Monday, April 17, 2006
Been to pubs recently. Its not that I am in bad mood.. On the contrary, I was attracted by the concept and feel of the place. Been there 3 times and I have fallen in love with that place!!! Not to mention other things that came along with the package. The one who introduced me to that place. This kind of pub or rather hangout has been in my mind for more than a decade. Imagine ME singing this song ... IN FRONT OF PUB audience.... and also played drums ..... hahahahh ( eh... I've played sax infront of a thousand crowd before... so what is this anyway... hurhurhur)
Dear, listen to this song!!
There is a certain level of comfortness between us. Though it was only such a short period of time. I must say something. Your love and passion for music and dance really drawn my attention. When a person can really dance, he/she will exhume an aura of attractiveness (for me at least) Much like the show...... REALLY REALLY Its so ..... 帅！！！！
ps... as I am writing this entry.. scenes from the trip came into my mind. I did not paid much attention to you except for the fact that you were my fren's pillion. Until u mention about SALSA... hehehe and how keen you were about dancing..... BALLROOM DANCE. I've been planning to take up a course or two about it. I've been playing all kind of songs since secondary school. All are typical songs but never a dance.. Anything pertaining to music will trigger my adrenaline.. One way or the other. Come to think of it, eversince we all unloaded our stuff in Eric's home, I noticed you walked in steps... much like practising dance. I wanted to ask but keep mum.. until really had the chance to chat without letting other people thinking I WANNA HIT ON YOU. I guess sometimes things just happens without you deliberately planned or whatever. Its really chances ........ chances that was given by God.. and ultimately we CHOOSE. You were telling me you thought that "someone" was cute so I tried to sound it out for you.. but too bad.. he is attached. So there I was, as usual, trying to be a good guy helping whatever things I can. Even just some fren I got to know.......( OK OK OK I DID HAVE THE INTEREST in the 1st place)
I guess this is my 1st time having something started without the need to ask.. .LITERALLY.... the flow just happens. Its really nice. Not mere words can describe it. I guess I did hesitated like a couple of months back. The pros and cons, the rights and wrongs, the............ oh well... The only biggest concern I had was.....age... then again.. U are more matured then ur age, I am so childish for mine! Damn.... hahahahha lame joke right.
My mind was still in a confused state just weeks back. Why I was hesitating so much? I had the answers to it. I DO NOT WANT TO RUIN PEOPLE's life. Why bend so much for me? There will be a point when u will spring back( I've tried that before. Took me LONG TIME to realise that and the end result NOT GOOD)..... I am sorry. Truely am! Given 5 yrs earlier, i wouldn't have hesitated and went ahead before thinking of any steps further. Right now..... right now.... So much learnt, so much sadness, so much hurt. Trained me to THINK EXTRA HARD ........ bottomline is that I am too soft. I am afraid to hurt pp more than other pp hurt me. Sorry that I had made u sleepless..... I guess I have to be more selfish when it comes to the affairs of the heart.
|| 2:06 AM
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