point to be scored by me..... sad to say the one I wanted to share the joy with ......... suddenly grew distanced away.
I rem .... in life being 1st... Champion is the thing... 2nd... is loser... failure.... whatever.....Who wants to be loser? Duh...... I got this Champion but so what...... Hahahahhahahaha
In the end ... it doesn't matter...... Irony ...... Fact.......
"If you love somebody, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were."
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Saturday, August 27, 2005
At 1st I wanted to put a song 那女孩对我说 黄义达 but then again.. its so so sad..... utterly self-pitying.. Its like telling people "I am so poor thing, come pity me......." Duh...... Guess I'm not swooping to that kind of level.... asking for pity... OUCH .. .thats not me!
Recently been looking for this singer! So embarressed..... Standing at CD shop copying all the titles in the album... Oh I am such a pirate... .Muahhahaha.....(hope I don get sue for saying this)
张敬轩 期待
*听完你说goodbye之后我自己掉眼泪自己那么用心
那么投入到底为了谁你总是说不必太过太过在乎谁
这样只会令自己越来越累
#每天醒来我都告诉自己要少爱你一点
好让离开那天自己可以好过一点
可是一天不见我就在夜里梦见你好几遍
醒来的时候才发现你已不在身边
@每一个女孩都期待能拥有爱能够被人爱不受伤害
我对你的爱我不明白何时变成了依赖每一个女孩都期待
能拥有爱 never say goodbye 不要再分开
i''ll never make you cry i''ll treat you right
feel the love close your eyes
(想让你明白对你的爱就像深深...大海)
"我有骗过你吗？"
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Friday, August 26, 2005
除此之外Stepping out of darkness..... Its the hardest thing to do when you encounter events that leave you scarred ..... for life! Difficult? Of course... Hard to swallow? Definitely. Indulging in the past is somewhat "enjoyable" for some of us. Been there done that... Why the world is so cruel? Why he/she treat me like that? Why..... thousands of why..... Ultimately....life goes on. Living in a world without color is really really sad. Being personally encountered BTDT(been there done that) kinda mentality. Its really the difference between a winner and a loser. Snap out of it, you win. Not able to.... Sorry to yourself, your life, and those who care and love you.
Though there are those who are around you may not be able to be there for life, they are there now.. this instant to help you pull through your darkest hour. Maybe some of them are your santuary for the moment....some are jus wannabes.. nonetheless they are here to help..... All jus wanting to give you a hand! Don't waste all their efforts..... They may not be even close to that of what you can't let go of, they are around to make your day brighter and livelier.
Rem this :
从远处望着你的影子，
看着哭泣的双眼，
背负着往事的重担，
心里有千万个不想放。
你伤心，我失眠，
你哭泣，我心酸。
原能帮你承当所有的怨恨与悲伤，
让你好好的熟枕。
玲，我就在不远处守候着你为你祈祷。
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我只遇见你的现在
不管你接受或离开
i hope to stay for a while
除此之外要你明白
你的笑我真是喜欢看
于是我一次又一次等待
其实都还算愉快
除此之外非常遗憾
你的心我还是打不开
and if you need somebody
我确定我会在
不会走开
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Wednesday, August 24, 2005
祝我生日快乐Hehehhe Wish myself a Happy birthday.......
Wish that all those that I love will be granted what their heart desire......
Here's my Wishlist.....only that
all her wishes be granted........
White spot gone
Headache gone
Financial problems be ironed out and solved
and what her heart deeply desires.......... of course not me.... but the bai-ka......the one who swept her off her feet and now an armageddon that left her hanging.....
I guess that he is very much still up her mind... even though I maybe with her almost daily and helping & taking care of her in whatever that I can. My existance maybe oblivious to some but I am making my presense felt in lotsa ways. If there is really a wish that I may make for this Birthday of mine....... that is only grant what her heart desires...... God I thank u and AMEN!!!!
相爱 不如相知与其执着痴念不如化为祝福不要让你爱的人被你的爱所磨蚀 反过来以你的爱 让他得到力量 展翅高飞 假若真的有缘 就算分隔两地心仍会在一起真正爱一个人 必定以他的幸福 当作是你的幸福 若然有人 能给予他 更大的幸福 你就把它送到那里去 At times, people need to re-evaluate about those around you. You really care for them? Love them? Or simply jus want to possess them like something u see off the shelf you like and u buy. Hmmm guess many people will keep their mind occupied for a while ba.....
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Tuesday, August 23, 2005
This face.... is inspiration to many ... many SINGAPOREANS!!!!!!!Front the 1st moment I see him... I had great admiration for him. Being blind doesn't mean anything. God is always fair.. He takes away something from you, he gives you other in return... In Kelvin's case... his voice!!! His ability to touch the hearts around him with his angelic voice! God really bless him..... I saw the preliminary and I was like.... If this stupid project superstar is really looking for someone who can sing.. HE IS DA MAN!!!!! true enough he went thru stages..... In the beginning ... .the public was debating if the program kept him in the game only to show that they are "goodwilled".... Facts proven otherwise..... He beaten other contastant to win the Guys Final.... the moment the results was announced.... Tears brimmed my eye..... I am really touched! Seriously.. He deserves to win..... More than his counter part! He, even as blind, took his steps around the stage.... waved on the audience in effort to move the crowd to his music.... He smilied as if he can see... move as if he can see...... Man...... how many people can do that even when they had the gift of SIGHT!!!!Friends out there... Those who think that you are being in worst situation... .self indulgence in sadness.... This is a true hero that u can learn things from..... emerge in the mist of the singapore crowd.... a ROBINHOOD who sees nothing but darkness..... voices that shines in every aspect in life!!!!!
Kelvin 陈伟联 ... He is already a legend... even though if he might lose in the final of the project superstar in INDOOR STADIUM... .he is already a SUPERBRIGHT COSMO in the small red dot in southeast asia... He is definitely not like William Hung like some people said... HE IS A SINGER.... Inspirational!!! Our very own Ray Charles & Stevie Wonder!!!!!
This entry is dedicated to those who never give up in their life.....despite whatever unfairness that might have been bestowed upon them..... Live their life to the fullest!!! Living BEYOND THEMSELVES..... God bless you all.....
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Thursday, August 11, 2005
Recently, I've been quite amaze with pp keep taking self shots and trying to find the best view of whatever angles they look the best...... The solution.... A phone with good cam! Hmmmmm Interesting indeed... .and I automatically become 1 of the victim of being backdrop hahahaha... Oh well I look rather nice anyway.... surprise..... maybe cos the camera is so good that it hide all my "fine" details.. muahahhaha This entry will be dedicated to U! hehehhehe all bout u!!!! Telling the world how much u are in love with YOURSELF! ... glad to be part of it... even jus a bit only la... kekekekeke
Mirror mirror on da wall.. Who is the Chioest one of all... .er...... wrong Selfshot Queen
In Da Car
In Da Car once again with lights on
Look so nice...
Still in clinic.... Sick meh? Don look like leh
Ehh......... Confirm not sick... Look good together ah?
Babes on a blackbird!!!!
This is for you.. .dedicated!!!! hehehehe and being there for you maybe until now has become a habit. I jus wanna let u know........ I maybe not be the richest nor most handsome guy........ The only thing I have is jus a heart....... true and sincere....
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Monday, August 01, 2005
Except for feeling of tiredness... other than that I'm quite fine actually.. Hahahhaha.... Life has been quite......... how should I put it...... GP style.... Skidded on a road that I've taken a couple of times... Only this time I was dreaming..... then went up slope.... Totally outta nothing. Have to fork out a repair cost! Wonder why am I so clumsy....
Being butler and BSBH (Bao Shua Bao Hai -- in hokkien) quite used to it already.... Oh well I've been doing that for years already... nothing new to me anyway.. Hahahahha I am a man of
三便方便 (convenient)
顺便 (on the way)
随便 (easy going/no preference)..... So many years I've been such a character. Be it towards all my friends....especially my loved ones (also to those gals that I like as well opss). Whether they take me for granted ... I have no complains....... Why
方便 ? I always
随传随到 ... irregardless of time and place..... even before the time i had my bike..... Maybe some of them know what I am saying bout...
顺便 in a way that I will make my way out for them when help or favour is needed and I always pretend to say its jus
顺便 its ok .. even though many a times risk of getting my job affected or even personal health or safety at risk.
随便 ...This is my character I guess. Anything also can.... easy going ... another word would be soft hearted. Too good .. to a point that I'm being trampled all over.. I still ok ... .smile...... kill me if u can that kinda attitude..... Many of my buddies say I'm stupid. Sometimes I really feel I am..... How can anyone tolerate your girl friend this or that.... or even those I am courting. Hahahhahaa tolerence has peak to scale...... mine is like the ocean...... Only to drain me out totally.
Recently so many things happened in the group..... Namely R/S problems ......... I don't wanna elaborate much...... Bottom line.. Know what you want and what you are doing..... Things alwasy happen for a reason..... Time is your friend to let you realise soon enough what it meant for such things to happen. Swallowing it or accepting the fact... You have not choice at all..... Why not take it happily? Live and let live...... The most difficult part is ........... the person is not accepting the truth! ....... Its not like you are being lead on nor misleaded in anyway! Simple direct blast in the face will do more good? Some find it cruel!
Talking about the part about misleading.... this is interesting........ Its so subtle...... full of pun! Sometimes when apply correctly... its white lies... hidding the truth to prevent other party from getting hurt........ wrongly...... TOTAL Armageddon. Lifes affected ...... complications...... This word has been with me for how many years already... hahahha Kinda numb towards its evergoing whispering around my ears...... Truth is that I have conquered it. Knowing the truth and walking through it is my challenge...... still is and I guess will always be...... Many might not be able to take it but.. .I took it, I am still taking it... and I WILL ALWAYS BE RESILIENT to it. I guess some people will aways falls for the oldest trick in the book.......hahahahahahah... seeing it happening all the time tickles my bones and grins with empathy! God bless you.....
Extracted from my fren..... its nice.. .it only the truth i guess.....
"Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get, it's what you are expected to give -- which is everything."
ps.... i believe love can conquer everything.........
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